TW: mention of abuse and depression

You and Maddy have been seeing each other on the low from everyone else. An impure act, a secrecy of unfaithfulness against her boyfriend, Nate Jacobs. Maddy had her reasons of why she was doing it. The Jacob guy wasn't as innocent everyone picture him to be. He was far from that, the opposite. Nate was evil, a disastrous sad boy with a mind full of manipulative acts. He hurt Maddy mentally and physically. If he wasn't calling her a slut, he was choking her or hitting her on areas that weren't going to be visible for the public eyes. He wasn't stupid. But you didn't know that. You only knew how he was affecting her emotionally, but not physically. Maddy hid that part from you.

You and Maddy weren't having sex. If not, Maddy would come over to vent her pain away. You would comfort her and be a shoulder to cry on. Even if sex was not involved, innocent and sweet kisses were always on the picture. It never escalated to something more, though.

You couldn't comprehend how Maddy, from all the guys she could've chosen, ended up picking him. The worst one from all.

It was a cycle she had with Nate.

Break up, dating again, break up, dating again.

It was repetitive, but you were always there for her.

He wasn't treating her right, and you despised that . You knew Maddy deserved better, and you always brought that up to her.

It was until one day she came up to your house with a black eye and a bleeding lip. She couldn't hide it anymore. You were shocked and hurt. When she told you the truth about how long he has been abusing her, you felt angry. You were ready to end him, but she urged you not to. As pissed as you were, you called Maddy out too. You told her the truth, and how little she loved herself to be with a guy like him. You were hurt, but mainly because Maddy hid that from you and because she had no respect for herself. You wanted her to know that Nate was not doing her any good. She was falling into a dark hole, and you feared for her. You really did.

You went to your bathroom, and leant your back against the door once you locked it.

" I'm so sorry, Y/n. I was just so scared to tell you...," Maddy sobbed, her forehead against the door. You could hear her lament clearly, but you pinched the corner of your eyes, trying to hold more tears from coming out.

" I don't know what to do, Y/n. I've been trying to find a way to break things off with him, but I can't. He's like some kind of leech, who's always sucking the living shit out of me," Maddy cried. " I know that you've always been there for me, and listened. I know that you want the best for me, Y/n," she continued, sobbing lightly. " You've always been my comfort, my color when my life have been black and white. And shit, that's been everyday, Y/n," Maddy cursed, tears rolling down her cheeks.

" Like what the fuck, Y/n. Please say something," she begged, whimpering in distress. " I love you, Y/n. I really do. Throughout everything I've vented with you, and everything you've told me to console me, I've fallen for you, Y/n. And I know you feel the same, because you told me, Y/n. And I didn't said anything that day because I thought it was a lie you were blurting out. I was a mess. I am a mess, Y/n. You pitied me, that's what I thought back then. That's why I didn't dare to say anything," Maddy sobbed, before adding," But then I realized that it wasn't true what I thought. You really did loved me, Y/n. And it showed by everything you've been doing for me..."

Yes, it was true. You did loved her a lot. With one of those days she would come to your house crying because she and Nate had fought, you confessed her that you loved her. That day she was laying down on bed with you, her head pressed against your chest. When you confessed her that, she had fallen asleep to even hear it. So you remained quiet, and promised yourself not to say something like that ever again. She was with Nate. And you were just her shoulder to cry on.

" .... I am trying to break things off with Nate, Y/n. Please, say something. You're killing me with your silence...," she cried softly.

Your eyes were red and they stung so bad. You were trying to hold your sobs, but they would take over you without any warning. Your lips trembled, salty tears gliding against them. You loved Maddy so much, so fucking much that you wanted to hug her and tell her everything was going to be fine. But Maddy was lost, so lost. She was unstable, and she needed help. She had fallen into that dark hole you didn't want her to see, but it was happening. She was confused, and lost in a void of misery.

" Maddy..I..," You began, feeling a knot in your throat, " I love you. I really do, so much. But you and I can't happen. Because I'm just realizing now, that from the beginning-our love story was spoiled with a very bad ending," You sobbed, feeling your head start to ache uncontrollably. " Maddy you need help. And the first step is by leaving Nate. He's your biggest problem, and he's the reason why you're so unstable right now. You can't tell me now-after so long, that you love me. Maddy, I'm not letting you go," You stated, cleaning your tears a bit. " because I'm always going to be here for you. At your best and your worst. But you need to heal yourself, you need to find yourself again, Maddy. This is not the Maddy I know. 

You need to do something. Because as tired as you are with your life being so tormented, so am I. I feel vulnerable of not being able to help you. I know that I'm always here for you, and you feel at ease with me. But you always go back to the same piece of shit, Maddy. And I don't know why," You shook your head, tears rolling down your cheeks. You were hurt, but you took a deep breath, opening the bathroom door. The brunette was there, her mascara all smeared and heavy-hearted as you were.

" Maddy, you need to come back. Maddy Perez, the girl who didn't gave a fuck. The girl who always had a smile plastered on her face," Your lips trembled, as Maddy cried, embracing you in a hug. " Please, Maddy. I'm begging you. Please come back...," You whispered, hugging her back.