~afternoon~

Happy and with a smile on her face ella went for a walk with her dog, Bella.
Some will surely ask why ella is sooooo happy and here is the answer: Ashtray makes her happy :)
Finally ella felt like she was being loved.
Although today was a busy day, everything seemed to be going well.
Samantha didn't know yet that Ella had her first kiss with Ashtray and she didn't know who "Ashtray" was either.
Her mother often ask if she has a boyfriend and she ask why she is so happy because Ella has been in a phase of depression for the last few days and ella was feeling very bad.
Ella loves Ashtray but no one should know that...except her friends.

POV of the ASHTRAY:

After school I prevent myself on the bed and opened my phone.
Gia is starting to get annoying and she texts me with a heart so often!
The only thing on my mind is Ella, she is just beautiful and I love her eyes and character!
I really never thought that I could fall in love, with Ella that was just an exception!
Fez and Rue ship us but Ella doesn't know about it.

I've been feeling bad the last few days because I've been thinking about Ekla all the time.
I was mean to her... very mean.
Sometimes I overreact and it escalates but I would never put my hand up at Ella because I don't hit women...just boys.

Ella was a very gentle person.
You can really talk to her about anything without her complaining or anything,if you know what I mean.
It feels like she cares what I say and she always understands me.
But that's not all, when she texts other guys I get so mad! I could kill these guys!
Ella is my gir-
Uhm nevermind...

ELLA'S POV:

at home I fed Bella and avoided getting on my bed.
I did my homework with Lexi with Facetime.
When everything was done I really wanted to go outside to think.

I put on a large hoodie with matching sweatpants.

"Where are you going Ella?"

"I'm going to Jules.. yes, Jules :)"

After a while, Ella didn't tell her mother anymore because she would get in trouble.
Smantha has become different from Ella not that Samantha hits her no no! But her mom is rarely home and they both don't spend time together it feels like their little family is falling apart and will never be the same again.

Samntha looked at Ella questioningly because she didn't know who Jules was, but the thing was that Ella lied to her mother

"Who is Jules?"

,,A friend?"

"Mhh okay but come back home!"

"Okay i'll come home do, I look like I'm sleeping on the street?"
My mom annoyed me, her manner annoyed me and absolutely everything annoyed!
Somehow I can't feel loved by her and also lonely.
Only Bella is with me and she makes me happy too.

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I thoughtfully walked down my street trying to think of something good to think about but couldn't because on my mind was Smantha 24/7...my mom.
What if our relationship breaks down and we start hating each other?
I don't want us to hate each other!

Ella sadly heard her Spotify playlist and her tears flowed down her cheek.
She also wanted to have a father, a father who would take care of her and make her happy.
Ella only knows her mother, her grandmother is  "dead" ...obviously, just like the rest of the family.
Whenever Ella saw a happy family, it hurt.
Her heart didn't want to work anymore from that moment and just wanted to jump out.
When ella was little, she often saw fathers buying their children something nice and playing with them... it wasn't like that at all with Ella.
Her mother had not so much money to buy anything and she was desperate.

The tears wouldn't stop streaming down my cheeks...
As I got further away from my house, I saw a group of boys across the street.
I hate that moment, i hate teenage boys in general because they are big pedos that every girl wants to get laid.

"AYYOOO whore!"
One of the guys yelled I ignored her and kept walking as I glanced at these guys I saw them coming towards me...they didn't go they ran towards to me quickly.
Of course I got nervous and pretended to text someone.
Suddenly one of the guys grabbed my arm and pushed me against a house.
My breathing became irregular and my pulse got higher and higher.
Fuck what am I doing now?!
There is a maximum of 6 boys aged 15-14!

"Please let me go!"
I begged this boy but he licked his bottom lip and then bit on it.

,,Do you really think I would just let such a hot chick go?''
H

e looked back at his boys and they came towards me.
One started touching my hair and the boy who grabbed my arm grabbed my waist.

,,Let me go!"
I screamed with tears im my eyes.

"Shut up you whore!"

His hand went to my neck and he choked me lightly.

"Let her go you mf or I'll shoot you, you fucking son a of bitch!"