I had decided to join Dumbledore's Army. I decided that if I'm not going to be able to get over the fact I might not ever see Draco again I might as well distract myself.

I was in Ginny's dorm sitting on her bed when she was practicing producing her patronus. She suddenly got mad at the fact she wasn't able to and began shouting. I immediately started backing into a corner with tears running down my face, the room was spinning and I couldn't help the flashbacks that were playing on repeat in my mind.

Ginny turned around at the sound of my cries and came over to me. She tried to hug me but as she held her arms out I flinched. She covered her mouth with her hand and started crying. "Daniella what is going on." She pleaded.

I rubbed the tears off my cheeks without thinking and my concealer came off with my tears. Ginny gasped and I broke down. Luckily it had been two weeks since I escaped my uncle and the bruises and cuts were almost healed but nevertheless they were still there. Sobbing, I told her everything that had happened, how my own uncle nearly killed me, how he would beat me until I passed out and how he blamed me for my parents death.

I cried into her arms and she cried with me quietly trying to not let me realize that she was also crying.

Ginny

Malfoy,

You have to come back. I don't care about what you're going through. You not being here is destroying Daniella. She needs you right now. She is changing without you. Actually no she has changed without you. I don't care what you need to do to be able to come back but you better do it and do it fast. If anything bad happens to her it will be all your fault.

-Ginny

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Daniella

It has become common for me to sit in Draco's room.

Draco

It has become common for me to visit Hogwarts so I could see Daniella.

Daniella

As I walked into Draco's room, I noticed his lights were on and all of the letters I had been sending him were on his bed. I knew that was it. That was the sign I had been looking for. I ran out of Draco's room frantically trying to find him. I was running down the corridors searching for my platinum blonde boy that I had missed so dearly.

While I was running down the halls I ran into Ginny, ignoring my impatience she started asking if I wanted to practice producing our patronuses together. "Oh my gosh Daniella I was meaning to talk to you, I know you said you had no extremely happy memories but I think Harry could really help you with your patronus."

I was still looking around but not seeing Draco in sight I turned back to her and began to answer her question, "Honestly sure, I don't see-"

There he was. I saw Draco. He was there. As soon as he realized I saw him he turned around and quickly started walking towards a turn in the hall.

"DRACO!" I whaled with tears falling down my face. I was running towards him as fast as I could, trying to get him to stop.

"Daniella what are you doing!" Ginny yelled as I ran through the corridors trying to find where Draco went.

I turned the corner and saw nothing but a faint trail of black smoke.

Ginny was caught up to me by the time I fell to the ground sobbing. She hugged me softly, not wanting me to flinch. "What's wrong?"

"He was here. Draco was here."

"Daniella I didn't see him, are you sure it wasn't your mind playing tricks on you?"

"I don't know anymore." I said crying into Ginny's arms. "I don't know how much more of this I can take Ginny. I just want this to be over."

I immediately regretted saying all that I did as I felt Ginny's chin start to quiver and I felt her soft tears fall onto my shirt.

I felt guilty for making Ginny cry but everything I was saying was true, "Sometimes I wish that death eater didn't save me from my uncle"

"What?" Ginny looked at me. "A death eater saved you?"

"When I was running from my uncle I got to the Floo Network but he was there waiting for me and when I ran out a death eater just picked me up and brought me back to Hogwarts."

Ginny just sat there in awe that a death eater of all people would save my life.

"But honestly Ginny, I just wish they left me there to get caught by my uncle. I wish they would have just let him kill me." I cried out to her.

"You don't mean that." Ginny said with a sad look taking over her.

That's when my emotions took over. "Ginny don't you get it? I don't want to be here anymore! I have no friends, Draco is gone and I'm failing all of my classes. My uncle has legal guardianship of me now which means every summer and Christmas I'm going to be dragged there and tortured by him. So yeah, I do wish I died that night."

Draco

As I heard Ella explain in sobs to Ginny how she wished she was dead, I suddenly found myself silently crying. I was standing outside of the castle but I could still easily hear them. I didn't realize how horribly my absence affected Ella. I knew she was sad but I didn't know she was completely losing herself. Out of all the years Ella and I went to school together I had never seen or heard that side of her before. And it terrified me.

Daniella

That night I decided to go to bed early because I felt like if I cried any longer I might never stop crying. Although when I got back to my dorm I was bombarded with questions from Pansy "Daniella what has been going on with you? I mean I know about your uncle but I know there's something else to it."

"Pansy, can we talk about this tomorrow after dinner? I really just want to go to bed." I said with bloodshot eyes.

Pansy said nothing but smiled and nodded her head. I immediately got into my pajamas and climbed into bed. The truth was, I didn't want to go to bed. I knew what was coming for me in my sleep. I finally understood what Draco meant when he told me he was scared of his mind.

"3...2...1... Ready or not, here I come!" Said my uncle who was playing hide and seek with me. I started laughing and he turned the corner to the glass case and found me. His face turned to a terribly evil look. He looked at me and grabbed the gun by the glass case. "Did you really think I would actually play this with you? You filthy little girl, you should have never been put on this earth. You're the reason your Mum and Dad died. He pointed the gun to my forehead and waved goodbye to me before pulling the trigger.

I was in the water now. I was drowning. I was in the deep parts of the ocean and the harder I attempted to swim up the farther down I sunk. I couldn't breathe. All I could hear was my uncle screaming at me and the sound it made every time his fist hit my face.

"PLEASE PULL ME UP I CAN'T BREATHE STOP PLEASE!" I shot up from my bed screaming and crying. Pansy also woke up and quickly moved to my bed. I instinctively flinched before telling myself she wouldn't hurt me.

"It's okay Daniella, it was just a dream," Pansy said to me comfortingly while hugging me.

Eventually I fell back asleep clutching the flower necklace Draco gave me. It was the only sense of comfort that really lasted.

I woke up the next morning to a small red box next to my pillow. Pansy was already at breakfast so I sat up and opened the box, curious to see what was inside. It was a metal bracelet. I engraved in it, it said; 'Keep going. -D'.

I immediately started crying. How did he get in without waking me up? Why wouldn't he just have woken me up? I thought to myself. I eventually pulled myself together and realized I had to stick this out. I had to survive this, I couldn't give up, I had to be with Draco again. I couldn't leave him alone on this earth.