Spencer thought he had felt pain before, but then he held Lexie's hand through labor. Every 5 minutes, she would squeeze so hard his hand would curl up. But, he just kept encouraging her, after all, that was his kid she was pushing out.

"You're doing great, Lex," he said during a contraction.

"Stop talking!", Lexie yelled at him, he didn't mind.

Lexie's labor had been going on for almost twelve hours, it was around 7 am and she had not progressed in five hours. So she was very irritable and tired. Especially to the doctors, then though she was one.

"Doctor Lane, I swear to god if you tell me I'm still only four centimeters, I going to kill you."

"Sorry doctor Grey, but you're still only four." The woman said regrettably.

"Ugh! I hate this!" Lexie grumbled, falling back onto the pillows.

Lexie had never been this frustrated at herself. She just wanted to get it all over with and hold her daughter in her arms, be a happy family with Spencer. Twelve hours and she wasn't even halfway there, she couldn't believe it was taking her this long.

All she wanted was this family, but once that baby gets here her whole life changes. She goes from being Lexie Grey, Nerousurgon to Lexie Grey, mother, wife, then neurosurgeon. She would be seen differently at work, mothers aren't held up to par the way they should be. In such a high position, a child could be seen as a downer. Having a child when you're at the top of your career isn't exactly what Lexie planned, she knows deep in her heart that she wants all this, but right now it is hard to remember the happy result of a baby.

She thinks of all the times she has said she didn't want kids and thinks of the moment she found out she was pregnant. Never in her adult life did she say she wanted kids, she never even had the thought slip her mind once she got to medical school. Nevermind once she became an intern and into residency. Besides when Mark had Sofia, she didn't want to raise her, she loved Zola and Sofia but kids weren't her thing.

Until she saw that tiny pink plus sign show up on a plastic stick, then another positive when she saw her daughter on a screen for the first time. She felt the walls around her world crash down, but she also felt a happiness she hadn't ever felt. She was going to have a baby with Spencer Reid, her soulmate that she really and truly loved. Something about a family suddenly warmed her heart to the fullest.

Then she remembers what Jackson said all those nights ago in Maryland. Asking her why she is happy to have a baby with Spencer but wouldn't have one with Mark. She let the whole thing get to her head all too often. She was head over heels in love with Mark, but the whole family thing just wasn't what she wanted, she was just a resident too. She assumes the fact that the pregnancy was an accident helps with her happiness, she definitely wasn't trying to get pregnant at this time, but she doesn't have any regrets.

Except for maybe not getting an epidural sooner.

"You can do this," Spencer said, holding her hand and wiping her hair off her face as she screams.

"Spencer shut up." She spat out at him, "Sorry, this is just the worst thing I have ever done."

"It is okay love," Spencer spoke softly.

At that, Lexie started to cry. More then she had been all day.

"You-you don't deserve this, you're just t-trying to help." She wailed

"Lexie, stop I couldn't imagine what you are going through right now, throw all the mean comments at me you want." He said gently, his thumb slowly rubbing her cheek.

"Okay, I'm sorry." she whimpered, she wanted to say more, but another contraction came along. She squeezed Spencer's hand, yelled, and screamed until it was over.

"They are getting closer together, that has to mean I have progressed at least a little bit." She sighed.

"I'm sorry Lexie, but since you haven't progressed, we need to switch to a C section." Doctor Lane said matter of factly.

"A C? That is exactly what I don't want!" Lexie exclaimed.

"Lexie, you know that is what's best," Spencer added.

"I know." she grumbled, "let's just get it over with please."

Lexie was prepped for her surgery, but the realization of how big of a change her life was about to endure hit her, she started to panic, "Spencer, I can't do this, I-I am going to be the worst mother in the world." she rambled, looking at Spencer with wide eyes.

"I am going to lose her in a supermarket or something, she's going to get hurt and hate me - Oh my God what was I thinking, I can't be a mother!"

"Lexie, you can do this, you are going to be an amazing mother - but you need to calm down because your blood pressure is going up," Spencer said worriedly.

"No! She'll resent me, she-" Lexie's breathing became short and fast, she felt her lungs tighten.

"Lexie, you are having signs of placenta previa, we need to put you under." her doctor said quickly.

Being the geniuses they were, Lexie and Spencer already knew what this meant, so panic quickly shot through their veins. Spencer quickly leaned down and kissed her lips,

"I love you, you two will be fine," he said watching her on a gurney being wheeled into the OR room.

He let out a deep sigh, pressing his knuckles into his eyes. Why was this happening? Why was everything bad thrown at him and Lexie, couldn't they just be happy? He sunk down the wall on the ground with his face in his hands. Only looking up when he felt a presence next to him.

"Hey kid, aren't you suppose to be with your girl?" Morgan asked.

"She- there was a complication, she's in surgery," Reid mumbled.

"What happened? Are they alright?" Morgan asked concerned.

"Something with a mix of organs, she has to have a procedure, they have to be okay," Reid whispered the last part.

"They will be kid, they will be," Morgan said, wrapping his arm around his shoulders.

.........

Spencer and the whole team sat nervously in the waiting room for two hours, Spencer almost shooting through the roof when Lexie's doctor came out.

"Are they okay?" He asked quickly.

"Mom and baby are just fine, you can come to see them now." The doctor smiled.

Spencer let out a breath, his legs failing him as he fell the ground. He quickly felt Gracia's arms around his torso and hands on his shoulders. He cried the happiest tears he had ever cried, they were okay. He composed himself, sharing lots of hugs and smiles with the team before he ran down the hall to Lexie's room. Stopping quickly when he saw her, she gave him the widest smile he had ever seen.

"Spence! Come look at her, she is perfect!" Lexie said, holding her daughter close.

He swiftly walked over to her bedside, holding her face in his hands her kissing her lips softly. He held the kiss for longer then he expected, he just didn't want to pull away, but Lexie pulled away from him.

"What was that for?" She asked, trying to catch her breath.

"For not dying." He said seriously, smile wide as his eyes fell on his daughter.

"Here, hold her." Lexie handed the small girl to Spencer.

He felt this heart literally beat out of his chest. He was holding the baby that he had talked to every night for the past 7 months, everything seemed right in this moment. Her perfect soft face and small arms and legs. Spencer's large brain was a bit overwhelmed, so all he could do was look at her and smile. Only looking up when he heard a knock at the door, the team and Caroline slowly entering.

"Hey, can we come in?" Caroline asked, but once she saw the baby the question wasn't important. "Oh my God, she is perfect, you guys made a great kid." she gushed.

"Oh my goodness, she is perfect!" Garica also gushed

Congrats and love were passed around the room from everyone when they asked Caroline to be her godmother, they thought she might pass out from excitement.

"Well, what's her name?" JJ asked as she passed the baby back to Spencer.

Spencer and Lexie shared a look before Lexie announced the name,

"Lorelai Diana Grey-Reid." 

a/n: here it is, the moment we have all been waiting for! i actually really like this chapter so I hope y'all do too. also, this is the last chapter of part one, part two will have a three year time jump and will be posted when I can. thank you all for 14k, y'all mean the world to me! stay safe and healthy <3