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I woke up in the morning to two voices
"Aww rue look at jade and Gia" that's when I remembered that I fell asleep hugging Gia who was still snoring in my ear her head under my chin her arms hugging my waist in a sisterly way. That's when I smiled, truly smiled  I missed Gia so much she was like a lil sister to me maybe even more then rue was. Matter of factly I remember the first time Gia smoked. I saw her at a creek all by herself and she looked sad,I thought she got in a fight with her mom and rue or something maybe  she even missed her dad but no she was just high and when I walked up to her her eyes were read and her mascara was smudged. I sat down next to her"Gia are you high" I asked not in a mad way just in a sorta noticing way "nah,maybe I am jade don't know." She said leaning her head on my shoulder." It's okay I won't tell anybody if you are" I promised her rubbing her back "not even rue?" "Not even rue" thats when I felt my shoulder get wet "Gia what's wrong?" I asked and she just said " rue says when she gets high it helps her escape the world but for me? No it reminds me of everything I've done, everything that happened." She was shaking and crying really hard by then and I turned and wrapped my arms around her "Gia I'm always here for you no matter what and u want you to know that None of that shit is your fault" she just nodded still sobbing "Gia I want you to know I'm a person you can talk to about anything,that I'd neva judge you." When I said tht I felt her shaking slow a little bit and her tears flow a little slower " I love you so much jade " she said to me  and I felt myself soften it felt good knowing that someone  trusted me and felt safe with me. But that was years ago I was about 16 and she was still 14. I guess nothing changed.

I do also remember telling her at that time i was pregnant and I remember that she was the very first person I told.  And I remember when she looked at me her tears were glowing on her skin, they had stopped but mine I had started I remember the way she embraced me telling me everything was going to be okay and how she let it sink in for a few minutes before jumping up smiling fully wiping her tears away " I'm going to be an aunt!"I smiled back at her in that moment thinking about how my old best friends little sister had such a positive outlook on the world. How she was going to be a aunt. But that was in the past,my baby was dead and I was 19 now, I'm now a criminal beingsmuggled in a house by rue bennet,her mom and her lil sister.

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