You're Sick




I sat in my living room alongside Riley and Maddy. Being home kind of feels weird to me. Mainly cause I'm never here and always at Lani's house.

Maddy and I was planning Riley's first birthday party. She's growing up way too fast. It seems like she was just born yesterday.

She's started walking. Well not really. She'll only walk if she has something to hold on to. I'm determined to get her fully walking by her birthday.

She said her first word recently. Pretty funny actually. Maddy was basically begging her to say "mama" but was very disappointed when said "no" instead.

"She's turning one not sixteen. Why are you trying to throw this big ass party?" Maddy asked.

"Shes only gonna turn one once. My backyard is huge enough for what I have in mind. I'm gonna hire servers, cooks, and there is gonna be a star-studded guest list." I say.

"Star-studded?" She questions.

"Cardi is gonna be there with Kulture. Kim K with North and I'm very close to getting Beyoncé and Blue Ivy." I answer.

"Beyoncé? You really are famous now. But you do know those kids are much older than Riley?" Maddy says.

"It's a kid's birthday party. They're kids. Besides I'm trying to secure a Beyoncé feature and become friends with Kim." I shrug.

"Why do you want to be friends with a Kardashian?" She asked.

"So I can be cool with Kris. She's the only one the really matters. Well her and Kylie's fine ass." I respond.

She just laughs at me. "But why Kris?"

"So when something goes wrong I can rely on her. You know what they say 'the devil works hard but Kris Jenner works harder.' I just really want to know what lawyers that family has. Their team is unmatched." I answer.

"You are something else. Now Riley and I have to go. She's getting fitted for her birthday dress." Maddy says.

I just nod and pick up Riley. "Bye baby. I can get a kiss?"

"No." She says but gives me one anyway.

I chuckle. That's the only word she knows so she says it all the time now. I hand her back to Maddy so they can go.

I started making phone calls to plan the party. It took like two hours to hire servers, cooks, entertainers, and all that extra shit. Who knew planning a birthday party took so much work?

I opened up my notebook and crossed shit off the list. All that was left to do was actually get Beyoncé on the guest list. I'm surprised how close I am to getting it done. You really just gotta know the right people.

There was loud banging on my my door before someone just burst in. Somebody done lost they mind. I responded to Lani's text before checking to see who it was.

"Alexa what the fuck is wrong with you?" I ask.

"You're a sick individual." She snaps.

"What the fuck did I do?" I ask confused.

What a lovely way to start a conversation. What happened to hello, how are you? They just jump right to the point nowadays.

"You're fucking our mom. That's what you did. And you can't lie about it because Rue told me. Rue only lies about drugs and her sobriety status." She answers.

Lex and Rue have built a friendship so they talk to each other about everything. I personally just feel like Rue is using Alexa so that she can take Jules place. As far as I know her and Jules fell out with each other.

But that that's not the point. The point is Rue has a big ass mouth. But I knew Lani and I would have to explain this to the people around us soon. Better do it now.

"You've been in the dark about this your entire life so I'm gonna tell you because if I don't then nobody else will apparently. She's not our mother." I respond.

Alexa starts laughing a little, finding my response amusing. "Wow. That's the best lie you can come up with. Seriously Y/N?"

"I'm not lying. Ashley Bennett died fourteen years ago. Leilani was her best friend. Before mom died she told Lani to look out for us. If you don't believe me than go ask Lani yourself. She has the pictures to prove it." I explain.

"Okay she's not our mother but that means you start a relationship with the woman? It's still kind of wrong." Alexa replies.

"Why do you care so much about who I'm with? It's not your business." I say looking at her.

"Because." She mumbles.

"Because what?" I ask.

"Because I still love you." She yells.

Oh damn. Well that's unfortunate. Shocking and somewhat flattering yet still unfortunate. "Alexa you have to get rid of those feelings. I love you like a sister now. Nothing less and nothing more."

"You don't think I know that? If these feelings were easy to get rid of then I would've been done that." Alexa says.

"You ain't trying hard enough." I reply.

"Shut the fuck up." She says throwing a couch pillow at me.

"So you good now?" I ask.

"No, I still think you're weird. But I want to hear this story from Lani. I can't believe she didn't tell me. How'd you even know?" She responds.

"I stumbled across that big ass picture book in her living room. Got kinda curious so I asked her about them. Then she told me the truth." I answer.

"And how'd you go about banging her? That's some next level shit." Alexa questions.

"Honest answer, she made me chase her. Or she got me to chase her I should say. I don't really chase anyone I just let them come to me. I had to work for that shit." I reply.

"So you're admitting to being a sucker? I always knew you were one." Alexa jokes.

"Shut yo ass up and let's go to Lani's house." I chuckle.

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I sat on the couch next to Lani as she basically finished explaining the same shit I already said to Alexa. But I guess it was more believable from her considering she has the actual proof.

"So you're okay with us being together?" Lani asks Lex.

"It's still kinda weird but if y'all are happy then you have my full support. Besides you two look really good together actually." Alexa said.

I smiled as I was actually happy to hear that. Even though Lani and I aren't really together it's still good to have that support. Leilani moved on to my lap as she gave me a kiss.

"Just cause I said I support it doesn't mean I want to see that. Y'all ain't even give me no time to get used to it." Alexa says.

Lani and I laugh but she doesn't get off of me. Telling Alex was the hardest part about us doing the shit we do. But since she knows now we ain't got shit to hide. Not like we really hid it in the first place.

The only thing on my mind other than my daughters birthday is asking Lani to be my girlfriend. I feel like I'm ready to take it to that level.

I just need to figure out a special way to do it.

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Not Alexa still having feelings. I might hook her up with Rue fr

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