Chapter Thirty-two

XiaoJiu


The darkness so calming and inviting, the quietness is deadly but friendly the only thing I miss is my lovers face.
Althoug I missed him, I wanted to stay here in this darkness but something pushed me out and I opened my eyes, to find my lover looking at me with red rimmed eyes and worry lines his face, he looked pale. He stared at me for the longest time without blinking or saying anything, tears formed in his eyes and they fell on to my face. "Why do you look so sad?" He turned away from me but I grabbed his hand and he didn't resist. "Why are you doing this to m XiaoBai?" His voice was shaky and his breathing was hard. "Wha...." I was about to say something but he pinned me with his eyes and I became breathless. "You're sick and you don't even say anything!! How dare you keep that away from me? Why would you let me believe that you're okay when you're not!!!! XiaoBai if you die, do you think that I would want to live? Do you really think I would not follow you!?" He fumed, more than anything I was shocked that he yelled at me but he looked so beautiful that I wanted to pull him in my arms and kiss him. "Dijiun I didn't want to worry you." After I said that it was like I made him more mad. "Didn't want to worry me!? Are you kidding me!? You have been putting your life in danger for me! You got attacked by Wang Shu and her minions, you soaked up dark energy for my sake and now you want to die!!!!! XiaoBai I always worry about you!! Do you know how incompetent you just made me feel!? I am so angry at you that I don't want to see your face." With that being said he disappeared, I wasn't even going to try to get myself out of this he was mad and had every right too. I just wish he didn't leave because I felt so anxious without him but knowing that he was mad I just waited quietly for his return.


Dijiun


An unmoving body laid in my arms and my heartbeat was almost none existing, as I carried her back to the Purple Sea.
She was so cold and I was sure that I was going to lose my mind, I laid her down next to the cold Spring and I undressed her then I placed her inside, She had stopped breathing altogether but I didn't want to panic even though it was bubbling inside of me, I removed her from the cold Spring, I tried to pass my spiritual power to her but her body rejected it, I felt her pulse but it was very faint. "XiaoBai what's wrong with you?" I touched her face gently but immediately a red angry bruise appeared on her face. "Surely you would tell me if you're sick, wouldn't you?" I whispered softly then I checked her spiritual power but it was also very faint, I put her in my arms and covered her body with my mine and I fused our bodies but her body immediately rejected my magic again, I frowned then her feather phoenix flower turned green for a few seconds then it heat XiaoBai was sick.


I meditated and pulled the divine energy from the foling flowers, I pressed it against her body but it back fired and she started bleeding. I stopped and tried to wake her up but she wouldn't wake up, I shook her again but she wouldn't budge.


Then I removed her predominant spirit and replaced it with mine, my spirit settled on her body and I threw up blood. XiaoBai was hurt very badly and this was making her even more sick even more sick, XiaoBai had stayed with the dark energy and magic in her body that when it was removed it was already too late, the dark energy was already apart of her blood stream feeding of it,it can't be healed but can be suppressed what I am more afraid of is that she could die from this thing.


Now her body was weak and her spirit was greatly injured, I summoned some foling flowers and they created a purple ball of sparkling energy and I placed her spirit inside, I dressed her warmly and I placed her in bed and covered her with a quilt, I put the energy ball under the crystal ice sea. As I waited for to wake up, after 2 hours she opened her eyes and she looked at me and even though I wanted to kiss her I was mad at her and after shouting at I disappeared, I didn't go too far away because I was worried that she might get anxious when I was calm enough I went back to her.


She was wearing my robe but her face looked sad, I sat down next to her and she looked at me. "Dijiun." She whispered softly. "Why would you do something like that to me?" I asked softly and she grabbed my hand. "I was scared, Dijiun I am scared so very much but at the same time I don't want to be a burden to you." She looked at me and for a second she looked frightened. "You could never be a burden to me, XiaoBai if I lost you do you understand that there would be nothing left for me not a single thing. Sick or not I will always be worried about you because my XiaoBai is very reckless, XiaoBai I can't lose you not again." She cupped my face and kissed me gently. "I'm sorry for not telling you." I kissed her palm. "Don't keep things from me." She nodded her head that gave me her sheepish childish grin. "I want you to come with me to the Ice realm." She beamed at me, as far as I knew she didn't allow anyone to go to the Ice realm except for Fangsu, she was the only exception. "Why?" I asked softly and her smile widened. "You're my world Dijiun, Yang Yang had left a box for me everything inside reminded me of everything I had forgotten, I know that our journey together hasn't been easy and there's still things we need to overcome but even then I forgot most of the promises I made to myself, I want you to meet the people at Ice realm as you are apart of me, they're also apart of me." She sighed loudly. "Dijiun I have liked you for so long that falling in love with you felt like falling asleep. I don't really know what the future holds for us but what I know is that I don't want it without you, Dijiun I am sorry for the fact that you didn't get the love you deserved, I am sorry that everybody that you had put your trust in let you down, I am sorry that you grew up alone isolated in the land of living although you have Yuka as your best friend right now I know that it took awhile to get there, my path to you wasn't very steady and smooth but it was worth it because it got me with you this far." She coughed and spat blood out. "XiaoBai!" I wiped her blood away and she smiled at me. "In the whole world you love me the most, this is the best kind of love." She closed her eyes. "Let's hold our wedding ceremony tomorrow." She said while her eyes were still closed. "XiaoBai, everything you said to me so far makes me feel like you're saying goodbye, I don't like this feeling that I have XiaoBai." She opened her eyes and something sweet swirled in them. "I could never say goodbye to you, I could never say goodbye to my life. Don't you get it? You're my life but sometimes you have to speak the words in your heart because you might regret saying them later, don't be anxious my love." She closed her eyes again. "XiaoBai if something happened to you, I would die immediately I cannot imagine life without you. Now that I have had the taste of your love, I want more and I want it all. You say that I am your life but you're my life. From the first day I met you I treated you differently from everyone I have met, although I didn't understand at first later I found out that I loved you more than anything, I would give up my life for you." Tears rolled down her face. "My soul is complete with your soul, before I fell for your beauty I fell for your soul, XiaoBai I was in love with your soul before I fell in love with you and nobody could ever be perfect for me but you." She opened her eyes. "Would you ever save me if I am in trouble?" She asked softly. "Always." I whispered, she started coughing again. "I love you." She said and then she closed her eyes again.


My soul felt cold, nothing could ease the tension in my heart nothing can happen to her, I am not capable of living without her I don't want to be in a world without her.
Something dark and something painful was poking at me and I knew that I wouldn't be able to resist the pain, and I could also tell that this is the kind of pain that would kill me.


She had her eyes closed, not a single worry on her face no traces of sadness just her beauty pulling me in. Fate said that we were not meant to be, but destiny disagreed with that and so did I? Would you dare leave me after fighting so hard to be here, I laid down next to her and I kissed her forehead and I closed my eyes.

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