Chapter Forty-Eight: Loneliness is a Lonely Feeling

“I didn’t lie to you.”

“Really?” Gavin questioned, he looked really hurt. “So, when I was telling you everything about my parents. It never crossed your mind that I was spilling out all my secrets to you, but you didn’t even bother trusting me?”

“Okay, so I didn’t trust you. But, I didn’t lie to you.”

“Ali!” Gavin yelled, his hands gripping the cell bars tightly. “Oh, wait that isn’t even your real name?” Gavin laughed, but it sounded forced. “Was Tommy even really your brother?”

I looked down at my hands. “He is my brother, but his real name is Thomas.”

“You’re pathetic.” Gavin spat at me, his eyes raged.

“Gavin…” I called out, walking over to him.

He shook his head, looking at the ceiling. “I can’t believe I did this for a bet.”

I gulped, stopping in my tracks. “A what?”

“A bet, Ali! It was a bet to get with you in my bed before the end of the year and I lost. And I have never been so happy in my damn life that I lost a bet because all you are is a desperate pathetic loser, who doesn’t give a fucking damn about anyone else but herself.” Gavin yelled, out. His eyes looking at nothing but my teary ones, “At first I did this whole thing. Getting to know you, because I wanted to win. But, then I began to really know you. I fell for you harder than I have ever fell for someone in my entire life. But, little did I know while I was falling for you, all you were doing was playing with my already broken heart.”

I choked out a sob. “I might have lied to you. But, at least I didn’t try to get to know someone to fuck them.”

“Alice.” My dad called out, in a warning tone. He looked at me with sad eyes, “I think it is best if we just go. Leave this deranged boy to himself.” He said, looking at Gavin in disgust.

I turned around, shaking my head. “I have to do this dad or else I might not ever have the chance.”

I turned back to Gavin taking a few steps towards him. “Even before I came to this school. I heard things about you, bad things. People told me to stay away from you, not to engage with you. But, I was so stupid I didn’t listen. I saw the good in you while others saw the bad.” I shook my head, “I saw so many good and remarkable things in you, which hardly anyone ever gets to see. Believe it or not, it touched me. How you could practically raise Garrett on your own, showing him all the good still left in the world and shielding him from the bad. I fell for that Gavin, not the one standing here and accusing me, not even bothering to let me explain.”

He raised his eyebrows at me, “Explain? Explain what, Alice?” He said, spitting out my name like it was poison in his mouth.

“Explain myself, explain why I did this all.” I pleaded.

He shook his head, taking steps away from the cell. “Well, there is a difference now because I don’t want to hear it.”

I took a few steps towards his cell, but my father’s arm pulled me back. “It’s time to go, Alice.” He said, in a strict tone.

I looked back at Gavin one last time, letting out a forced laugh as I finally realized something. “Weren’t you the one, who told me that you weren’t going to pressure me into telling you my big secret? Well, you didn’t. So why are you pressuring me now?” Gavin looked kind of shocked for words.

“Do you really think I meant that? Of course I didn’t, I wanted you to tell me but I also wanted to fuck you. So whatever, it doesn’t really matter anymore.”

I looked away from him, knowing if I made eye contact with him a new batch of tears would start spilling out. “You’re a hypocrite.”

“So, I’ve been told.” He said, a disgusted look on his face.

“Bye Gavin, if I ever see you again. It would be too soon.”

“Feelings mutual, Alice.”

My heart began to feel heavy and my chest, congested. I felt my father’s arm on mine as he pulled me around as he silently walked me out of the room.

As soon as I left the room, they were three guards outside waiting for my father and I. Turning my head to the left to see a guard standing next to me, as soon as my eyes fell upon him. I could feel my already broken heart breaking to even smaller pieces.

My father was standing in front of me talking to the two unfamiliar guards, as I stared at Ricky in disgust.

He reached out to me, but I flinched. “Don’t touch me.”

“Alice.” He whispered, softly.

“Don’t you Alice, me! You honestly couldn’t have done that? For me?”

“I couldn’t lie to your father.”

“But, lying to his daughter and breaking a promise is okay?” I spat at him.

He looked a loss for words. He just turned away, hopefully he was feeling as shitty as I was right now.

“Alice, they are paparazzi outside. The three guards are going to surround you and I as we walk to the car where your mother is patiently waiting. You are to keep your head down at all times and not say anything to the paparazzi even if they say anything to you. Do I make myself clear?”

I nodded my head, knowing as soon as I get into that car. I was going to be killed by my very own mother.

“Wipe those tears of your face.” My dad ordered, “You are already going to be a headline. You crying is probably just going to make it worse.” He said, fixing his tie.

I ignored the stabbing feeling in my chest as I tried to focus on the task ahead of me.

Almost immediately, when my father had opened the doors of the jail I was blinded by the flashes of the camera lights as the paparazzi yelled out to my father and I.

“Mr. President, what do you have to say about your daughter getting arrested?”

“Do you think this is going to take a toll on your reputation as President?”

“Alice, care to make any statements to why you have gotten arrested?”

“Where you driving under the influence of drugs?” Another paparazzi yelled out. I leaned against Ricky as we tried to make our way through the crowd of people my dad was following closely behind Ricky and I, with two other guards behind my father.

When we had finally reached the black SUV, Ricky quickly pulled open the door pushing me inside. My father went towards the passenger seat, getting in.

I took in a deep breath, watching the blinding lights as the cameras still flashed the tinted SUV windows.

Never in my whole life, have I experience something like that before. Yes, during some vacations where we go they are paparazzi but they are usually held back and not in my face.

“Parker said his men was controlling the paps, if by his men he meant Darrell. I am not quite surprised of the outcome.” I muttered, to myself as the car lurched forward.

“Alice?” I soft voice, called out to me.

I turned my head to notice my mom looking at me with disappointed eyes. She opened her mouth to say something but I cut her off before she even had the chance.

“I know. I lied to you, I am sorry.” I said, rubbing my still but not as much pounding head. 

“That’s… How did you know I was going to say that?” She questioned.

“Because it’s seems that I am apparently lying to everybody.” I said, sighing. “Look, I know I lied to you. But, please can we do this in the morning or something? Because I am honestly in no mood.”

My mom didn’t even bother to argue with me as she turned the other way. I was glad that she didn’t try to pressure me into saying something. She wasn’t like other people, I thought I knew.

*

“You really shouldn’t go in there, Holly. She isn’t in the best state at the moment.” I heard Thomas say, as my door opened.

“It’s okay. I got this, I think I need to talk some sense into her.” I heard Holly reply, as I heard footsteps retreating as the door softly closed.

“Alice?” Holly called out, softly to me.

I just buried my head further deeper into my pillow. It has been days since I have left my room. All I have been doing was laying on my bed and sobbing into my teddy bears. Melinda would usually bring some food up to my room and I was too depressed to watch the news knowing that I was on it.

I was probably making headlines around the world. ‘The President’s Daughter… Gets arrested?’  

Holly began to approach closer to my bed, when she spoke up. “Oh God… What died in here?” She said, as I heard her gagging.

“Well, if you must know it was my life.” I said, sarcastically sitting up on my bed to face my cousin.

She sat at the edge of my bed, probably didn’t want to get any closer to me because I probably reeked worse than Thomas after taco night.

“How are you feeling?” She questioned, looking genuinely concerned.

I shrugged, “Do you really want to know?”

“I asked, didn’t I?”

“Well, I am feeling lonely.” I muttered, smoothing my hair over because it was too tangled to run my fingers through it.

“I would hug you and say I am there for you. But, you kind of reek, so… I am just going to say, I am there for you, Ali.”

I rolled my eyes, changing the topic. “How’s school?”

She raised one eyebrow at me, “Do you really want to know?”

“I asked, didn’t I?” I said, mimicking her.

“Well, I am not going to lie. It has been hectic. Everybody has been gossiping about you, there are some pap’s still lingering around outside of the school in case you know, you show up.”

“They never took an interest in me before, so why now?”

“Well, you are the daughter of the President of the United States and you got arrested. Correct me if I am wrong, but don’t you think that sound news worthy to you?”

“I don’t even know what news is worthy anymore! I don’t know what is up or what is down… like I am just so annoyed at the world.” I said, grabbing my pillow and bringing it up to my face.

Holly didn’t say anything for a couple of moments, probably due to me groaning in annoyance into my pillow. But, when she did say something… it was probably the last thing I wanted to hear.

“Gavin came back to school today.”

“Did you talk to him?”

“No…” Holly said, squinting her eyes, “How do I put this..? Well, he’s been kind of avoiding me lately.”

“Why?”

“I am not too sure, but I am pretty sure it has something to do with you.” I sighed, deeply. “I am not going to lie though, I am pretty glad that he has been avoiding me.”

“Why do you say that?” I asked, a little hesitant to know the answer.

“Gavin’s kind of looking a little roughed up around the edges…” She said, trying to figure out the right words to say.

“How roughed up?”

“Like he has been to and from hell twice and met the devil on his way that he got the living daylights beaten out of him.” Holly said, truthfully.

I placed my hands on my face, “This is all my fault.”

“What did exactly happen between you two?” Holly questioned.

“We had a huge this huge blow out, he said some things. I said some things.” I rested my head on my hand. “Did you know that the only reason that he even began talking to me was for a stupid bet? Like I knew there had to be a reason why Ben tried to have warned me by kissing me, like why else would he do it?”

“Ben kissed you?” Holly exclaimed.

My eyes widened as I realized what I had said. Holly looked at me, as she waited for an answer. The word no, was on the tip of my tongue. But, lying was what had brought me into this mess in the first place and it wasn’t going to get me out.

I nodded my head, “Yeah. Ben kissed me.”

“When?” Holly asked, bitterly as a hurt expression flashed through her eyes.

I swallowed the spit that was indulged in my throat, “When we went off to Europe for Spring Break. He ended up in the hospital after he was shot and he confessed he had feelings for me and then he kissed me.”

“What kind of feelings?” Holly asked, her voice cracking.

“He said, he loved me.”

Holly got up from my bed as she turned around. I heard her trying to mask up her sniffles, as if she wasn’t crying. “Holls.” I said, getting up from my bed and walking over to her.

She flinched at my touch, “You had over a month to tell me you kissed the boy I loved. And you didn’t, what kind of cousin does that?” She asked, whipping around to look at me in the eyes.

I stayed silent, I was already too numb to say anything.

“If this is what Gavin did to you.” She said, gesturing at me up and down. “I have never been so happy in my entire life because Ali, you deserve to feel this way. Go rot in hell Alice, because that is where scumbag like you belong.” Holly spat, at me, before she opened the door of my room before running out.

All I could do was stare at her retreating body as she turned the hall. Just when I thought I had already cried all tears out… a few more just had to slip out.

I wrapped my arms around my body as I walked towards my bed. Is this what loneliness felt like? Because it was a pretty damn lonely feeling.

*****

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