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over the next few days, somehow i didn't notice until the day after the halloween party, bated charges were dropped. and instead, some guy named tyler was accused.

victoria already knew all about it because she's with me everyday, but i told ashtray too. i had been texting him, trying to get to know him more than just a fourteen year old drug dealer with face tattoos.. but he never told me much. but i wasn't giving up and trying to become friends with him.

two days ago, me and vic found out if we made the cheer team or not.

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"okay, on three." vic said, both of us look at the board that had the cheerleaders named.

i nodded, and closed my eyes until she got to three, and when i opened them i saw 'valerie perez' and 'victoria lee' in bold letters.

victoria gasped, and grabbed my shoulder before pulling me into a hug. "we made it!"

i laughed, and hugged her back. "yeah!"

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and i told ashtray after, which he made fun of me for, but i laughed it off.

and today was the winter formal.

victoria was asked, by roy.. surprisingly, to go. she was going to say no, not wanting to leave me alone, until i convinced her i'd either hangout with maddy or find someone to go with.

... and i had someone in mind.

ashtrayyy

valerie
hey
are you going to the winter formal ?

i was way too nervous to ask him to go with me.

ย  ย  ย  ย  ย  ย  ย  ย  ย  ย  ย  ย  ย  ย  ย  ย  ย  ย  ย  ashtrayyy
ashtray
fuck no

i sighed, throwing my head back. what do i do now?

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ย  ย  ย  ย  ย  ย  ย  ย  ย  ย  ย  ย  ย  ย  ย  ย  ย  ย  ย  ย  ashtrayyy
valerie
lame

i roughly sat my phone down, annoyed with myself that i was too nervous to ask, so now i was going alone. but i got up, and put on the dress maddy helped me pick out anyway.

just as i was finished putting on my heels, maddy yelled from down the hall, "val! hurry up!"

i rolled my eyes, grabbing my phone and i jacket i'd leave at maddys table, and hurried down the hallway.

maddy smiled when she saw me, "i knew it would look good!" and then grabbed my arm, rushing out the door.

"have fun!" our mom yelled at us, and maddy replied with, "i will!"

i'm glad she spoke for herself.

once we sat in car, cassie, lexi and maddy squealed, and maddy leaned forward to look at both of them.

i sighed, and laid my head on the seat. eventually, maddy asked if they wanted any of her gatorade and everclear.

lexi drank some, gagging afterwards. but surprisingly, cassie said no.

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i took a deep breathe as we finally got there, and i walked behind the three.

"i feel really good about tonight."
"really? why?"
"yeah.. i was thinking this is the first time since the begging of high school that i haven't like been in love with somebody."
"honestly, i love that for you."

eventually we reached the table, and rue and jules were already sat there. i smiled at rue, and gave her a quick side hug. "you look good, rue!"

she laughed, "yeah.. thanks, you look pretty."

i thanked her by smiling, and then sat down. soon, kat walked in and sat down next to me and cassie. maddy and kat looked at each other but didn't say anything, i guess something happened between them..

kat turned to me, "so, valerie, do you have a date?"

i shook my head, "nope."

and then it was silent between the six of us, as we watched all the teenagers dance. until cassie spoke up, "what if these are like the big moments in life? like my mom always talks about high school like it was this monumental part of her life... but i cannot imagine being forty and looking back at this moment like.. 'wow.'"

"yeah, but that's because most people peak in high school."
"i definitely haven't peaked."
"i feel like i'm not even a person yet."
"yeah, i'm definitely at like twenty five percent peakness."
"i feel like i'm at a hundred perfect. but i can definitely go to one fifty."
"i honestly never thought i'd make it this far."
"what do you mean?"

the rest of what their saying, i tuned out. it just sounded depressing and i really didn't understand what they were talking about. so instead, i looked around the room for victoria and eventually, i saw her. she looked pretty, and nervous dancing with roy.. but she looked like she was having fun. and just a little part of me was jealous.

i got up and pushed my way through the crowd, goijg outside and probably leaving.. until my arm was grabbed and i was turned around, and a random boy i've never met was standing there with a smirk on his face. "hey, wanna dance?"

i probably should've, since i was just going to leave afterwards anyway.. but he wasn't the person i wanted to dance with tonight, so i shook my head. "no, sorry." and walked off again, as i reached the doors and was about to walk out, my arm was grabbed again. "didn't i just-."

there ashtray stood, in a suit. "oh." i chuckled, and looked him up at down, seeing him in a suit was something i knew i'd probably only see once.

"i thought you wasn't coming?" i asked him.

he smiled, "yeah, but you wanted me to come so bad."

i scoffed, but felt my heartbeat increase at the fact he came here for me. "i didn't." i said anyway.

he smirked, "sure." and then looked me up and down, and i got more nervous, so i asked the first question that came to mind. "wanna dance?"

he furrowed his eyebrows, "fuck no, i don't know how to dance."

i rolled my eyes, and grabbed his arm. "i don't either, cmon."

surprisingly, he let me pull him onto the floor, passed the guy who just asked me to dance, and then we stood, sort of in the middle, looking at each other.

i let out an awkward laugh, and then placed one of my hands on his shoulder. by that time it was a slow dance, which only made it worse because people weren't moving around everywhere like they were before. but ashtray put his hand on my waist, and leaned his hand on my shoulder anyway.

"thought you said you didn't know how to dance?" i asked, chuckling.

"i don't, just copying these fucks." he responded, and i smiled into his shoulder.

after awhile, ashtray whispered, "i gotta go.. make sure fez is alright." and pulled away.

i furrowed my eyebrows, but understood he needing to check on his brother, "okay.. can i go with you?"

he thought for a minute, before sighing. "ion know if that's the safest idea."

he seemed in a rush, so i wasn't going to say any joke or try and push it further, so instead i leaned forward, kissing his cheek and then said, "okay."

he smiled a little, before giving me a thumbs up and walking away, i laughed while watching him.

and as soon as i turned around to go get my jacket, i squealed out of excitement.. and then paused.

what the fuck... do i like him?





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