Am still breathing (Pt.2)


"Jinwo,  why are you sulking in that corner?"  Seokjin asked with a small smile while placing the pancakes he just made on a plate.  The little boy didn't answer right away and kept frowning for God only knows why.


"Do I have another appa?" the question that escaped from his child caught Jin off guard that he almost dropped the place of fruit he grabbed to decorate the pancakes.
The male sighed before taking a seat and patting the empty space next to him inviting his son to come closer. 


"Why did you ask me bub?" Jin said while looking at Jinwo whom was now on the verge of crying,  his lower lip slightly trembling.
"cause they shaid so!"
"Who are they?"
"Everyone at school! I-"
"Okay but first before I answer you, you'll shake off those tears and wash your face. My baby should never cry. It'll hurt his beautiful eyes. " Jin murmured while pressing a soft kiss on Jinwo's eyelid.
After washing his face,  the boy climbed to his father's lap and waited for the answer to the question that hasn't left his innocent mind since he knew that it takes two to have a child .


Seokjin was very calm and composed on the outside but in the inside there was an ongoing war between his heart and brain. His heart beating so loudly to the point he himself could hear it. He couldn't move his hands too much so that Jinwo won't notice how he was shaking.
It's not like he forgot or something and now got reminded but he wasn't ready yet. He knew the day was coming. But that was too soon.


"Me and your father." he started a quick image of the first time he saw Jungkook flashed through his mind and to say the truth it hurt like a bitch. "We...were two. Him and me..yeah."
Jinwo blinked in confusion not understanding one word of what Jin is saying.
"As I was saying...Your father was a good man Jinwo... but he did something mean to me that's why I left him."
The boy nodded slightly,  Seokjin knew that he still have questions yet he looked satisfied with the current answer he got.
"Other appa didn't like youl food?"
Jinwo asked and Jin let out a small chuckle. "Maybe."
"Meanie."


That day he didn't sleep properly,  his thoughts were too loud to the point he wanted to bang his head against the wall to stop them.
What will Jinwo ask next? Why did a simple question left him shaken? Did he really forgive the "meanie" ?


Just when he thought he had some mercy upon him and his eyes started to close, a terrified scream was caught in his throat once a weight upon him pressed him against the mattress.
"J-Jungkook?!" he stammered while starring at the strong Onyx eyes that shone in the darkness like a hungry predator and pierced through his soul.
"Missed me baby?" before a kiss was placed on his neck.  Jin struggled but only for Jk to grip his thighs harshly and part them.
"You're mine Jin...Only mine."
and he thought it couldn't get any scarier until he saw Jinwo standing by the door with a shocked expression on his face.


"!!!!" Seokjin opened his eyes immediately and started looking around him to make sure of his surrounding. He was alone on the bed and Jinwo was asleep in his room.  A nightmare.
But what happened in this nightmare was one of his old memories except for the part where Jinwo was there, that's an additional scenario his brain decided to add for more drama and action.


Maybe it was the night he actually got pregnant. Jungkook had a business trip to Hawaii and Jin thought he was finally getting a rest and some peace but only for Jk to blow his bubble of hope by jumping in the middle of the night on top of his body and taking him for three rows.
Later on Jin discovered that his husband was actually jealous of one of his partner who saw Seokjin and started talking about him in front of Jk. That's why he ended the trip.
A short while after he discovered that he was pregnant.


He went to get a glass of water and quench this sudden thirst before heading toward his son's room and laying next to him.


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Present:


"Good morn-Mr.Jeon don't tell me you slept in the office."
Hoseok said while rubbing his forehead and looking at the male whom seemed a bit wasted, his hair was messy and the suit was wrinkled.
"Ugh my head hurt." Jungkook groaned and his assistant could already tell he is suffering from a hangover.
In the end he made him wash his face and ordered a cup of hot tea with few pills for headache and nausea.
"With all respect Jungkook, I know you're my boss but I can't help you if you don't tell me anything. You can't burry yourself with work and expect the real pain to dissappear."
"..."
"Go home and have some rest."


Jungkook laid on his bed immediately looking at the empty side of the it. The cold side that was supposed to be his, the missing warmth his body and heart emitted.
Sometimes the pain was unbearable,  sometimes he blamed himself,  his fate and other times he blamed Seokjin. The latter whom left with their son without a small goodbye but then again he deserved it.
He deserved every bad thing that happened to him.
He lost two sons.
Two spouses.
And a mother.
His mom whom died a few month ago leaving Jk all alone by himself.
That's why he left Seoul and went toward Busan for a new starter.


Yeah hyung?" Jungkook said before taking a sip of his banana milk while watching the historical k-drama on the TV.
"I am calling to make sure you're alright."
"I am-OH MY GOD!"
"Jungkook?!  what happened?! JUNGKOOK!"
"Hyung stop shouting!"
"What happened to you?!"
"The emperor was killed by his brother! I knew the fucker was a bad guy since the beginning."
"With all respect but what the fuck?"
"The k-drama I am watching."
This call was disconnected.


Few moments later he received a text from Hoseok saying that he should immediately come to the company because they already started preparations for the opening ceremony today.
He took a shower before wearing a new suit,  styling his hair in a way that showed his forehead then went to his company.


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"Appa! That's so cool!" Jinwo exclaimed while looking around the huge fancy hall where the ceremony was held. Seokjin was sure they spent millions of dollars on this.
Hell there was a chocolate fountain in the middle and a champagne fountain as well.
"Seokjinnie you came!"
Jin smiled at Hoseok whom immediately hugged him only to be met with the angry glare of a particular smurf.
"why are you hugging my Appa?"
"Ah Hoseok, meet my son Jinwo. Jinwo that's Hoseok,  my friend."
"He's so adorable!!" Hoseok screeched while holding Jinwo up in the air and started playing with him.
"Seokjin?" a voice called from behind and once the male met the other's eyes he felt nervous that he took a step back,  wanting to grab Hoseok's arm.
"Baekho...Hello."
The man whom was holding Jinwo in his arm looked at Baekho and greeted him.
"That must be his husband." Baekho bitterly thought to himself while nodding.
"Chocolate fountain!" Jinwo cheered while pointing at it.
"Seokjin I need to talk to you about something important. Our work contract. " Baekho said with a serious look on his face.
"I'll take him there Jin! He's in safe hands okay?"


"Hoseok,  who's that?"
"Ohhh Jungkook,  meet Jinwo! Adorable no?"
"Hello there little bunny."
Jinwo looked at the man and immediately smiled brightly extending his arms to get carried.
Jungkook looked hesitant at first but Hoseok made an encouraging gesture for him.
"You look like me." Jinwo said and Jk chuckled.
"I do?"
"Can I eat from dis kookie?" the child asked pointing at the fountain.
"It's yours."
"Youle giving me a chocolate fountain?!"
"All yours."


"Baekho I need to get my son,  he's with-" before he could continue his breath got caught in his throat.
He's with
Jungkook...


To be continue...

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