Rewrittened: 07/02/2023

     "I wish you would've just died in the womb."

Eyes snapping open, I could feel the sweat trailing down my face, leaving a icky residue. The air around me also felt suffocating. My throat felt dry, almost as if I were dying of thirst. Breathing heavy, my body raised and fell quickly.

The slight chilling breeze coming from the window eased my alerted body. It calmed me down, even if it was just for a moment.

"Another nightmare huh?"

I sighed, rubbing my eyes, trying to rub my sleepiness away. Blinking out my tiredness, I turned my head to see what time it was. The bright white lights on the alarm clock informed me of what hour it was.

"It's already 6?"  I spoke, taking to no one in particular.

Tiredness still hitting me in waves. I would've loved if I could fall back into the comfort of my bed to nap for a few more hours. Though the lingering thoughts of being a responsible person pulled me away from my desires.

Gathering all my energy, I pulled myself out of the warmth of the sheets and into the bathroom.
Picking up my toothbrush, rinsing it under the water before squeezing on the toothpaste. I realized that it was a important day for me, though I really didn't care. Not as if I were gonna celebrate it with the amount of work I have piled up.

Opting to take a shower to wash the sweat off my body. I got dressed, only had the time to grab a piece of bread and walked out of the house in a hurry. Afraid that'll I'll be late for my job again.

The keys jingled as I quickly stuffed them into my pockets. Too busy with the task at hand, I couldn't see that I walking straight into someone.
Stumbling back when my head collided with their chest. Though I caught myself just in time before I could fall because of the unbalanced shifting.

"Ah." He spoke, voice unusually raspy. He sounded like a addict who had been smoking for years on end. "Are you okay?"

He reached his hands out, placing it gently on my shoulder. Though he phrased that question almost like he didn't have a choice and was forced to, to be polite. I quickly brushed his gloved hand off my shoulder, body tense from the unfamiliar touch.

I was about to say something, but I couldn't. Not when his capturing, turquoise eyes. Almost reminding me of someone I used to know...

"Did I bump into you too hard?"

I felt as if I were malfunctioning, it felt hard to breathe. But then reality hit me hard. Taking in a deep breath, I couldn't let my past come and disturb me now.

Cant believe I thought he was him.

"Sorry." It came out as a squeak, even surprising myself. "Never mind that, I'm fine."

"Can I have your number?"

My eyes widened at his questions. Eye brows raised, completely flabbergasted, I could only look at him with my mouth slightly open. I really didn't know what to think or say to him in that moment.

Without thinking much, I blurted out, "I have a boyfriend. No thank you." Trying to make it sound as believable as possible...well hopefully.

Snapping out of my dazed reaction, I looked at him further. He was dressed in all black, long sleeves, a black jacket and a hood over his head. Which made me assume that he was probably insane and I have the worst luck ever when it came to men. As it was the middle of summer.

"Wait-No! I just wanted to become friends..."

I think he was trying to smile to lighten the tension but all I saw was a scary looking grin. It made me shiver a bit. But then it was still strange that some stranger would ask for a lady's number just to become friends...

"Uhhh..."

I was going to reject him but before I knew it, he had took my phone. Entering his phone number in mines, then handing it back to me. I could only stare at it with confusion, wondering if I should save the number or delete it.

"Come on...dont be a scary cat~" He teased, he had noticed my hesitant gaze. "Not up for a little game?"

At the mention of a game, a possibility of me winning. I couldn't just back down now, carelessly I peered into his eyes with a determined look before pressing the save button on my phone.

"Oh, by the way, Happy birthday! I'll text you when I get the chance."

Wait what?

And just like that, he was gone before I even had the chance to react. I sighed at how I was alway attracting trouble, it's as if I was a magnet. Not giving it another thought, I pocketed my phone and moved on with the day. The interaction reminded me that I had to head somewhere...

I have to see that big dude again...might as well die.

It didn't take long for me to arrive at the familiar gates of the gigantic, Japanese styled home. The fence was built to handle almost anything, it wide and tall. Basically just screaming 'luxury'. The whole thing made me want to to gag, all the unwanted memories flashing before my eyes.

But I couldn't let that stop me. Pressing in the pin I got through the gates, then the door.

"Happy Birthday! Onee-San!"

Natsou, Fuyumi, and Shoto all shouted at once. As soon as they heard the sound of jingling keys at the door they immediately knew it was me. All of them were giddy and excited to see me, after all, it's been a few week since I visited them.

"Thanks guys!" A faint smile had made its way onto my face without me realizing it. The feeling of being with my sibling really made me feel giddy in the insides. I opened my arms and allow them to wrap theirs around me."I love you all very much!"

" I like cake more." Natsou said with a evil grin.

His comment catching everyone off guard, though it was expected coming from a goofball like him. It only took a few seconds for me to counter.

"Oh, get ready!" I launched myself and started tickling him, before he could say anything else.
"You better take that back!"

It only took seconds for the house to be filed with laughter, it sounded like music in my ears. I really had missed this, the laughter, the warmth and above all the presence of my siblings.

Between giggles, Natsou finally apologized. After that, the siblings gathered around me, singing happy birthday with smiles on their faces. Shoto smiling the widest with the cake in his hands, decorated beautiful with lit candles.

In the midst of it, I noticed something. But deciding to comment on it after the song. Thinking that it'll ruin the lively atmosphere.

"Dad isn't here to celebrate with us right?"

No one dared to speak.

"I'm going to my room."

"[Y/N], you know he's busy with hero work." Fuyumi reasoned with me, her soft hands wrapped around my arms, not allowing me to leave. At least not until we finish eating the cake.

But the thought of her trying to stand up for father only made me feel worst than before. My breathing became ragged, maybe because of rage or the feeling of being neglected. Though none of that matter now. I squeezed my hands into a fist, biting down on my lips before I could say anything harsh. My nails had dug themself deep into my flesh, already drawing blood. I cold t restrain myself any longer.

"I don't get it." Chewing the inside of my cheeks, "All I have done throughout my whole life was to please him. Always wondering if he could look at me with eyes of adoration. If I could do anything for him to even call out my name."

Maybe I was out of my mind? Maybe I was seeing things, but my vision became blurry, I couldn't see Fuyumi, Natsou or Shoto. Maybe it was a good thing...

"I didn't ask for much. I knew I'll never my head patted nor did I think he'll wrap his arms around me and hoist me up on his shoulder congratulating me on the things I done."

I huffed, my nose felt congested and the tears were on going. My cheeks were already bitten open, the taste of metal dancing on the top of my tongue.

It was embarrassing, but I didn't have the energy to care. Not anymore.

"I just wanted a praise, it could even be something so small as a 'good job'." I wiped off my tears and snot with my sleeves. "I was asking too much."

Laughing, I no longer felt a need to cry my eyes out. Knowing things that I ever dreamed of were only a dream and will always ever be.

"Thanks guys."

That was the only thing I managed to whisper out before I headed towards my room. Wanting some alone time to think about how stupid I been.

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HAHAHAHAHAH! Guys I did it!

I FINISHED REWRITING THE FIRST CHAPTER! OMG IM SO GALD I DID, THIS CHAPTER WAS KILLING ME. ITS SO BAD 💀

LITERALLY LOST FOR WORDS. BUT NOW I HAVE SO MUCH TO REWRITE.

KMS.