I seriously was debating on whether I wanted to meet whoever texted me or not since the last time I saw anyone was atrocious but I decided ,against my better judgement,to go and meet them anyways and even though I knew it would probably be Ashtray I was still scared it would be someone else too.

I thought about all my options of who it could be and I realized that if I did actually meet this person I didn't want to look like a prostitute so I decided to change

Outfit^^^

So I wore my gray laced spaghetti strap crop top with gray sweatpants to feel more comfortable and to go with that I decided to wear white nike high tops dunks.
I also decided I didn't want to use my scoreboard in case it got dark so I rode my bike. So I had to walk all the way to Maddie's to get it then I left and rode Al the way to government pops to meet this mystery person. When I finally made it I fixed my hair and walked into the restaurant and saw it was more like a bruch place even though it was around 6 pm by the time I got there since I stayed at rues for a little while and we talked while I took a shower (she sat on the bathroom floor while I was in the shower and we talked about how everything was since I've Left)  then I did my makeup and left. So when I texted the person

Here who r yu and wya
I wasn't expecting to see my mom at a booth looking at her phone.

"Momma? Is that you?" I said as I approached her slowly and very hesitantly. "Oh hello your not my daughter who are you?" I should have guessed she wouldn't have realized who I was since I looked completely changed.
So I sat at the other side of the booth and whispered real quietly so nobody ut her would hear " mommy it's me,it's jade. I've changed" she started up at me looking shocked " oh sweetie I'm so sorry your sister told me you looked different and I thought she meant more mature not as in -" she looked me over once again "everything " I didn't know what to say since I didnt know if that was a good or a bad thing. "Yeah I guess I did change huh? Jail would do that to you when you have to spend almost two years alone fending for yourself and trying not to die while wanting to " I realized right after I said that I shouldn't have said that though because i saw her eyes well up " jay baby I'm so sorry about what your father did and I want you to know that I never knew what that man was trying to do"  I knew this and now I knew she felt guilty like it was all her fault when it wasn't so I just grabbed her hand and smiled " ma I don't blame it wasn't your fault and I'm sorry that-" I had to find the right words since I knew that I couldn't be disrespectful about my father but I also want sorry for what I did" everything that had happened that night." I finally said. "sweetie he deserved everything that he got it was just so brutal seeing those holes in his body,the stab wounds in his stomach and the- " she gulped which made me know she was chocking back a sob. "the puddle of blood all around him" she sounded weak just thinking about it which made me feel very guilty. " Mom I never knew that I was going to do everything that if did I didn't plan to I just planned to  move out whenever I could but I was drunk and I was high and -" now i felt my eyes watering "I never planned on killing my dad ma."