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- You're so cold and you're so hurtful







Xiaoting's




It's been almost a month since Yujin unnie suddenly left and not yet coming back, after I woke up that night I got drunk she's no longer here at the dorm.



I know she's the one who bought me at the bed that night I got wasted, I know it, and that's all I can remember



Manager-nim said she took a week or rather a month of days off, and what shocks me more is that managers and our company's entertainment suddenly announced at the mid of November that our group will be in a hiatus for awhile like for about a month or two, I can't understand, they won't tell us the main reason, they said that it's because it's almost Christmas and New Year and it's our chance to rest for long and be with our family and relatives. But there's really something that bother's me a lot, which is Yujin unnie's sudden absence, I can't help not to overthink because who wouldn't?Right after that night everything seems changed.



"Manager-nim!"





I called her as I stood up and slightly ran towards her, I'm currently here inside our company, no one would recognize me because I'm wearing a cap and a facemask, not unless some people might recognize my voice, I can clearly see the confuse look of our manager as I approach her.





" It's me Xiaoting " I slightly whispered but enough for her to hear and I saw how her eyes suddenly grew wide.





"Xiaoting?Oh God why are you here?Come here let's talk somewhere." She said as she slowly drag me somewhere where's there's only a few people.




"Manager-nim, I was just gonna ask you something so please answer me with pure honesty" I said in a serious tone, she just nods.


"Where did Yujin unnie go?Like for real do you have any of her contacts?It looks like she also changed her number, she also deactivated all of her SNS, manager-nim I'm so worried about her, on her whereabouts, I really don't know-"



I suddenly stopped from talking as she sigh deeply.




"Calm down Xiaoting, you're starting to rumble" I just nods softly, manager-nim sighs again.




"The truth is, I really don't know too Xiaoting, she didn't told me the exact reason. Including me and the other managers doesn't know the exact main reason of her sudden absence, but before she left she said that she'll be fine and we don't need to worry, she sort of said also that she'll need time for herself and her family, like Xiaoting I'm telling the truth right now. I also have no clue on her whereabouts."



I bit my lips as I clench my fist, I nod, an unsure nod as I could say.



"Okay then, thank you manager-nim"



"Wait, are you with someone?Do you want to accompany you for awhile?"



I shook my head. "No it's okay, I'll head straight at the dorm after this, I'll go now manager-nim." I said as I fake a smile, now she's giving me that worried look.




Where could she possibly be?

-




As I was about to open our dorm's door, I can clearly hear a noise coming from inside.



What's with the noise, are they playing or something?



When I'm about to open the door, I was startrucked of a person who opened it before me.



Yujin unnie..



I hug her, I hug her so tight.



"Yujin unnie, I missed you so much" I speak with a shaky voice, she just stood there like a statue, didn't even dare to reciprocate my hug, she starts to tap my back gently.



"I missed you too, stop crying now" she said near my ear, but there's a tone with those words, it seems plain and cold.



Shut it Xiaoting, she said she misses you too



She breaks the hug and stares at me.



"Where have you been?I'm so worried about you, I-" I stopped from talking as I feel her hand touches mine.





"Xiaoting I-" she suddenly stops from talking and as curious why as I am she's looking at my hand that she's been now holding, her thumb touching the ring that I'm wearing, she immediately remove her hand.




" I'll talk to you later, Shiro, Karu and Yeseo, let's go now"




She walk passed by me, I looked at Shiro and she starts giving me a worry yet pity look, I don't know but I suddenly felt a pang inside my chest.



"Xiaoting unnie you're home!" I came back to my senses when Hiyyih approaches me, I forced a smile and nod. "They're just gonna go buy some snacks and drinks. Finally Yujin unnie's back" Hiyyih said happily.




I'm happy that she's back but I'm lowkey hurting, I dunno why but there's something in her changed or maybe I'm just being delusional?


-




Meanwhile at the grocery.

"Yujin unnie are you okay?" Yeseo asks her.


"Yeah, why?"




"Uhm nothing, you just seems a little bit down compared earlier"



" I'm just tired, I guess? "



"I told you earlier you shouldn't have come with us and just take a rest at the dorm, we can handle doing a groceries" Mashiro said worriedly.


"Yah it's totally fine, now let's get going" Yujin said forcing herself to be energetic.


As they were choosing some snacks, Yeseo notice something and suddenly grabs Yujin's left hand.


"Unnie is this a promise ring?" Yujin nods. "Daebak?Unnie don't tell me your lover gave that to you?"

"Whoa wait, lover who?" Mashiro interrupted along with Hikaru, they're all looking at the ring on Yujin's hand.



She chuckled. "Silly, I bought this promise ring for myself"




This is a couple ring actually, I supposed to give the other one to Xiaoting but..




They all sighed in relief but Mashiro's different, Yujin noticed it.



"Ah right! Speaking of ring, unnie don't you know?"


"Hmm?"



"Xiaoting unnie's engaged to Yurina unnie now!" Yeseo exclaimed excitedly, Yujin almost drop her phone.



So it's really an engagement ring



"Like unnie we can't believe it, you didn't even witness how-"


"Yeseo stop" Mashiro said almost sounding stern, so Yeseo shuts up.




"Yeah, I'm happy for her"



I really wish I could be happy



-




Back at the dorm, they were now sitting in circle, it's almost ten in the evening. Some of the girls are drinking alcohol and some aren't, no not really- because their leader's the only one who have an whiskey right now, the members are worried because Yujin never really drinks a whiskey, welp when she's with her co-members.



"Uhh Yujin unnie, are you sure you're gonna be fine with that drink?" Chaehyun asks and Yujin just nods.





"Come on girls, dig up with the foods, stop looking at me like that, I'm old enough I can handle myself" Yujin said chuckling as she fix the foods infront of them, Yujin bought a lot of foods actually as if they're having a feast. Finally they starts to eat the foods now.


"Yujin unnie" the Chinese girl speaks up, Yujin's expression suddenly change as she looks at the girl.



"Can't you just drink a beer or soju, rather than that?" Xiaoting asks, a worried tone could be heard, Yujin somewhat hated that.





Yujin chuckled again, more like sarcastically. "Where's the fun on that?" Xiaoting remains silent upon hearing the response of the girl, the remaining unnie line are now looking back and forth at them, somewhat sensing a little tension. Yujin sighs as she grabs the bottle of whiskey and a wine glass, as she was about to walk-



"Then let me drink with you" Xiaoting said almost shouted, and surely it gains the attention of their co-members. The maknae line are confused with the interaction they're witnessing with their 'what's happening' look.



Yujin didn't say anything and starts to walk away as if she didn't hear anything, so Xiaoting immediately follows her.




-




They arrived at the balcony, Yujin sat and immediately drinks a two glass wine of whiskey, you can clearly see the bitterness taste of it just by the way of her expression.





"Unnie, calm down on-" Xiaoting was about to approach her but Yujin gestures her to stop as she shook her head.





"Just go back inside Xiaoting"



"But unnie I said I wanted to drink with you"



"Did I agree?" Yujin asked while looking at her coldly, Ting looks down as she shook her head slowly.



"No, I'm sorry" she said in a little tone, now it softens Yujin.






Yujin no, don't be too soft on her






"Then I'll just wait you here until you finish drinking"




Yujin sighs. "For goodness sake stop being stubborn and just leave me alone, I'll be fine." She stood up as she tries to push Xiaoting out of the balcony.




"I can't let you drink alone like this, please I'm worried"




Yujin stops upon hearing it, as Xiaoting faced her with a teary eyes.



"Why are you being like this?Why are you pushing me away?Please, you're not like this, tell me what did I do wrong?" Ting asks as she hold Yujin's face. That's the weakness of her, seeing Xiaoting cry, most especially, because of her. She removes the hands of Xiaoting.



"You know what, that people do change right?That's what I am right here, right now. And that's because of you." Yujin said sternly infront of Xiaoting's face. She doesn't know how much she's hurting Xiaoting's feelings right now.



"If it's really because of me, then why can't you just tell me the reason?! Because you're unknowingly hurting me unnie"




Yujin can't utter any word.




"You're so cold, and you're so hurtful"




"Then even if I told you, you wouldn't understand"





"How will I understand if you're not telling me, unnie I'm not dumb you-"





"If you're not dumb then why can't you remember that night Xiaoting?!"






Xiaoting scoffs . "I knew it, I knew that night has something to do why you are being like this towards me"






"Xiaoting just, just please I don't wanna see you right now I don't know what can I do if you continue being like that, please stay away for me now, I'm hurting too can't you notice it?" Yujin said almost losing her voice.




"Then why can't you make me remember what happend in that damn night? I feel like I'm losing my mind here, I don't even know what have I done, I can't bare you being like that please? Especially towards me, Choi Yujin stop being like this" Xiaoting said sounding begging, Yujin clenches her fist, anytime she wanted to burst out. She began to cry as she face Xiaoting, as she stares at that beautiful face that she can't seems to unlove.




"Even if I make you remember it Xiaoting I, I can't stand getting between of you and Yurina, you're engaged now" She said as she painfully stares at the ring on Xiaoting's hands. "Because it's cheating." There, Yujin finally said it, and it's impossible now that Xiaoting won't get it.




"Cheating?How can you say so?If it's cheating then is there's something going on between us?" Xiaoting asked not even blinking





"Tell me honestly Yujin, what are we?"




-







( I'll be adding up some photos in some chapters)


Heyya readers! Sorry for my another long update, I'm somewhat having a mental block, I've been busy and sick these past few days (my migraine's keeps attacking these days). But I promise I'll make it up to you guys in the next following chapters, please lemme know ur thoughts & my inbox are always open, if u guys have a questions or complain, I'll respond no matter what. Stay healthy ppl !!!:>.

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