There's No "Tears" in Team

POV TOGA

"I hate all of you!" I cry out, slamming a cabinet door. "You guys are just as bad as my parents! I hate you!"

"Goddamn brat," Spinner scoffs, pushing off the wall. "I'm leaving."

"Nobody wanted you here anyways, you scaley cum sock," Shiggy growls. "And Toga, for the love of god, control your emotions! We don't want to deal with a whiny teenage girl!"

"Stop shouting at each other," Kurogiri orders. "Spinner, stay where you are! Tomura, quit yelling at the girl! And Himiko, please stop crying."

"I don't know why I joined this stupid group," I sniffle. "None of you guys care about me at all. I could kill myself and you'd probably just laugh!"

"That's not true, darling," Mr. Compress says. "We think you're lovely, we really do, but you can't flip out every time something goes wrong."

"Is Toga crying?" Twice asks, peeking his head out from his room. His eyes are sad, like they usually are, and it makes my heart hurt.

"No, it's alright, Twice," Kurogiri says. "Stay and rest, please."

"You're bullying her again, aren't you?" Twice scoffs. "I thought we were all friends. What's happening to us?"

"Don't think too hard about it, Twice," Shiggy croaks. "We're still a team." Twice nods solemnly, heading back to his room. The air the base seems to have gone stale, and the five of us– Shigaraki, Mr. Compress, Spinner, Kurogiri, and me– stand around with not a clue on what to do. So Shiggy decides to talk strategy. "He has a point," Shiggy says. "These are some of our best assets that we're losing. If you count Twice's mental state as the handicap that it is, the league of villains is crumbling."

"Don't let the big man hear you say that," Spinner says. "He might stop favortising you as much."

"Choke on plastic, you fucking insect," Shiggy blurts.

"I don't know why I waste my time here," Spinner says. "Really! Kurogiri, Compress, why the fuck are we here?"

"The hero society is crumbling," Compress says gently. "We're going to rebuild it in our image."

"We're crumbling," Spinner says. "We're fighting a war that we're never going to win. Open your fucking eyes! You think Shigaraki's bitch ass can lead us to victory? He's a puppet that doesn't even work right! And Dabi's only here two days of the fucking month, and whenever he does show up, he locks himself in his room! Toga's a useless whiny bitch who can't complete a task if her life depended on it, and Twice, who's supposed to be our powerhouse, can't do anything without having a panic attack! That stupid dissociative identity disorder of his makes him as useless as Toga! This building ain't a base, it's a fucking menal hospital."

"Get out," Shiggy says slowly.

"What?" Spinner blurts.

"I said, get the fuck out!" Shiggy throws his whiskey glass at Spinner who thankfully dodges. The glass shatters against the wall behind him, making him jump. "You will not stand in my presence and insult my team. We are strong. We are unstoppable. We will conquer anything that stands in our way. You, Shuichi Iguchi, are not one of us. Leave."

"Don't be rash, sir," Compress says with an awkward chuckle. "Even if your trust doesn't sit with Spinner, he's still an asset–"

"He'll be a pile of dust if he's not out the door in twelve seconds," Shiggy growls. "Starting now."

Spinner leaves, muttering under his breath. I feel a piece of my heart break off as the door slams shut. I want a real family... people who care about me... I...

"I want to be somebody else," I scream. I'm not thinking as I vomit my words out, and I know I'll regret it later, but I can't stop. "I want to be a normal girl with a normal quirk and a normal fucking family!" Tears spill out of my eyes, leaving the room of villains completely baffled. It's not often that they see the dark side of my mind since I try my hardest to hide it. But every time I slip up and flip out, I'm treated like a cold case. 'There's no way to fix this poor girl,' they think, 'so there's nothing we can do besides stare at her as she crumbles to pieces.' That's what my parents thought, too, but that's not it! I just want someone to love me! Care about me, even if it's just a little bit, even if it's fake... But that's a silly thought. How could anyone love me? I'm disgusting.

"I wanna be somebody else," I sob. My knees get weak, but before I can fall, I numb herself. I'm Toga Himiko from the league of villains, and I won't be weak. I force myself to erase all things from my mind, erase all my fear and sadness and anger and love. There is nothing in me as I stand up and walk out the door.

Outside, I only manage to walk two blocks before I run into Dabi, Hawks, and Mirko. I pause, clutching my knife behind my back. Mirko looks clearly distressed, and Hawks' eyes are as dull as they were before. Dabi, though, has a look that can only be described as joyous relief. "Goldie, you blonde brat," he chuckles. I let my knife clatter to the ground, wrapping my arms around Dabi's torso. I missed him so much. The tears that I pulled back earlier begin to fall, leaving my body drained. "Was Tomura being a bitch again?" Dabi asks as he lets me crawl on his back.

"Not exactly," I sigh. "Everyone was getting mad at me because I was crying about you leaving us. Then Spinner and Shiggy got into a fight, and Spinner said a lot of bad things. So Shiggy kicked him out."

"You got scared?" Dabi asks. I hum my response; a quiet yes. Dabi nods.

"I feel awful," Mirko says gently, "for thinking you were nothing but a monster. You're just a kid."

I shrug, snuggling into Dabi's back. "You're just another hero," I say. "If you didn't think I'm a monster, there'd be something weird going on. Anyways, where've you guys been? And Dabi, when did you start rolling with heroes?"

"Since my dad started hiring people to kill me and this damn bird," Dabi replies. "We're gonna head back to the base to try to figure everything out. Have you eaten yet?"

"No," I say. "Can you make me grilled cheese?"

"Sure," Dabi grumbles. "Bacon?"

"Yeah," I yawn. As we walk, Dabi starts talking to the heroes about some boring stuff. My head gets cloudy, and my vision blurs. Maybe I should drink some water instead of blood all the time. My eyelids get heavy, and I fall asleep on my big brother's back. 

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