'I LOVE YOU.'


"valerie! go to the store with me, pleaseeee." maddy yelled from her room, and waited a minute for her sister to reply. though, once she didn't respond, she figured she didn't hear her and walked out of her room, down the hall and stood by her door that was closed.

"valerie, can you go to the store with me?" she repeated, and again, waited.

when she didn't reply still, she sighed and opened her door. she thought she snuck out or had left and she just didn't know. but when she opened her door her eyes slowly widened and she panicked, throwing her hand over her mouth.

"mom!" she screamed, tears coming out of her eyes as she rushed over to valerie.

"valerie? val? no, no, no!" she shook her, her hands gripping onto her body.

her mom rushed out of the kitchen the moment she heard maddys loud scream. she ran down the hall, stopping when she saw valerie's door open and loud cry's coming from inside it. her mom moved to maddy side, before her mouth opened wide and another loud cry was heard.

β€”β€”β€”

fezcos head raised at the sound of crying, as he and ashtray stood in the store next to each other mid conversation. fezcos eyes widened as he watched the girl walk over to them, and he turned to see ashtrays eyebrows furrowed at the sight of the familiar girl.

"what are you doing here?" he asked her, and fezco shook his head at his tone even though the girl was crying.

victoria shook her head, not being able to catch her breathe from how much she'd cried. "do youβ€” do you know?"

ashtray squinted his eyes, "know what?"

victoria hated to have to be the one to tell him, so if took her a few seconds to collect herself, before she finally said the words ashtray never expected.

ashtrays heart dropped, along with his posture. fezcos mouth opened slightly, as he quickly turned his head to his brother who was already walking off to the freezers.

victoria bit her lip, watching him walk away. fezco gave the girl a nod, and what that the girl walked out of the store, and fezco went to follow his brother.

ashtray shaky hands dialed valerie's number, calling her. he listened as it rung many, many times, and she didn't answer. he pressed it again, calling her for a second time. again, she didn't answer. with a groan, he went to their message thread and began texting her. he didn't want to believe it, it couldn't be true.

fezco slowly opened the freezer door, seeing ashtray sitting on his phone, his fingers rapidly moving on his phone screen as his face had a worried, scared expression.

fezco sighed, "i'm sorry, man..."

ashtray shook his head, "nah, i gotta go over there." he told him, standing up, putting his phone in his pocket and walking past him. though, fezco quickly followed behind him, telling him he'd give him a ride.

and he did, stopping in front of valerie's house after the very quiet ride, other than the sound of ashtray calling valerie for the tenth time. he watched as ashtray opened the car door, walking up to valerie's nodded and knocking, waiting impatiently.

fezco saw maddy perez open the door, her eyes landing on ashtray and letting out a cry. his heart heart for the girl and his little brother, it was official.

ashtrays body tensed as he felt valerie's sister tightly hug him, shaking her head that was on his shoulder. she was saying words he couldn't understand, before she lead him in the house and to valerie's room.

his eyes scanned the room, hoping he'd see her sitting on her bed watching a movie or show like always, but it was empty. everything was still in there, it was decorated the way she liked it, but she wasn't there, which made the room empty to him.

the room still smelt like her favorite candle, and a hint of her favorite perfume, her.

his eyes watched maddy walk over to her vanity, there sat a notebook, with a few papers that sat next to it. his eyebrows furrowed, as she handed him a piece of paper, it was folded.

"sheβ€” she wrote that... for you." maddy told him.

he slowly took it from her hand, looking at the paper. he didn't know how to feel, how to react. so he just nodded, telling maddy he had to go, and then walked out of her house, going back into fezcos car with nothing but silence.

fezco didn't know how to comfort his brother, he didn't know what to say. he himself was sad, he had a great relationship with valerie, but for ashtray, he kept him composure and thought about how he'd comfort him.

the ride was complete silence, ashtrays hand never left the paper that maddy had handed him, but he didn't un fold it. he couldn't bring himself to read it.

as ashtray was now home, he stared at the two letter that sat on his desk. one of the love letter she wrote him for their two month, it was already un folded and sad nicely there, so he re read it about a thousand times, before his eyes traveled over to the folded paper, that he hasn't touched since he sat it down.

he sighed, slowly reaching to the paper and unfolding it. he saw her handwriting as the paper unfolded and sat in his hands, and he took a deep breathe before reading it.

ashtray,
you are the love of my life, literally. i am so thankful that you never once made me question your love for me. i always felt loved by you, safe, protected. and i want to thank you for that, and always listening to my many problems, my opinions and whatever other bullshit you put up with. i spent some of my favorite moment with you, memories i hope you'll keep with you for as long as you can. although, you have a bad memory so i don't think it'll be very long. anyway, im sorry. i hope you're not hurt. that not at all what i want. i don't want you to cry it to be angry, i want you to be okay, even if it takes time. it took time for me to be okay, and i am now, and that all i want for you. remember when we talked about our future and what we wanted for ourselves? do that. do exactly what you want to, what you told me. or maybe live up what i told you, even if it's with someone else. i hope you and fezco a better life, truly. thank you for making my wish come true and taking me to watch the sunset on the beach with you, that is my favorite date we had, even though we only had three, i still loved them. you coming to get me in the middle of the night to go get denny's, and us watching movies at my house next to each other and eating snacks. it was so simple, but it was everything i needed. well, i love you ashtray. until we meet again?







AUTHORS NOTES:

pls don't hate me
jesus
i'm so sorry
LMAOOO ?!?!
i just wanted to end this how i've been thinking since it started, since i've ended the rest of my books how you guys wanted and this might be my last one, for a while or forever, soooo ya knowwww
anyway, thank you all for reading and commenting and voting! even tho the books over you can message me and we can talk, and i'll make sure to let you guys know what i decide on, if i'm gonna make another book in the future or not.

butttttt, valerie and ashtray.

the end.

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