I inhale a sharp breath, snapping my eyes open to see the open roof of Rai's car. My eyes were met by the darkness of the sky and the bright light of the moon. My chest was falling up and down my lungs begging for air to renter them. My heart was beating so fast almost too fast that I could hear it thumping. There was a sharp pain in my chest as if there had been a knife in place of my heart. The only other thing I could feel was a stinging pain in my head.

Did I cut my head open?

Staring at the roof, I quickly realized what happened. I had passed out yet again, and Rai and Ricky had to take care of me. I couldn't stop shaking I felt a soreness in my heart and some sort of force restricting me from moving around my body which I'm guessing is the seat belt.I look over to the right to be met with Rai driving and Ricky sitting beside her with her brows furrowed like they were permanently sown together I look back over to Rai who had the exact same expression on her face.

I tried to move my hands to signal to them that I was conscious but I couldn't. the only thing I could move were my eyes. I tried to say something but I couldn't form words. The air in my lungs was gone as quickly as it came and before I could do anything about, it, my eyes had already fluttered shut.

Fuck. Here we go again.

10 hours later,

I open my eyes to be welcomed to the ceiling of my apartment. I inhale a deep breath that I have been waiting for for what seemed to be a lifetime.

I turn my head to see that I was right and I was in fact in my room all alone tangled in my sheets from afar I could hear the sound of distant talking coming from the living room. I begin to kick my covers only for my legs to ache from being still for so long.

Fuck this.

I kick the sheets off until they were completely off of me I look around to see that my room had been cleaned up and there had been a glass of water left on my desk. I reach out my left hand to grab the glass but as soon as I did it slipped right through my fingers.

"fuck!" I whisper shouted looking over at my clock to see it was 12:32 pm. by now rai would be up but I didn't want to wake Ricky especially since I already know I had cost them a lot of trouble. I grab my phone to check the date was march thirteenth which would mean around 10 hours had passed since I blacked out.

I quickly get up only to be welcomed with a sharp pain in my head and lose my balance and fall back down. I kept blinking my eyes only to see complete darkness for a few seconds until my blurry eyes finally adjusted back to my room. I seriously have got to start taking my anemia pills again.

I stand back up slower this time so I don't have to go through that again. what was it called again? Orthostatic hypotension? I'm not quite sure what it's called but I do know it's caused by my low blood pressure considering I hadn't eaten since yesterday.
I walk over to my white desk that had a small orange container full of red tablets, I slip one in my mouth

Grabbing my phone, I head over to my closet opening it up and looking for a clean towel that I could clean up my mess with, grabbing the first gray towel I see I head back over to the desk and clean up that water I had just spilled after doing so I throw the towel into my laundry basket and reach for the door handle taking in a deep breath knowing I was going to be greeted by an angry rai and a sleeping Ricky.

I twist the door handle, opening my door enough for me to slip my head through and look around to see who had been in the living room watching TV.

"Well look who it is"

Called it.

"Hello, Rai."

"Hello, Zara, how are you feeling after you know you blacked out again after we told you multiple times to be more careful?"

"I'm fine thank you very much." I say now fully exiting my room and quietly shutting the door behind me.

Since I didn't see Ricky, I assumed they were still in bed sleeping

Called it again

"Where is Ricky?" I asked rai who was laying down on the red couch in the living room

"They're sleeping,"

"Wow shocker," I say walking down the hall and into the bathroom.

I open the bathroom door to be welcomed by the smell of cherry blossom which I'm guessing one of the girls had used that shower gel. I open up the bathroom cabinet to find my toothbrush in a cup with two other toothbrushes.

I grab mine, shutting the cabinet back up to be greeted by my own reflection. I take a few seconds to observe myself only to notice that I had a bruise on my forehead.

What the actual fuck.

Where did I fall from? and why can't I remember it?

I run my toothbrush under cold water, grabbing the toothpaste and putting it all over my toothbrush, then running the toothbrush that now had toothpaste on it underwater, then turning off the faucet.

I bring the toothbrush up to my mouth and start brushing my teeth. one thing I can't live without is brushing my teeth. if the world was ending right now and I only had time to do one last thing, I would probably brush my teeth. I spit out the toothpaste filled saliva and stick out my tongue to brush it.

After finishing up my tongue, I spit out the saliva once again turning in the faucet and cleaning up the brush then taking some water in my hand, putting it in my mouth and spiting it back out, repeating that twice. after doing so, I close the running sink and grab my mouth wash, pouring some into my mouth, shaking it around then spitting it back out.

Putting everything back in its place, I proceed to go back into my room to grab my phone, make my bed then head back into the living room where rai still laid watching stranger things. but before doing so I checked my messages to see I had multiple missed calls and messages from Eren, Mikasa, Connie, Hitch, and a few others. I close my phone back up, deciding to just call them back later.

I walked behind her which seemed to catch her attention because she automatically looked over to me.

"What are you doing?" She questioned

"Drinking water?"

She doesn't say anything.

"Stop stressing Rai. I'm fine,"

"My bad it's not everyday one of my friends blacks out."

Ignoring her remark, I head into the kitchen pulling the refrigerator door open and taking out a cold bottle of water.

I open up the plastic bottle, bringing the bottle up to my lips, tilting my head back and pouring the liquid into my mouth. the cold water immediately hit the back of my throat, causing me to cough it back out.

"Can't even drink water right." I heard rai snickering from behind me, causing me to turn around and flip her off.

I bring the water back up to my lips, drinking it slowly this time, which felt like I was moving an ocean to the Sahara desert. if there was anything I loved in this world, it was water.

With the bottle still in my hand, I walk over to where rai was laying shoving her legs over and sitting down where they were.

"Cunt" I heard rai say, putting her legs onto my lap.

After around 2 episodes of stranger things, we heard Ricky's door creak open to see a half a sleep Ricky walking towards us rubbing their eyes, they ran over and jumped on the couch with us, pulling me into a hug.

"You're alive!" they said, smiling at the fact that I wasn't dead

"Yeah I am and you have morning breath." I said, smiling back at them

"Oh fuck off," they said playfully, punching my arm and standing back up, making their way towards the bathroom.

After around six minutes they come back out.

"So how are you feeling bitch?" Ricky said sitting on the couch next to the one we're on

"Im good my head just hurts a bit" I responded glancing over at them

"I bet" they responded sarcastically

"Hey what time is it" i asked too lazy to check

"Almost 1 " rai responded

"Shit I have practice today" I responded with a little panic in my voice

"you're not going." they said at the same time

"Yes I am, I already missed monday practice"

"Yeah well we need to keep an eye on you and make sure you don't black out in front of everyone else " rai said

"But I feel fine now, I can go besides it's only 2 hours it won't even be that long and if I start feeling bad I'll call you."

"I still think you shouldn't go." Ricky said, Rai nods her head in agreement.

"Guys I have to our gig is this saturday I can't miss it and I haven't even been practicing with the band and they're already mad at me for skipping Monday, I have to go."

"Whatever floats your boat but if you pass out halfway through practice don't say we didn't tell you" Rai said looking over at me.

"Hey by the way what exactly happened?" I asked

"We went to smoke on the abounded roof and when we were leaving you fell down from the roof and hit your head on the grass."

I shut my eyes and tried my best to recollect my brain on what happened, but nothing was coming back. There was something missing in my memory , and no matter how hard I tried to think of it I couldn't. my last memory was me standing on the roof looking at the moon then it all goes black.

"Do you remember anything?" Ricky questioned me

I took a second to try and figure out what I remembered but it was like my brain was stuck and was replaying the night over and over but it stops too early.

"Well i remember getting pancakes, going on the roof, rolling  and looking at the moon but I don't remember anything after" I responded trying to figure out what happened last night.

My brain was moving fast trying to recollect each piece of the night but I couldn't, I can only remember little vivid bits but I couldn't remember any big details.

"Yeah that all did happen but you don't remember falling do you?" Rai asked

"No, no I don't" I say trying to remember the incident that was blocked off by my brain

"Maybe it'll come back to you over the next few days until then we can't really do anything about it now can we?" Ricky said

"No we can't." Rai responded for me

"Zar do you know why this is keeps happening to you?"

I ook a second to respond trying to consider all the possibilities. That's the one thing I've been stuck on, what is causing me to pass out at the most random times. it's not like this is a normal thing. Maybe it's the low iron but I'd rather not know because I know if I did I'd become to busy to focus on my career.

"No but I'm guessing it's because of how low my iron is."

"Yeah you're probably right, that would be the most logical explanation and I'm guessing the cigarettes and alcohol you endorse everyday isn't helping."

"I know thanks for reminding me mom"

"We're just looking out for you Z" Ricky said with a frown on their face

"I know I know I'm sorry, but I'm an adult I can handle myself I promise." I stand up and kiss Ricky's forehead

"Until then I'm going to practice, call me if anything happens" I said walking back to my room.