He was waiting for her letter for several hours, it was the very first time after a thousand of years that she didn't write immediately, it was always she who send the first note, he thought maybe she is waiting for him so once he started it, she had all the right to want that too, so he wrote to her.

Feng Jiu received the note while staring at white paper for past few hours, it wasn't her attend to make him write first, she just didn't felt good enough and couldn't find the words, getting the note she saw his handwriting asking if everything is alright.

Feng Jiu: no it's not

Dijun: what is it little fox?

Feng Jiu: Dijun loosing you just to two kiss wasn't fair, but at least it sends them all away, but again they start sending marriage proposal. I don't have the mood to deal with them.

Dijun: you know you have to marry one day

Feng Jiu: you are so heartless; how could you say that?

Dijun: it's not easy, but it's necessary

Feng Jiu: I'm quite capable of ruling alone, beside it's been already so many years and I didn't charm anyone or like anybody else than you.

Dijun: I know you can rule by your own but you should not stay alone

Feng Jiu: then find a way and stay with me

Dijun: you know there is no way little fox.

Feng Jiu: I will find a way, today or tomorrow

Dijun smiled, she is so stubborn, as long as she not hurts herself it doesn't matter.

Feng Jiu send another note: this last propose remind me of when I finally understand your high rank and my feelings, Dijun do you remember that? I was thinking what if heavenly lord never came to your place that day and I didn't get my mistake? Maybe I keep telling you handsome but at the same time find someone else and married? It was my fear to lose you that showed my true feelings.

Of course Dijun remembered that, she was so sweet all that evening, how can he forget it:

Feng Ju was in Dijun's study room playing gue, she asked him to teach her, she didn't know why but she just keep making excuses to spend more time near him and he always fall for her traps. at least she thought that way. well they were playing when Tian Jun entered the room and after bowing toward Dijun in respect great Feng Ju too who bowed her head and stand up to leave the room: Dijun since you have a guest now I take my leave.

Dijun waited for her to comes back long after heaven lord left but she didn't, he left his study room late of the night and sat in his bed still waiting for her footsteps to entered her room, across his. it was so late that he become worry for little fox when she walked toward his bed chamber and come to his bed straight, staying in front of him she lowered her head and start to talk in a very low voice: Dijun I really thought since you gave away your position you have no remain powers, I thought my behave toward you as the former ruler is quiet well since you don't have any current position. I'm so embarrass now, today when I saw heaven lord bowed to you I suddenly understand how blind I was, I should know even if you give away your throne still you are Dijun.

Dijun can you forgive me?

when I left you today at first I was smiling, even if I misjudge and behave wrong by you I could manage to ask for your forgiveness but then I thought what if you send me away? Dijun please don't send me away. punish me with anything you want but don't make me leave. I don't know why but I can't bear to leave you, I want to stay by your side.

she was showing a panic attack, it was shameful but Dijun was quite satisfied of her reaction and fear of become dismissed. she didn't even care for being in his bed chamber, she kept talking and asking for his forgiveness, Dijun rose his hand and called for her: come here little fox. taking her hand in his, he helped her to sat beside himself on the bed and caressing her back tried to calm her down: tell me little fox why are you afraid to be send away?

Feng Ju: I don't know. I feel strange. recently I wanted to be near you all the time and today I was terrified to become separate from you. I can't understand my feelings, I never have this kind. Dijun can I stay in your palace forever? 

Dijun still caressing her back: little fox you are the future queen of Ching Chu, you have to leave for your lands and duties, also you are so young and need to marry one day.

Feng Jiu: I can be a queen and stay with you at the same time, I can come and go between here and my land. but if I marry probably I can't see you anymore. so I don't want to marry ever, it's so simple.

Dijun: little fox wasn't you looking so forward to get married?

Feng Ju: it was because my father asked me to, but know that I see you I only want to be with you, so I'm not going to marry.

Dijun hide his smile, her words wash away his worries. since he finds out about his own feelings, watching Feng Ju teasing him and calling him too old hurt him a lot. now that she was panicked to be separate of him, he finally could breath. she didn't know her feelings yet but it was a begin at least. He was so shameful to think that way and very selfish but the think of his little fox marry someone else and look some other guy with her admiring eyes and called the guy handsome make his anger rise up.

Suddenly an image of her beside some strange and tall guy merged in his head which he didn't like at all. He knew one day she will mate someone and get married, even give birth to his children and forget all about him, but as her grandmother told her journey is not going to begin in few thousands of years ahead and he was not open to lose her any sooner, so when she panicked to be send away he felt his selfish soul grimed in happiness.

Feng Ju waving her hand in front of his face: Dijun don't think too much, more you think more you become upset. please Dijun promise me to not make me leave you.

Dijun: what about we making a deal, you find out why you don't want to be separate from me then I decide on keeping you or not.

Feng Ju node: it's a good plane, let me think about it later but for now I'm too sleepy, can I stay in your room for tonight?

Dijun: you know you can't. it's not appropriated.

Feng Ju murmured: Feng Ju is too tired.

Dijun smiled at her suddenly childish acts, taking her in his arms he said: come here little fox, I take you to your room.

Cycling her arms around his neck she smiled and put her head on his chest, making herself more comfortable: Dijun you look even more handsome from this close, I like being in your arms, you not allow to have any other little fox.

Dijun felt his heart beat increasing: don't worry, you are my first and only little fox.

Feng Ju burring her face on his neck murmured: good.

Dijun: what about you, how many guys have you in arms?

Feng Ju: I can count them. My father, my uncle, my grandfather and Zhe Yan.

Dijun: they are allowed but no one else can take you in his arms, okay little fox?

Feng Ju: yes Dijun, it's a deal.

Reaching her room Dijun laid her down on bed and tried to rose up, but taking his hand she didn't allow that and make him to seat beside her bed.

Dijun: what is it little fox?

Feng Ju: can you stay with me until I fall sleep? I fear to close my eyes and you vanished.

Touching her face, Dijun set her hair behind her ear and told in a low voice: do sleep little fox, I be here.

Feng Ju smiled and closing her eyes bring herself closer to him. Dijun watched her slept face, after so many years finally he felt happy and ease. While he liked how she called him handsome but every time she called him old, he felt wounds in his heart, that kind of feelings was new for him, caring about his age or someone else opinion about his look was all new. With her he wished to be the same generation as her, with her he even felt jealous about his unborn sons which Feng Ju wished to marry with, he even made others to not bow to him while his little fox is around so it doesn't make her uneasy.

It was years after that night when Dijun went to her room because she declined to attend to dinner, Dijun finds her seating in her bed hugging her knees while put her chin on them. Hurrying to her Dijun asked: what is it little fox?

Feng Ju bringing up her eyes: Dijun can you examine me? I think I have some sort of disease in heart part.

Dijun sat next to her and took her hand in his, checking her pulse asked her why her heart beating so fast: what do you mean about heart disease, explain it to me.

Feng Ju: well I can't understand myself, sometimes it hurt like burning and turning to ashes and sometimes it beat too fast like it wants to come out of my chest.

Dijun: when it heart?

Feng Ju: I don't know that either, but it started since that day when I understand my mistake about your position and you bring me back to my room, after a while I woke up and saw you are gone, I felt be abandoned, I went back to sleep to avoid the pain I felt, but I woke up because of it and saw you beside my bed, the pain vanished suddenly but then my heart started to beat so fast.

After that night I felt the fast beat most of the time until today, I came to your room so we go for our tour but maids told me you left early in the morning, I wait for you but when you didn't come back I felt abandoned again and the pain come back.

In her surprise Dijun was smiling, with each words she told his smile go wider. Feeling sad she asked him: Dijun why are you smiling? Am I going to die and you are happy to get rid of me?

Dijun frowned this time, but suddenly hugged her and asked: what do you feel now?

Feng Ju: when you took my hand the pain gets smooth and my heart start its fast beat again, now I think It's about to come out, I can hear its voice too.

Dijun caressing her waist asked again: is it better now?

Feng Ju: it is, I can't get it, Dijun what is going on with me?

Keeping his caressing touch asked: little fox didn't you ever had the same feelings toward someone else?

Feng Ju shook her head in rejection, it wasn't an honorable question for her situation but he wanted to know the answer so bad, getting her answer Dijun smiled and asked another one: you didn't hear from other, that their heart beat fast when they meet some specific person either?

Feng Ju think for a while then said: I recall my aunt told something like this, she once told at first uncle Ye Hua made her heart beat fast but when he betrayed her she felt her heart broke and the pain was unbearable. But what does that have with me?

Dijun whispered in her ear: think about it little fox, you are smart, you can find the connection.

Feng Ju thought about her aunt words deeply, before Dijun hear her gasp in surprise, she gets it, finally. Bringing herself out of his arms she looked his face deeply Then whispered: Dijun I think I fall in love with you.