KEHLANI

"Amir you can't keep coming over here in the night." I sigh, rubbing my eye.

"I know i'm sorry." He says, stepping in the house.

"What's up for you to be coming over here at 2am? You're only making this harder for the both of us." I sigh.

"I just- I just don't wanna be alone right now 'Lani." He replies.

"What are you talking about?"

"I don't wanna be alone.." He repeats. I look at him properly and realise he's not in a good place right now. He looks drunk and tired but he doesn't even drink.

How does that even work?

"What's up with you Amir?" I ask him, walking into the living room.

"I'll tell you everything..shit I need someone to talk to anyway," He starts, sitting down. "For now I just want to chill with you."

"You can't be pulling up on me at 2am." I tell him.

"I know, I just need you. Just for today." He replies and I nod.

"Look at you, you all wet." I sigh, taking off his jacket that was soaked in water. He's lucky he ain't making my floor wet.

I wipe water off of his face and stare at him for a while and he does the same. I study his lips before leaning in and kissing him. Our tongues connect and swirl around each other. He lays down, not letting the kiss break and I slowly get on top of him.

"Wait.. I don't want that." He says breathlessly, pulling away from the kiss. I was already aroused therefore slightly annoyed but i'm happy that's not all he wanted from me.

"Talk to me." I tell him, looking into his eyes. I knew he was hurting about something.

"You already know I grew up with a bunch of people. One of them, June, he died like seven years ago. Every year we celebrate his death date and come together. Of course I go and you know I see everybody. Same people that switched up on me and said that i'm the reason for my brother's death were the same ones trynna talk to me like everything's cool." He scoffs. I feel him tensing from up under me and I massage his face to calm him down.

"The same people that were my family, all turned against me. It took forever for me to realise that Ajani didn't die because of me, they were hurting and used me to blame."

"That don't make it right, you were a child and they were- are grown ass adults." I tell him and he nods.

"I know that now." He replies.

"I saw my mother, she told me she was sorry. I forgave her a long time ago, I just won't forget. Her son just died and everyone's blaming it on her other son and I feel like she started to resent me and blamed me too so she pushed me away slightly." He explains and I nod with each word.

"I forgive her though, I forgive her because she always tries to find a way to apologise and I know that she regrets her decisions. I just can't forget." He sighs.

"I understand that and I know she does too. You ever think you guys can rekindle your relationship again?"

"Yeah, one day. Just not now. Shit still hurts me." He replies.

"Why did you come over here? I know all that happened but what made you come over here."

"You so easy to talk to 'Lani. I won't lie to you I been to therapy many times, i've tried many alternatives. But you, you just listen to me. Even if I don't make sense, you just gonna listen to me." He explains, looking up to me.

I'm sorry you've been hurt so much.

"I'm happy you feel that way about me, i'll always be here for you, even if it is just to listen to you." I tell him.

"Yeah.." He says quieter. I lay on him fully and listen to his heartbeat through his chest. After around 5 minutes I hear light snoring, it's cute.

I slowly get off of him and go upstairs to get him a blanket. I feel something behind me, kissing my ears and my neck, just how I like.

Of course.

"Where you go?" He asks me huskily, he's definitely tired.

"To get you a blanket sleepyhead." I reply, turning to him.

"I gotta go ma." He says causing me to frown.

"You're not sleeping here?" I ask him and he shakes his head.

"I got a meeting in the morning, it will be easier if I just go home." He says.

Fuck that meeting.

"Pack a bag and come stay with me." He says and I smile. He's always so unpredictable.

"You ain't gotta tell me twice." I giggle, walking into my closet.