Chapter Fourteen

Yang Yang


I have loved you for so long, I have kept you inside my heart and I don't regret it.
You have been something worth living for, I only have beautiful memories of you but XiaoJiu will you hate me for leaving you? I know that in your heart I have a special place but don't let it change you.


XiaoJiu you're beautiful, you are like the brightest star in the galaxy, your beauty holds me captive.
Should I had the courage I would have taken your hand and held it, never letting it go. I would have given you everything you desire and shielded you from the pain you have suffered through.


I won't be able to walk besides you and hold your hand, I won't be able to see you smile and that naughty grin you have when you are about to do something crazy, I won't be able to fall into your traps and your corrupt plans and you will no longer be able to guilty me into doing something for you.


Bai Fengjiu I always knew that I loved you from the moment you abandoned your friends for my sake, you have always been sweet with your ugly temper.
I hope you know that this isn't the way I wanted to leave or say goodbye but when the divine goddess calls, you have to go.


I was laying down on the bed as I felt the ache in my bones from the dark magic, weak as I was now I knew I couldn't hold for much longer. "Yang Yang, you have to see XiaoJiu." I heard Fangsu's voice, Fangsu and I have gotten close ever since she made peace with Fengjiu. "I don't want her to see me like this." I said weakly and she frowned. "You're going to die! You don't even want her by your side!" She yelled as the tears she was holding in finally ran down her face. "I want her to be here Fangsu but right now she's happy with Dong Hua in the mortal realm, I don't want to ruin that." A series of sharp pain attacked me all at once making me vomit blood. "Yang Yang!" She said in a panicky Voice, a few seconds my godfather walked in. "Fangsu, go get Fengjiu he doesn't have much long." Fangsu was out of the realm before I could say anything.


Jui're


As I was sleeping next to Dong Hua I felt the most unbearable pain on my abdomen, I tried sitting up but it was so unbearable I screamed out in pain. "Aaahh!!!" My agonized voice filled the room waking up Dijiun's. "XiaoBai what's wrong?" He asked in an alarmed voice. " My sto..." Another pain started on my lower back. "Ahhh Ahhh it hurts." I grabbed on his hand, my face was sweaty and I felt like I couldn't breathe then I started feeling the heat, Dijiun picked me up and removed my outer robe and he took me to the Cold Spring fountain and he placed me inside gently. Everything was spinning, like everything was coming towards my face. "Dijiun I don't feel well." He transferred some of his energy to me, a stab like severe pain was in my heart and I vomited blood. "XiaoBai!!" He took me out of the water, there was worry lines on his face, a fire starting burning deep down in my belly but then something cool was putting away and all pain stopped and I fell unconscious.


Dijiun


XiaoBai wasn't looking good but now she was laying in my arms unconscious, I placed her down as I checked on what could be wrong with her but there was nothing, other that she was healthy but the physical pain she was feeling stated otherwise. I heard my foster sister's silo flower calling me from a very far distance, I covered XiaoBai and I found her standing at the entrance of the mortal palace. "This is knew, you're here for me?" she smiled sweetly me and she bowed her head. "Brother, I am not here for you but XiaoJiu." I raised my eyebrow. "She's needed at the Ice Palace, its urgent." there was an urgency to her voice." Does Yang Yang want to see her?" she nodded her head and I felt annoyed. "XiaoBai is not feeling well, she is asleep I will send her when she is awake." she frowned. "Can't you wake her?" she asked softly and I shook my head. "Fine, but as soon as she wakes up send her, its important." she immediately left, I was confused at her urgency but I was annoyed at the same time and I wasn't going to tell XiaoBai about this Yang Yang can wait.


When I went to my room XiaoBai was still asleep but her face contorted in pain but she didn't wake, when I checked up on her again, her body temperature was so high I went and got cold went towels to put on her body and around her face to try and cool her down. "XiaoBai what's wrong?" I asked softly as I caressed her face, I went to prepare some herbal medicine for her when I met with my mortal Empress. "My dear Emperor I haven't seen you in such awhile, I heard that your other Consorts also haven't been called by you, why is that?" she asked softly. "I have other Consort that need my attention." she rolled her eyes and then she walked way. When I went back to the room XiaoBai was awake, sitting on the bed quietly. "You're awake." she looked at me and her eyes were red like she had been crying. "I need to go something might be wrong with Yang Yang." she said softly. "Fangs was here earlier to see you because Yang Yang wanted to know if are you still fine, and I told her that you had a little fever." she smiled at me. "So Yang Yang is okay too?" I nodded my head. "How do you feel?" I asked softly. "I still feel the pain but it is bearable." she laid back closing her eyes but immediately she screamed again.


Fangsu


Yang Yang was writhing in pain and he kept slipping in and out of consciousness, I was wondering what kept XiaoJiu from coming here or she hadn't woken up. I was afraid that by the time she gets here Yang Yang would be long gone, I also understand why he didn't want her here knowing her nature she would try and save him putting herself in danger something that Yang Yang didn't want. "XiaoJiu." Yang Yang whispered softly. "XioaJiu I don't have anytime left, I want you to know that I will always love you, I will follow you wherever you are and I will carry you in my spirit, XiaoJiu I am sorry I didn't stay long enough for you to keep your of marrying me, I know that you don't like the fox cave and your parents frustrate you, so from now on the Ice Palace and the ice realm are yours." he screamed in pain again and in one breath he stopped breathing, his godfather who was sitting next him broke down and my heart swelled in pain, XiaoJiu had missed her chance to say goodbye. "Godfather I have a request, I know Yang Yang's body will eventually fade but can you slow down its time, just until Xiaojiu can see him, I will go look for her maybe something happened to her." he nodded his head and I hurried to the mortal realm.


Jiu're


The plunging pain in my body is nothing compared to the pain released by soul, my soul is crying calling me and cursing my name at the same time, I was dying in pain my body was on fire and the heat was consuming me, a warning of something I was losing.


Shouldn't there be scars for the ones you love that leave you behind, shouldn't my body burnt to the ground for not understanding your call, while I was living you were dying. While I was warm you were cold and while I was smiling you were crying, do I not deserve scars that show how I lost you to the blindness of my heart, if I call you now will answer, will I hear your voice and will you tell me that you forgive me?


There's no longer answer but a shall path that was left by love, for loving me you paid a price and for loving him I will pay the price but I still played the game of fate and destiny dismissing all the danger signs because I believed, I am my own destiny.


The pain was finally gone but my heart was feeling so lonely, Dijiun was watching me quietly but I couldn't bring myself to say anything at this sudden loss I was speechless and as the air was starting to suffocate me, Fangsu appeared with a very angry face. "Fangsu." I said even my words sounded lonely as I felt. "Wow you really love Dijiun don't you? so much so that you ignored Yang Yang's call, he waited for you and you didn't come for him." she looked at Dijiun. "I thought that you said Yang Yang was important but I guess he wasn't as important as Dijiun is." then she disappeared not understanding what she was saying I followed her, I caught up to her before she could get inside the ice realm. "Fangsu wait!" she stopped and then she glared at me. "Why are you so angry at me, nothing you are saying is making sense." she seemed to be getting angrier the more I spoke. "Dijiun told you that I asked for you to come to the ice palace, because Yang Yang but you ignored it." I shook my head. "No, Dijiun said Yang Yang sent you to check on me because he was worried about me but nothing about me coming to the ice realm." not waiting for say anything I entered the ice realm as I ran to the ice palace.


Maybe I was going crazy but it was lonely quiet and my heartbeat had slowed into an abnormal face, I want to see Yang Yang and maybe everything will feel better, when I reached the hall I started calling for him. "Yang Yang." but there was deadly silent and I ran up to his room and I found him on the bed asleep, I sighed in relief and smiled at his sleeping form. I went to sit besides him and I took his hand in mine but that made me cry and I didn't even understand. "Yang Yang, I am not trying to wake you but I'm sorry I am late I wasn't aware that you had called for me, seeing you right now has put my soul at ease, I hope you wake up soon." then I kissed his hand and placed it back down, Fangsu was standing at the foot the bed. "He looks so peaceful, I hope he wakes up soon." something heartbreaking flashed into her eyes. "XiaoJiu, you really had no idea? Dijiun didn't tell you?" I shook my head. "XiaoJiu, Yang Yang is not going to wake up." I heard the words from her mouth but I didn't understand what she meant. "Why not? he's sleeping." she shook her head. "XiaoJiu Yang Yang has been sick for a long time, but his illness wasn't getting better so he passed away." my heart stopped completely there was no sound, everything was deadly quiet and I looked back at Yang Yang. "What you do you mean passed away, that's impossible." I pulled Yang Yang to my lap and I watched his beautiful face. "He can't be dead there has to be another explanation, he is so young he can't just die." Fangsu kneeled in front of me. "If you don't believe it why are you crying?" and that made me sob out loud. "I....I... Fangsu...he....he..." I shook him. "Wake up!" but he wouldn't budge. "Yang Yang this isn't funny, this is not the kind of prank you should play on me." I shook him again, Fangsu was sobbing along with me. I leaned down and place my lips against his. "You Promised!! You said you would always be by my side." then little by little his body started fading away. "No...No...No...please...please don't do this to me...Yang....Yang....please...I....I...just..." I begged as my tears fell down on his face the pain I was feeling earlier when I felt sick was back, then he completely disappeared. "Fangsu." she pulled me into her arms wept bitterly.

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