Chapter Sixty-Three: Screwed





"I can literally hear your thoughts running around your head," Yujin mumbled a little bit agitated from the left side of the bed. With a groan, he turned on his side to stare at my profile looking at Hao's bottom of the bed. "What's going on, Jjingi?"

His voice sounded hella sleepy and I had been listening to his snoring for maybe two hours. I couldn't sleep.

"Is it Bongcha?" he said with a vicious bite to his tone.

I clasped my hands into the sheets and he reached out to grab one in his warm palms.

"She's pathetic," he continued. "Don't worry about what she is trying to do. It will not work."

I turned my head to his and had to suppress tears. "How do you know she won't succeed? People already believe it."

Bongcha had spent the entire teambuilding weekend making everybody believe I was sleeping with one of the judges. The rumors had even made it onto gossip sites and the public opinion started turning on me, affecting my rank. A lot.

I had dropped from that first spot to the last one. I was currently fifteenth, and I will not be able to make it into the debut group in one week. I was sure this will be it for me.

Why even bother training for the last performance? The public will clearly not vote me into one of the five spots, and with Bongcha's rumors, I couldn't possibly be picked by one of the judges. The public would crucify me. I would drag the debut group down because of it, and I couldn't live with that.

That's why she had done this. She knew I would be epically screwed.

"Your fans will vote you into that top five, and you will not have to worry about all of this ever again. Bongcha will not make it into the debut group, Choona. Karma will get her. I'm a firm believer of that."

Yujin was number one in the last interim ranking. He would probably make it, and I was glad for him. He has gone through so much, and in these last weeks, we did get close. I considered him a friend of mine, maybe one of my best, actually. I would never say that out loud so Billie could hear, but I guess it was the truth.

A small part of me might be feeling other things for him too, but I was not risking the friendship.

Hao stirred. Even through his earplugs, he would wake from the slightest sound.

We glanced at his moving mattress in silence. His hand was still in mine.

"We are debuting together," Yujin added before squeezing tight and kissing my sleep. "Now sleep. If you won't, I won't."

"Are you serious?" I whispered as he dragged me around and dragged me to his chest. We usually woke up like this. It wasn't something we consciously did. Except for now, apparently.

I was hyper-aware of everything.

His signature clover scent mixed with something spicy.

The way he breathes, slow and deep.

The way his entire body molded over mine.

I stayed still, unmoving, unable to pull away, and unwilling to encourage him further. I felt all kinds of things pressed against me,  making me flush stark red. Fortunately, the room was bathed in darkness.

He pressed his nose slightly into my neck. I wasn't sure why, but it felt different today, like he was breathing me in and breaking me out of something.

The instinct to push myself deeper against him was taking hold of me. My heartbeat increased as I felt my entire body in need of something.

"Jjingi," he whispered, his voice laced with something. I knew what he was referring to. I was involuntarily moving against him, my body's instincts taking over. "If you keep moving like that..." he didn't finish his sentence, but he didn't have to.

His exhale broke over the sensitive skin of my nape.

I arched my back just a little...

Yujin freed a low growl that shook my entire body—waking my entire body up. I held my breath for what I didn't know.

A very obvious cough pitched the air.

Oh yeah, we weren't alone in here. Hao was awake now.

I buried my burning face into the pillow. Gods, I wanted to flee the room from embarrassment. Yujin, on the other hand, was shameless. "Go back to sleep, dude. We're busy."

A barely audible but annoyed sigh drifted from the bunk bed above us.

I rolled onto my back again and glared at Yujin.

A look of soundless laughter crossed his features.

"Let's see if he just lets us be and not be a noisy, fatherly asshole," Yujin said a little bit louder this time, looking up and trying to burn holes through the mattress.

"Enough!" I squealed. Because what was happening right now? My entire body had been on fire.

"Mmh," was Yujin's reply. That short chuckle caressed my ear, causing the hair on my neck and arms to stand up.

Maybe I should evacuate this bed before things happen I didn't want to happen. But did I?

I was going to be eliminated anyway.

Yujin saw my struggles and raised his hands in the air, surrendering. "It's fine. Let's just sleep." I saw another annoyed glance going up in Hao's direction, who shifted on his mattress again.

I turned around, and this time, Yujin didn't Koala hug me again, yet his arm remained draped over my waist the rest of the night.

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