— I want everything about you, I want you, so bad

"Tell me honestly Yujin, what are we?"

That's the moment Yujin's world seems to stop, that's the question that's been circling around her mind.

Right Xiaoting, what even are we?

Yujin chuckled bitterly as the tears keeps rolling down her cheeks.

"Also, the leader shouldn't be having a romantic feeling towards the co-members"

"Choi Yujin what are you saying?"

"But I fucking did, I'm so stupid" Yujin said as she held her head, pulling her hair.

"Unnie what—" 

"Just fucking get out of my face Xiaoting! Staring at you seems—" Yujin shook her head slowly "The way I longer stare at you, the more it suffocates my feelings"

Xiaoting clench the hem of her shirt, hurting by the words of her, she can't get Yujin.

"Why can't you just be straight forward?That's what you want unnie, then fine I'll get out of your sight because I'll quit, it's better if I just leave our group rather than staying with a leader like you, treating me like a shit so sudden" with that Xiaoting turn her back and ready to leave but—

"No!" Yujin shouted as she hug Xiaoting from behind. "Xiaoting no, no, no please. Don't go" She whispers the last sentence, sounds like begging.

"I can't get you please, you want me to stay away from you now you don't want me to go." She let go of Yujin's arms as she face her.  "Don't make me feel like this, stop confusing me, please?"

" I'm so desperate, don't go I'm sorry."

"What do you really want from me, unnie?" She looks at Yujin desperately.

Yujin unnie please answer me, all I want from you right now is the main reasons why

She held Xiaoting's face as her thumb gently caress it.

"I want everything about you, I want you Xiaoting, so bad"

"Unnie are you, are you saying this maybe because you're drunk—"

"It doesn't matter, I'm completely sobered up, even though if I'm drunk I know what I'm doing, unlike you"

"I don't get you—" A peck, Yujin gave her a sudden peck on her lips, ofcourse Xiaoting was stunned, she tries to get away from Yujin but the latter pulled her even closer.

"U-unnie what are you doing?They might see us"

"Ssh, then we won't let them see us" Yujin said sounding seductively and that gives Xiaoting a shiver. She locks the glass door of their balcony as she pulls Xiaoting at the side, cornering her, now pinning her at the wall. Yujin's starts kissing her passionately, and suddenly a vivid memory came inside Xiaoting's mind, it made her to push Yujin.

"Why, what's wrong?"

Xiaoting suddenly closed her eyes tight as she held her head, wincing in pain, Yujin hurriedly worries. "Hey you okay?Look at me"

"Unnie I.."

Fuck it Xiaoting, what have you done?

"I remember it now, the night when I got drunk, is that the reason why you suddenly left for a months, your sudden absence?" Xiaoting said in a low tone, she's now blaming herself, Yujin nods slowly as she lead her forehead on Xiaoting's shoulder.

"So you remember now, I'm sorry I shouldn't have done that, I couldn't help myself that night. And also." Yujin pulled away as she stared deeply at the girl infront of her, too many emotions in her eyes.

"Something more happend to us that night."

Xiaoting almost lose her hearing on what she heard.

"Wha.. W-what?"

"I took advantage of you Xiaoting, I'm so sorry I'm really sorry I know I—"

"Fuck unnie!Why?You should've told me sooner why do you have to hide and keep it from me?!"

That's why when I woke up after that night, my body felt strange, that's because there's something happend to us

"Xiaoting let me explain, I got scared okay?That's why I distance myself, I lost my mind, that night I answered Yurina's call and she said that—"

"Shut it I don't want to hear anything from you, this is fucking wrong" with that Xiaoting hurriedly rush outside the balcony, carrying her mix emotions.

I know Xiaoting, what I did was wrong

"Xiaoting wait!" Yujin shouted but Xiaoting already ran. "Fuck it Yujin!You're such a fucking— argh!" She cursed and shouted as she hit the back of her head at the wall.

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Xiaoting hurriedly ran outside without even looking at anyone, she didn't even notice Chaehyun and Dayeon laying at the sofa, already drunk.

"Huh?Wait Xiaoting unnie where are you going?!" Dayeon shouted as she stumbled at Chaehyun's foot. "Ouch!"

"What are you saying?Stupid there's no Xiaoting unnie here, she's at the balcony" Chaehyun said as she smack Dayeon's head.

Dayeon chuckles. "Right, maybe it's a ghost, wow I think I just saw a two ghost just now, I also saw one earlier— ouch unnie!" Chaehyun hit her again

"HAHAHAH what are you saying?"  But then Yeseo suddenly came out from the bathroom while scratching her eyes, as she approach the two.

"Unnies?I think I saw Yurina unnie before I went to the bathroom earlier"

The two looks at the maknae with confusion.

"Baby maknae maybe you're just daydreaming, did you just got out of bed?" Chaehyun asked as Yeseo nods.

"See, see, see! It's a human who I saw entered and exits here ealier you won't even believe me aish!" Dayeon said frustratedly.

"Stupid, Yurina unnie's at Japan, you're just really drunker than me Yeonie"

"Bla bla bla whatever I'll just sleep" Dayeon said as she wave her hands repeatedly, almost crawling her way to their shared room.

"Yeseo-yah, just go back to sleep" Chaehyun yawns. "Kindly check the doors and make sure that it's lock, okay?Now bye" Chaehyun said as she bows 360 degree.

Oh gosh they're really drunk   — YS

Yeseo scratch the back of her head in confusion.

"I really saw Yurina earlier exiting the door quickly, or I'm just imagining things?" She starts locking the door.

Or maybe that's a ghost?

With that Yeseo shivers and ran back to one of the room she's been sleeping at.

—

I'm sorry Yurina, what am I even doing?

Xiaoting keeps repeating on her mind as she fidgets her fingers while riding on the taxi. She arrives at the place, a condominium, actually it's her and Yurina's condo, Kawaguchi's bought it from them the moment they got engaged. As she went inside she starts breaking down at the floor. She doesn't care of anything now, the important is she got out of that place, she gets away at Yujin, still processing of what she just heard on that damn night.

I'm damn engaged and been in a relationship with Yurina for about a years, now what the fuck I just have done?

"Xiaoting?"

She heard someone call out her name, no she can't be wrong. As that person opens the light she saw Yurina standing at the front door, happens that she just arrives. Xiaoting got up and ran to her as she hugs Yurina. Yurina doesn't dare to move and it weirded Xiaoting so she looks at her, she notice something.

"Y-Yurina?Why is your eyes swollen, did you cry?" Xiaoting asked worriedly as she held Yurina's face. Yurina shook her head slowly, she just smiled, a small smile.

"What are you doing here baobei?And why are you crying?"

"Yurina I.." She speaks as she can't seems to look at her lovers eyes "I thought you were at Japan?"

"Did you forget something, baobei?" Yurina asks as she stares at Xiaoting who looks clueless, and it hurts Yurina, Xiaoting looks so lost so Yurina just hugs her.

"Happy second anniversary, Xiaoting" Yurina whispers on her ears, Xiaoting stood frozen, the fact that she forgot their anniversary.

Baby please speak up, you're starting hurting me now   — YRN

"H-happy anniversary too, Yurina. Why didn't you told me earlier?So that I waited you at the airport" Xiaoting said pretending to be jolly.

"I did, you weren't answering your phone"

Xiaoting starts panicking as she looks around her, she forgots her phone.

"Babe I'm sorry I forgot my phone and earlier we—" She stops from talking as Yurina suddenly held her left hand, and started caressing Xiaoting's engagement ring. Yurina's forcing herself not to cry at this moment.

"Xiaoting, I love you too" Yurina said, almost sounding sad.

"And I love you too Yurina, what's wrong babe?You're worrying me" Xiaoting asks as she held Yurina's chin to look at her. Yurina just shook her head as she kiss Xiaoting on the lips, a soft kiss. Xiaoting just hugs her as she caress her back gently. "And also, why do you smells like a flower, did you change your perfume?" Yurina just nods.

I bought you flowers, but I threw it

"You wanna rest already?You seems tired"

Xiaoting how can you act like this infront of me after all of what I heard and saw earlier?

"Come on, don't be like that babe I'll stay here with you, let's sleep together" Xiaoting said as she caress Yurina's arms.

"Why did you come here so sudden, where have you been?" She notice Xiaoting's sudden change of expression as she drift away her stare at Yurina's eyes.

"At the dorm, maybe my instinct told me that you will come here so my feet suddenly bought me here" Xiaoting said giggling, a fake giggle.

Baby what's happening, why are you lying infront of my face right now?You're not like this

Yurina sighed as she force herself to smile as she hug her lover once again.

"Alright then, let's sleep now, I'm tired baobei"

Or you're the one who's getting tired of me?Who's getting tired of this relationship?

Xiaoting hums while biting her lips, preventing herself to breakdown infront of a person she's now hurting. After that they went to their shared bed, Yurina's been staring at Xiaoting who's sleeping peacefully around her arms, head's at Yurina's chest.

Maybe, just maybe you have your reason why you did that and still doing it, but please tell me directly, don't lie to me.

She kissed the top head of her lover, as she slowly caress it's arms  "I love you, Xiaoting baobei but.." She whispers as tears starts rolling down her cheeks.

I wanna and I know I supposed to be mad at you but seems like I can't, I love you too much Xiaoting

—

Little didn't they know that Yujin's ouside the condo, she literally follows Xiaoting without her knowing, she was about to ran inside but then she saw Yurina's car. She can't be wrong, she stares at the plate number, she close her eyes as she cursed internally.

So she's here

She's hesitating, but at the moment was about to enter the condo someone pulled her, preventing her to go.

"Mashiro?What— what are you doing here?"

"I should be the one asking you that, unnie stop, let's go home" Mashiro was about to pull her but Yujin yanked her hands.

"No, not now I need to talk to Xiaoting—"

"For fucking sake unnie, stop, can't you see you're ruining someone else's relationship!" Mashiro shouted at her. Ofcourse Yujin was stunned, she chuckled bitterly.

"So you knew?I'm sorry but you can't stop me" She turns her back.

"I like you Yujin unnie!" Mashiro shouted as Yujin faced her again, looking at her confusedly. "No scratch that, I liked you"

"Shiro kindly please, it's not a time for your joke right now."

"I'm not joking unnie, but guess what?I didn't dare to confess to you because I know you like someone else, not just because I'm a coward, because once I confess to you, I might confuse your feelings. I also can't force you to like me back and I know you'll never will now, it's all fine if you can't reciprocate my feelings, unnie I'm here because I worry and care for you and your feelings"

Yujin didn't utter anyword, she doesn't know what to say.

"And that's what you're doing to Xiaoting unnie, you're confusing her feelings. Unnie can't you see?She's already engaged and they've been in a relationship for about 2 years already. And I'm sorry for saying this, but Yurina unnie came first." Shiro said almost in a low tone.

I don't want to hurt your feelings Yujin unnie, but you need to wake up and realize the consequences of what you've been doing

Yujin keeps shooking her head as she cries.

"I know and I've been hurting for all this time, Xiaoting's worth the pain, I will fight for her still. I need to talk to her, she needs to hear me out"

"Unnie please.. I can't stand you being miserable like this, you can talk to her but not now, not here and not you being in that condition, just please unnie?Come with me and let's go back for now." Shiro said as she held Yujin's hand, trying to calm her down. "Please unnie?I'm begging"

Yujin closes her eyes as she slowly nods. Shiro smiles at her as she wipes Yujin's tears.

"Thank you" She hugs Yujin. Minutes passed and now they're riding a taxi going back to their dorm. Yujin's been sleeping on Shiro's shoulder, she held her hand as she caress it.

I'm still hurting unnie by the fact that you can't like me back and you only see me as a sister, but I won't let them continue hurting you like this

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Only love can hurt like this~ oof I smell someone's cheating— pls don't get mad at my update HAHAH