Chapter Twenty Eight

Dijiun


My heart was on the line, my soul would fade away and I would truly die. Even in aching I want to cover her and shield her, the amount of pain she feels is the same amount of pain that I bare, my love cannot live in misery and I can't stand her being in so much misery.


The heart is very delicate but it's still the strongest thing there is, nothing is ever powerful than love however my love was dying and I would perish without it. She doesn't know that she is my weakness but also my strength, but the part of me that she makes weak it's weakness is fatal therefore if she dies how can live?


How will I let my spring die? My sweet summer's day to perish, how will I let the winter settle in my life and let my flower to perish and never bloom again? How can I let the wind rattle everything that I have worked for? How can I let my sun go down without ever rising again? How can I fix my soul when the very soul I need is giving up.


You are my soul,
My dream and everything that lies above, all of my being revolves on your existence. You are the eternity I was looking for how can I possibly let go of my whole world, your sweet fragrance clings to me like a new born baby I won't be able to live on just your fragrance, wait for my return.


XiaoJiu


I woke up with a minor headache and a stiff shoulder, I realized I was at the fox cave and six curious eyes were looking at me. "XiaoJiu you're awake." My mother said softly. "Come, get up and eat." I shook my head. " I'm not hungry mother." She grabbed me roughly. " You need to eat! You tried killing yourself yesterday! AND YOU DON'T WANT TO EAT!!" She shouted. "Shouting at me won't change anything, it won't make you less angry and it won't make me eat." I said softly. "When has somebody killing themselves become a crime? It's only your selfish reasons that you would even want me to stay alive but don't worry, rest assured I won't kill myself Dong Hua would be very angry at me, he is in the realm of nothingness and looking over me I can't make him sad. I don't particularly want to smile or want to be around but if I stop living, then I will lose him forever." I said softly and my uncle sighed. "XiaoJiu, eat something." He begged softly but I still refused. "Should I ever eat, it will be from the hands of Dong Hua Dijiun." My mother smacked me. "Have you lost your mind? Dong Hua is dead! Get it through your head!" I looked at her.  "You didn't give up on father when everyone told you he wouldn't come back from the blood war, when the whole of Qingqiu started mourning for him, but you believed that he would come back. Nobody beat you or abused you in any way when you were waiting for your own husband, so can't I be granted the same thing? I have done everything that has been asked for me, am I also not allowed to have faith that my Dong Hua Dijiun will come back to me? When the time comes for me to move on I will, but for now let me be miserable."


I went to my Uncles peach groove and I took his peach blossom wine and I went back to the Purple Sea, when I arrived at the Purple Sea the divine energy covering the whole place shook violently. I quickly went to the demon lands to check on Dong Hua's spirit it was still there but the ward was shaken up, High God Mo Yuan appeared behind me. "Fengjiu come with me." I followed without question, the starlight ward was tearing. "I need you to help me to stop it from tearing."   He said softly. "Why are is it tearing?" I asked softly as we started powering up the starlight ward. "I think it's because Dong Hua collected the divine energy here." I looked at him. "How?" He frowned at my question. "Dong Hua is about to wake up, look at the sky and look at the stars." He said softly, and we continued repairing the starlight ward until it was completely repaired. "Come with me." He said softly again and I followed him to the mountain, he took me to the front hall. "Sit down." He said softly and he sat behind me and started healing me. "We wouldn't want Dong Hua to see you with injuries, otherwise we will be the ones with injuries." He said when he was done, he looked so serious that I couldn't help but laugh out loud. "It's good that you're laughing." He said kindly. "You should go back to the Purple Sea." I nodded my head. "High God Mo Yuan, thank you." He smiled softly and I went back to the Purple Sea.


The air was warmer and it was also calm, it somehow fewlt safe again. The sky looked calm but it was leaping in joy, I sat against the tree and watched my surroundings. "My love, look at how calm everything is, look at the beauty you have caused. I don't know whether you are coming or not but thank you for making this  Easier on me, thank you for being kind to me. It may hurt tomorrow but my love I am grateful to you." I sat down and drank my bottle of wine, the first sip felt like heaven and before I knew it I was drunk out of my mind. I started walking around but I was swaying, I giggled so much. "XiaoBai you're so drunk." I said to myself as I giggled to myself like a mad person. "What would Dong Hua say if he saw me like this?" I tripped and I grazed my hands. "Ayiyay XiaoBai what is this, hmmh I should just lay here." I laid on my back and I loosened my robe. "D-o-o-ng H-u-u-a m-y beautiful h-o-o-ney." I giggled loudly. "XiaoBai." I heard his beautiful voice and it vibrated through my body. " Y-oo-u ca-m-me to visit me." I slurred. "XiaoBai open your eyes." I felt his cold hands against my face and I opened my eyes, warm honey brown eyes were staring at me an expression of love on his face. "Why did you have to get drunk today?" He whispered softly. "Kiss me." I said softly and slowly he leaned closer to me and placed his warm lips against mine, a slow gentle kiss it felt like I had started breathing again. He pulled away. "Beautiful when was the last time you ate?" He asked softly. "I will only eat if I'm fed by your hands." He smiled. "XiaoBai I think you should sleep." I hummed softly and I fell asleep in his arms.


Dijiun


Being here again is not complete until I see my XiaoBai, I woke up in heaven and Yuka was sitting in my palace. "Dijiun! You're finally awake! Thank goodness!" He exclaimed and then he frowned. "You're back early? Are you sure you're going to be okay?" He asked again. "XiaoBai needs me, I will heal the rest of spirit when I cultivate with her." His eyes widened. "You're going to cultivate with her?" I nodded my head. "She will ascend again soon and she will have to withstand the Heavenly Empress trial all by herself." He nodded his head. "Where is XiaoBai?" He smiled. "She's at The Purple Sea." He answered with a smile. " I will see you later." I said and I left for the Purple Sea.


When I arrived she was swaying about and giggling, her smile was genuine it was a beautiful sight to see and then she tripped. She decided that she was just going to lay there, she didn't realise that she was laying in the water, I got closer to her and she had her eyes closed and she looked so peaceful but I wanted to her speak.


Beauty that is rooted within a person's soul is the best kind of beauty, look at those innocent beautiful eyes how my heart got stolen by them.
Loving through your eyes has been the best gift I have ever received, holding you in my arms I feel so at peace but my love what have you done to yourself and looking at you right now my heart is breaking.


The petals of your roses have fallen, can I make the coldest parts in you warm? Can I take away the pain you have felt because of my absence?
I have hurt you so much can you forgive me this time? I will follow you till death, forever my love I will walk with you.


She had slept for two hours and then she opened her eyes and she immediately started crying. "XiaoBai." I called but she shut her eyes tightly. "Why are you crying?" She sobbed harder. "I miss you so much." She pulled on her robe. "XiaoBai, I am here." She opened her eyes and she sat up. "A-a-are...." She raised her hand and she placed against my face, more tears quickly ran down her face. "Are...you.." She placed her other hand on my other side. "You're here." She broke down some more. "I am here my love." She placed her forehead against mine. "Dijiun." She whispered softly. "Did you come back for me." She looked into my eyes. " I will always come back for you." I said softly. "I love you, I love you so much please don't ever leave me." I pulled her into my arms. "XiaoBai I am sorry, I am sorry that I caused you so much pain." She shook her head. "Don't apologize, if you hadn't been gone I wouldn't have realised how much you loved me, I wouldn't have realised how much I love you or realise how much our love is important." She looked at me and she smiled at me. "Dijiun I am worried." I put my finger against her lips. "Don't worry about anything right now, just lay here in my arms and just let me listen to your heartbeat and let me remind myself of your beauty." Tears were still flowing and I kissed them away. "XiaoBai I will never make you cry again." She hummed softly as she closed her eyes.


You are oxygen, a breath of fresh air, my system that I function with my world.


You are a single word that I hear and can speak, you mend everything that is broken.


You are warmth, I feel the highest when I'm with you, your love is like a drug to me that I can't get enough off.


I feel cold and soulless without you, don't ever walk this path without me. There is heaven and hell for everything but you have made hell, heaven for me. You take my breath away, you stop the ever rotating stars of my life and you give me something brighter and better.


My hands feel empty without yours, and I am lost without you.
Should I be in the darkness I want to live with you, I don't want to be in the  light without you, take my heart and my soul I don't want it without you.


I have lived for so long but I have never found love that is so great like yours, you are an epitome of love.

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