Episode 127 - Finding Me from Within

By now, Sid was used to Siyali's happy, sad and angry face. But for some reason, he couldn't handle seeing the disappointment in her face. Was she that disappointed after hearing about his suicide story, he wondered.


Siyali looked around to hide her tears as the thought of Sid suiciding hadn't left her mind even for a second ever since Utkarsh told her. She tried to hide it but seeing Sid go back into being his very old self, the person she was when she first met him (talking about drinking) made her angry. How can someone change so fast and so often, she thought to herself.




Si - For once Sid, be truthful to yourself and decide on what kind of a person you want to be. Agar badalna hi hai, toh Kisiki aur ke liye nahi, Kisi aur ke wajase nah, Apney aap ko badlo aur apney aap ke liye badlo.


Siyali pokes Sid twice as she says "apney aap" and walks away. But standing by the door, she stops and turns to Sid,




Si (emotional but strong) - Main samajthi hoon ki tum mujse naraaz ho. Ki mainey tumhara insult karwayi, Tumharey sawaalon ki jawab nahi di aur tumhe hurt kiya.


Siyali again looks around to stop her tears from flowing and later turns to Sid,




Si (strong) - I regret doing that. But I don't feel guilty. Agar tumhara dhokha ka peechey koi wajah tha toh mere yeh gussa ki peechey bhi koi wajah hai. And it's not that I don't trust you Sid, it's just that sometimes wajah bola nahi jaata hai.


Looking right into Sid's confused eyes,




Si (strong) - Agar yeh baath tumhe samaj nahi aaya na Sid, toh tumse bada hypocrite aur koi nahi hai.


Siyali looked at him disappointedly before walking away for good this time. As she walks out of the music room, she passes by Charlie who feels that she was angry. He walks into the room looking behind at Siyali. As soon as he reaches and sees Sid, he understands that something had happened,




C - Bro? You okay?
S - Huh?




Sid looked lost and he didn't understand half of what Siyali said or what she meant.




C - Phir se jagda hogaya kya?
S - Nahi. Buss kuch kehkey jayi hai. Mujhe samaj nahi aaraha hai ki kya matlab tah uska. Mera dhokha? Mainey kab dhoka....




And Sid suddenly remembered




[Flash back]
S - Tu bhi nahi Siyali, Tu hi mujse pyaar karti hai.


Sid told these words to Siyali to break up as soon as he proposed to comply with his mother's words of not talking Utkarsh's away from him.




S - Tumhe kaise patha laga ki maine tujhe Utkarsh ke liye choda tha?


Siyali looked at him angrily with folded hands.
[Flash back ends]




As the walked by the corridor carrying the Mike set and one guitar, Sid remembered the incident and told Charlie about it,




S - I think isiki baath kar rahi thi Siyali.


Charlie gives a funny expression hearing the name "Siyali" from Sid's mouth.




S - She's telling there's a reason. Mujhe uss reason ko dhoondhna chahiye. Right?


Sid looks at Charlie for answers which made Charlie wonder if Rohan was the right person to talk about this to. With a funny expression, Charlie nodded his head and,




C - Yeh baath sunkey mujhe Angela ka theory yaad aagaya.
S - Kaunsi theory?




Sid looked at Charlie to which Charlie responded by quoting the theory Angela has about Siyali and Shreya while Sid listened to it carefully.


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Once the arrangements and decorations were ready, the students changed into party clothes except for Utkarsh, Niti and Siyali who were in their night clothes (as part of the plan). Now, they had to get everything to the auditorium theatre to set it all up as the numbers of students were too much to fit into any class for the celebration and also had a quality screen for them to use it for slide show. And the auditorium they planned to use was after the staff room, which meant they had to pass through the staff room without grabbing Aditya sir's attention and move things and themselves from study room to auditorium, slowly, silently and sneakily. And they had a plan.


Back in the study hall, As Siyali was busy with the preparations, Sid standing in the corner was looking at her confused. What did she mean by who he was.


He started thinking. It did seem like everything he does and how he acts depends on different people and how they want him to act. Did he have a charecter of his own. Who was Siddharth Rajput? And the more important question was Who did he want to be. For now, he decided to stop looking for reasons that Siyali might have and decided to work on himself.


It was late evening, and the plan was about to start,




T (announces) - Okay guys! Time to take everything out. I'll repeat the plan! Utkarsh and Niti, Keep sir distracted.




Execution, Utkarsh and Niti barge into the staff room with miserable expressions,




Ni (complaining) - Adi sir!! Main English main fail honey waali hoon.
U (complaining) - Main bhi.
Adi - What happened?
U (complaining) - Itni advanced Shakespeare level ka english humari bas ki baath nahi.
Ni (complaining) - Aur koi madath bhi nahi karaha hai.
U - Haan! Sikhaney ke liye Siyali bhi nahi hai.
Ni - Issey acha toh hum orphanage mein hi tey.
Adi - Seriously guys! Calm down! Kis chapter mein help chahiye?




Niti smiles and opens one of the pages in the book while Aditya sir looked surprised,




Adi - Which line? Poora poem?


Niti and Utkarsh nod their head tensedly while Aditya sir tells them to sit down. Utkarsh points a thumbs up from behind to which Siyali nods and gives a thumbs up signals from the other side of the corridor,




T (announces) - Parth, Angela and Ishaan go set up the screen, projector and laptop.


Execution, Parth, Angela and Ishaan set up connection for the laptop and screen for the main event.




T - Those performing, get ready and take your spots.
Ro - Vidurshi is missing!
K - Like really? Where did she go in such an important moment.
Vd - Calm down. Aadha ganta hai na, aa jaa'egi.
T - Rohan, just please go find her.
Ro - Okay?




Rohan rushes out in middle of the discussion to look for Vidurshi and sees her sitting by the parapet in the other corridor near the auditorium where they were planning to pitch in the party. Rohan breathes in relief.




K (announces) - Rohit and gang, you're incharge of recording the entire event from all sides. And the rest of us, let's take the balloons, decorations and the food items and set it up in the Audi.
T - And Shreya will bring Adi sir to when everything is ready.




Trishna and Krissan wait by the door waiting for Siyali's signal.




K - Guys, remember not more than 20 minutes. Bicharey kab tak doubts poochengey.


She gets the thumbs up from Siyali and,




T - Okay guys. Go for it!


The students rush out of the class room as per plan and start acting on it.


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