*I DO NOT OWN THE HAIKYUU FRANCHISE*

*I DO OWN THE STORY*

*THERE IS CURSING IN THIS CHAPTER*

*MENTIONS OF SUCIDE*

*SELF HARM*

Iwazumis POV:

I don't remember much from last night other than seeing Oikawa and falling asleep under a street lamp.

When I wake up I'm in my room. How did I get there, I thought I ran off. I guess not.

I walk out of my room still half asleep. I see my mom sitting in the kitchen with a cup of coffee, and my dad packing some bags.

"Mom, dad?" I say cocking my head to the side. "Hajime!" My mom yells as she runs to me and pulls me into a tight hug. 

"Oh Hajime, I'm so sorry that you had to see that last night, I'm so so so so so sorry!" She says getting on her hands and knees in a praying position.

I look over at my dad and he gives me a quick wave and then walks out of the house.

"Mom, get up. Tell me what happened. I want to know what happened last night." She looks up, he eyes slightly glazed with tears.

"R- r- right." She stands up and we walk to the couch . "Well, last night when I was at work your father was off sleeping with another woman. I caught them when I got home, Terra thought that I would be working a late shift last night like I normally do. But I came home early so I could surprise him, and well I surprised him. But not the way I wanted to."

She sighs and then looks at me, I offer her a small smile and then she clears her throat to speak again.

"Oh here, I almost forgot!" She says as she runs off top another room. She comes back with a small bento box with a note on the bottom.

For Iwaizumi

Sorry I couldn't just let you starve. Hope you like it <3

"Do you remember anyone coming to you and leaving this?" My mom asks. I shake my head, but I know thats its not true. I would never forget that handwriting. Even if he didn't put his name, I know its him.

Oikawa.

Wow, after all this time how does he still remember my phone passcode. I mean I remember it but its MY phone, and its pretty unbelievable that someone like Oikawa who can barely remember where he parks his car in the parking lot, can remember my passcode. 

I smile a bit and fold the note. I slip it into my pocket and then look at my mom. She then says "Your not going to school today." Then she stands up and walks out of the room, but before she is completely gone she looks at me. 

With a bit of sarcasm in her voice she says "WaS iT a GiRl?" While she speaks she draws out different letters and wiggles her eyebrows. I grab a pillow and throw it, but she runs off before it can hit her.

I laugh slightly to myself and then say it just loudly enough that I can hear it but not loud enough my mom can and say "No, not exactly. But he does act like one."

Oikawas POV:

After the incident with Iwaizumi this morning I dont know what to believe. First my dad, then Iwaizumi and then people figuring out about my leg. So much in one day.

People have come up to me to see if its just rumors, but I proved them wrong. Also people have been acting really different about it than I thought they would.

Instead of making me the center of attention and giving me everything I want. They are asking me questions. Some people hated me for just leaving the team for a knee injury, but now they understand. That part makes me a little mad. If they hated me before because I left the team. Just because I told them dosent mean they can forgive me. It makes me mad. Whenever people with disabilities do something wrong people dont really care because they think its what we want. But in reality we just want to be treated normally. Some people are to dense to see it.

But just as I forget them, I hear someone whispering to someone beside them. 

"Hey thats him." 

"Really?"

"Yeah, he's the one and only Oikawa."

"Wow, he looks dumber in person."

"Yeah I know right."

"Heh, loser. How bout we mess with him a bit?~"

"I like the sound of that~" And just like that the two boys walk up to me.

"Hey Oikawa-San, did you know that some people hate you?" One of them snickers and then I sigh and say.

"Yes. I've known for a while. Any new, news?" One of then scoffs and then says.

"Yeah, some people think it would be better if you were dead." That makes me stop. I look at one of them and he smirks.

"Who, your probably wondering. Well your old teammates. We talked to them. They all said that they think it would be better if you just jumped off the roof and died." I feel my legs getting heavy and I feel like I'm about to pass out.

"Is that right? Well then what if I did? What would you do?" I ask, my tone completely serious.

They both look at each other and then smirk. They sure love smirking dont they.

"Everyone would be happy and the world would be a better place." And just like that the bell rings and students come out of classrooms and the sound of talking fills the hallways.

I grab my bag tight and walk out of the school. Classes are all over and I have dont have work today so I head straight home.

When I get home theres a letter on the porch from my mom.

Hey Tooru, I just got called in for another trip. Sorry for leaving on such short notice, I'll be back at the end of December.

I love you so much Tooru, never forget that <3

Tears start filling my eyes. Its October 13th. I have to wait that long to see her?! I'm her son! She should just bring me with her or say no and get a job that dosent take her away from me 24/7! 

Its so unfair, so cruel the world is. The world is so fucking cruel. But I didn't just not realize that, I realized that when I lost my leg. When my father started sleeping with other girls. Not women, girls.

I walk into the kitchen and grab a cutting knife and then go into the bathroom. I lock the door even though no one is home.

And the I put the knife on my arm and cut it. I expect it to hurt, but with all the pain I'm going through I dont feel a thing.

I cut my right arm until theres no where else to cut, and then I switch to the other arm. I cut it until I cant feel anything anymore. No more sadness. No more anger. No more pain. Nothing.

I wash my arms off and wrap many bandages on them and go to bed without dinner.

Hey guys! Sorry this chapter was a little intense, and sorry for the long wait. Please know that this is only a story and no one should ever harm themselves for any reason! If you are hurting or sad find someone who can help, if you cant I'm always willing to listen to anyones problems. Please never hurt yourself or hurt others!

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