Update, official dyignosed now
A/n before we get started I wanted to say the name is in fact a Hamilton reference however it has nothing to do with the plot to the song it references, ANNND, I'm updating today because I got into a fight with my 'friend' and feel like shit. And what do I do when I'm sad? Chanle all of my sadness into writing and or cry my self to sleep. If any of you want to know what happened, just for background... I have self diagnosed tourettes and dyslexia, Wich BY THE WAY are more often than not self diagnosed.  But basically they told me that I should stop saying I have disorders that I don't have(to make matters worse just to say how condescending they were they added a heart to the end of it). And yet everyone in my family (other than my dad(but he doesn't really count cuz he wasn't there for my childhood)) thinks I have tourettes and dyslexia because it's pretty fucking obvious. So rn I'm mad at my friend for being a mean ignorent prick, but for the sake of my non existent social life imma pretend that nothing happened.

Sorry for the rant, now onto the story.

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Your pov

Would he ever even love me? I'm useless (no you ain't but this reader insert is depressed). My family fucking hates me. So why the hell would he be any different?

Then it happened again.

Every thing is you fault

Please stop it

I can make your pain go away, you can make your pain go away

Then again, you know better than anyone that you are trash.

You know that you are absolute garbage that needs disposed of.

Hell, it dosent matter if the pain leaves after death, you deserve to die anyway.

You deserve the pain and suffering.

Because ...

Everything is your fault

'What the hell did you do this time y/n, it's always your fault,' (- my dad)

No, stop it. STOP IT!

I sit in the corner unaware of my surroundings

"It's all my fault. It's all my fault. It's all my fault. It's all my fault.It's all my fault. It's all my fault. It's all my fault. It's all my fault.It's all my fault. It's all my fault. It's all my fault. It's all my fault.It's all my fault. It's all my fault. It's all my fault. It's all my fault.It's all my fault. It's all my fault. It's all my fault. It's all my fault.

Who the hell would love  me, I'm just a broken pease of shit?"

"I would love you."

Is that...hawks? When did he get in here? Looking up I see a conserned look on the typically cocky hero's face. He aproches me slowly, then proceeded to pick me up, carrying me to a far more comfortable set.  running his fingers through my hair as I clingy to him. We sit like this for what feels like hours before, " I meant what I said before, about the loving you thing I mean." I look up from my previous crying into his chest to see a sincere smile of consern on his face.

" I think I love you too."