Chapter 51

    Go back to seven years ago. Ruan Yu is definitely not the one who just got married seven years ago.

    That was just seven years before graduating from college, before everything had time to start, their meaning to each other was just a passing in life.

    Why go back?

    Because, do you regret it?

    Du Chen only felt that it was like a basin of cold water was poured down on his head in the Laba days, and he was cold all over.

    Moreover, this cold water will freeze into ice slag, constantly piercing his heart.

    He resisted the urge to walk away. Trying to control his expression, the result is a face that looks like a smile but not a smile, like a cry but not a cry.

    Chen Duqiang held up a peaceful smile: "What's the matter? Why did you say that all of a sudden?"

    After saying a word, his heart trembled. It hurts a bit.

    Ruan Yu kept his head down and remained silent.

    Eggy, who fell into a deep sleep, was woken up, walked out of the kennel with her short legs, wagging her tail and rubbing Ruan Yu's trouser legs.

    Ruan Yu bent down and picked up the dog. Some thanks for having something to distract him, at least for the moment. There is no need to face Du Chen's questioning directly.

    The house was very quiet, except for a few milky barks from the puppy.

    Du Chen suddenly turned his head, then covered his face with his hands, turned back after a while, and asked, "Is something wrong with me? You can tell me directly." It was very gentle, but the eyes were a little red.

    Ruan Yu looked at him as if he saw himself many years ago. Asking for nothing, tossing and turning.

    He had wanted to ask him this countless times, but the obedience and patience instilled in his mind made him unable to open his mouth.

    He actually really envied Fu Xun. Say you can go.

    not like him. When you love someone, you put your posture so low, as low as the dust, but you want to bloom a flower in the dust.

    The person who lives under the same roof as him -

    his head that was held high in the past is now down, and the straight posture that has always been standing is now bent at the waist. A face, and now the eyes are red.

    It's like a cycle.

    so tired.

    so annoying.

    Why does it become like this.

    A voice in my head begged in a low voice, saying that you should leave me alone, I am so tired.

    Another voice asked with a weeping voice, asking if you could save me?

    Ruan Yu's shoulders slackened. He stroked the dog's smooth fur, moved his lips, and replied at a slower pace: "You've done a lot, I'm very grateful to you. But can you calm me down?"

    Du Chen looked at him with a pair of eyes, his lips twitched down, as if he was silently rejecting him.

    Ruan Yu explained to him: "I'm fine, the dose of the medicine is the same as before. Before, Eggy climbed on the coffee table and spilled the medicine once."

    The person in front of him stood up with complicated eyes.

    In the end, he just said: "Okay, you rest early."

    "You too." Ruan Yu said.

    He watched as he turned and closed the door. The heating in the room was sufficient, but Ruan Yu felt that her hands were a little stiff.

    He tossed and turned in bed for a long time before falling asleep, and when it was almost dawn, he woke up suddenly.

    He lied to Du Chen.

    Eggy didn't knock out the medicine, but he increased the dose himself.

    It was the same dose he had taken before his amnesia.

    Since returning from Mu's house that day, Ruan Yu has had a continuous dream over and over again.

    In this dream, the cub died very early. As Du Chen said, he swallowed the toy and got stuck in the trachea, and the rescue was ineffective.

    In the pet hospital, the doctor looked sad and guilty.

    In this dream, he never met Fu Xun. A person lives quietly, the days are peaceful and lifeless, and the long nights make him intolerable.

    He lives alone.

    Sometimes, when he wakes up, he can't even tell whether he is in reality or in a dream.

    The remaining sadness made him almost cry several times.

    Just now, the doctor in the dream was telling him that he was pregnant.

    ...

    As the brain gradually wakes up, the memory of the dream gradually becomes very faint, and the feeling that it seems to have been experienced once in one's own life also dissipates.

    It's just that the heavy, oppressive sense of despair still lingers in his throat, lingering.

    Today is the weekend. do not need to work. The sky has gradually brightened.

    Ruan Yu turned his head and looked out the window. The sun was just rising, and the sunlight in winter was extremely dark. The frost flowers condensed on the indoor glass window slowly evaporated into water vapor, and the liquid meandered down, leaving a trail of water marks. It looked like someone was secretly crying.

    ***

    The day turns to Monday.

    Mu Xuan took classes at University A as usual. His character is gentle and gentle, but his lectures are very funny, and he is well received by the students.

    Today is also the last class of this semester.

    It's just that he just put on his glasses and stood on the three-foot podium when he found a special guest in the class.

    It's Du Chen.

    He wasn't in a suit and leather shoes like Mu Xuan had seen before, and he was similar to what young people are wearing today, and he looked a little student-like.

    It is estimated that this is the case, and it is easy to mix into the crowd.

    No matter how funny Mu Xuan's lectures are, he doesn't think that his foreign literature can attract Chen Du, and he can make him come over to listen to the lecture during working hours.

    Then why did he come?

    Mu Xuansi thought about it, but only thought of one reason.

    Ruan Yu.

    So Mu Xuan became a little annoyed. When he saw Du Chen, he smelled of alcohol, and when he was about to leave, he turned his head and gave him a bad look.

    Knowing that Ruan Yu's alpha character was so domineering, he shouldn't have gone up to speak.

    As a Beta, Mu Xuan doesn't understand the exclusive relationship between AOs very well most of the time.

    Hope he didn't bring too much trouble to Ruan Yu's marriage. Mu Xuan thought helplessly in his heart.

    As the get out of class approached, there were constantly people around him whispering to his companions, trying to encourage him to find the alpha in the back row and ask for a contact information.

    Mu Xuan packed up the lesson plan, and as expected, he met someone waiting for him at the door of the classroom.

    He stopped.

    "Hello, Mr. Chen, are you okay?" Mu Xuan showed a standard smile on his face.

    The other party's smile was obviously more standard than his: "Professor Mu, I'm sorry to bother you. I don't know if you still have class today? Can I invite you to have afternoon tea?"

    Mu Xuan hesitated before agreeing.

    He didn't have much contact with this Mr. Chen, but his father was full of praise for him, wishing it was his own son. He thought in his heart that there was some misunderstanding caused by talking to Ruan Yu at the banquet before, otherwise Chen Du would not come to him.

    Just say it clearly.

    Afternoon tea is naturally tasteless. The two of them didn't care about this, they were a little blinded by such a good Sri Lankan black tea.

    After some courtesies, Chen Du finally stated the purpose of this trip.

    "After returning from Mr. Mu's birthday banquet that day, Ruan Yu's attitude towards me was very strange."

    Du Chen's expression was a little helpless, like an adolescent boy who wanted to please his lover but couldn't find a way.

    There was a natural intimacy in his tone. I have to say that Mu Xuan felt very comfortable getting along with him, and then he was in a trance. It is probably not difficult for someone like Chen Du to talk to anyone.

    After meeting in the bar for a few minutes, he was fooled into accepting the business card, even if the other party was just a little clerk in a little-known small company in his eyes.

    Du Chen continued: "I thought about it and didn't do anything to make him unhappy, but he has been showing a cold face to me recently. I guess something happened when I was chatting with you, but he didn't. I was willing to tell me, so I had to ask Professor Mu for help."

    "I wonder if you can help me and tell me what you said that day? It's so cold in winter, and I often freeze into a dog when I sleep alone in the guest room."

    He dressed up He was very young and his words were very young. He looked no different from his naughty students. Mu Xuan couldn't help but smile. This time it wasn't a polite smile.

    It wasn't a big deal anyway. Mu Xuan was open-hearted, so he repeated what happened back then.

    He didn't even hide that he had a crush on Ruan Yu when he was in school.

    Mu Xuan had been looking at the other party's face when he spoke, and only when he talked about Ruan Yu was almost taken away by force, his face changed.

    Du Chen stood up, held his hand, and thanked him very sincerely: "Thank you for saving Ruan Yu at that time."

    "It should be," Mu Xuan felt a little embarrassed, "even if it wasn't Ruan Yu, it was someone else, I would have saved me if I had known."

    He thought for a while, then added, "Speaking of which, you were in that bar that day. We met and talked for a few minutes, and I took your business card... But I'm very sorry, I don't know where I left it, but I didn't find it. So I haven't contacted you."

    Du Chen took out a business card from his coat pocket and handed it over, which was much more refined than the previous one.

    "It's not too late to get in touch now." Du Chen said with a smile, "I hope Professor Mu will not mind having more people like me in the social circle."

    "How could it be?" Mu Xuan laughed dumbly.

    ...

    ...

    Duchen Chen took Mu Xuan into the car.

    He turned around, and the warm smile on his face disappeared in an instant.

    His head hurt a little from the wind.

    He had already roughly understood what happened that year from Mu Xuan's narration.

    Chen Du has a good memory and strong thinking ability. When he was in school, no matter how arrogant the classical Chinese was, he could memorize it after reading it two or three times. Seven years ago, as long as it was a little special, if you think about it deliberately, you can always think about it.

    Of course he remembered that call.

    The caller said, "Our whole family is thankful to you," which he felt odd at the time. The snobbish and eager look on the male publicist's face made him want to laugh when he looked at it, how could he be so polite the next day.

    The call should be from Ruan Yu. For some reason, Ruan Yu regarded him as the one who saved him.

    Yet he was never his hero.

    The seven years of their marriage—

    never left a happy memory.

    Concealment at first, then indifference. In the end, they were speechless.

    If he didn't fall in love with him in the end, he could only say sorry for what happened to Ruan Yu.

    Then hope he can be strong and wish him a better tomorrow.

    The knife didn't pierce him, how could he feel pain?

    Chen Du drove the car aimlessly, his mind went blank, but when he recovered, he actually arrived downstairs in Ruan Yu's company.

    But now... Ruan Yu probably hasn't gotten off work yet.

    He thought about it and drove to a nearby mall. He had seen Fu Xun on a circle of friends before, saying that the milk tea in the Internet celebrity milk tea shop on the first floor of the shopping mall near their company was delicious, and every afternoon everyone in the company ordered takeout from that shop.

    This is not the point, the point is that Ruan Yu gave a like.

    But when Du Chen parked the car in the parking lot, he stopped in front of a maternity and baby products store.

    To be honest, there is nothing particularly attractive about this store. It is a very ordinary street store. It looks quite large, with a simple and rude name and simple decoration. He guessed that the upper limit of the price of a single item is only four number.

    With the Chinese New Year approaching, the red banners are hung with full discount activities. The clerk warmly greeted pedestrians on the side. beaming.

    Probably because he was too fascinated, the little shop assistant with cat ears also asked enthusiastically, "Sir, do you want to come in and have a look?"

    So he walked in.

    There are middle-aged and elderly women pushing strollers everywhere in the store. He looked a little out of place as a big man standing inside, and he was a head or two taller than him.

    Some children, who are still babbling, are walking unsteadily in their walkers, and they are only as tall as his knees.

    The clerk asked, "Sir, what do you want to buy?"

    To be honest, he didn't know what to buy when the child was still in his stomach.

    His embarrassment was too obvious, and the shopping guide tacitly changed the subject: "Or can you tell me easily, how old is your child?"

    Du Chen hesitated for a moment, then replied, "Six months."

    In three or four months, he will have a child. He was really looking forward to his arrival.

    From the first day you knew it existed.

    "Six months, the baby can already eat complementary food." The clerk said with a smile, "Would you like to take a look at the fish paste that just came into our store..."

    "He's six months pregnant."

    The smile on the shopping guide's face solidified for a second: "Then I recommend you to buy a radiation protection suit for her and the baby. In addition, you can also buy some nutrition supplements for pregnancy..."

    She led Du Chen arrived at the counter. Rows of wooden shelves. Probably Chen Du seems to be fooling around with money, and the shopping guide sells very hard.

    "These nutrients are all imported. Pregnant people have a bad appetite and need to add more vitamins and calcium."

    Du Chen said "um".

    "He hasn't slept well yet." Du Chen continued, his face softened suddenly, "I used to let him drink milk every night, but it didn't seem to work. He often fell asleep in the middle of the night."

    Ruan Yu liked to kick the quilt when she slept with him before.

    The shopping guide glanced at his expression, and couldn't help but say, "You must love her very much."

    She sells mother and baby products, and there are not many Uncle A who can walk into the store alone throughout the year. Some came with their wives and waited in the rest area bored in every possible way.

    The alpha in front of him is good looking. When he mentions his wife, the corners of his mouth are raised, and his eyes are full of stars, which makes people feel envious.

    "We have been married for seven years, and he is my Half-Life."

    In front of outsiders, he was never stingy in expressing his love.

    "You guys must be in a good relationship."

    Du Chen's expression collapsed when he mentioned this.

    "Not very good, the child's father probably wants to divorce me." He teased.

    The shopping guide was a little embarrassed for a while, but fortunately there were other topics.

    "I recommend this melatonin to you, it is produced by Huakang, and the quality is guaranteed." The shopping guide took a box of drugs in front of him.

    The goods were taken down, the wooden shelves were hollowed out, and this health care product was probably selling well, and there was no stock at all.

    So, of course, Du Chen suddenly saw a familiar face.

    The opposite person probably didn't expect to be caught accidentally, and his eyes were rounded, like a frightened cat.

    The shopping guide smiled and turned his head and said, "I'll tell you about the role of melatonin..."

    However, to her surprise, the man who was standing just now suddenly turned around and ran with big strides.

    He went around to the back of the shelf.

    Ruan Yu is standing there.

    He hesitated for a moment, then stepped forward.

    "Why are you here?" Du Chen asked. The joy that flashed on his face before has gradually subsided.

    His tone was gentle, "Isn't it time for work?"

    Ruan Yu pushed a small cart, which contained two or three feeding bottles and a few pieces of children's clothes.

    His eyes dodged, "No... I'm asking for leave."

    In fact, his work condition was too bad, and Fu Xun found out, kicked him out of the office with his ears, and asked him to go home to reflect and take a rest.

    "The company is not bad for a secretary like you." Fu Xun rubbed his little head, "Understood? Don't feel guilty. You work one day in Changfeng and I can get one day's money from Du Chen." Of course this is Joke.

    Then Fu Xun looked at him again: "Look at you looking so bad and still holding on, haven't you slept well? The dark circles under your eyes are like pandas. If Du Chen bullies you and tell me, I'll beat him up for you. Otherwise, you can hire a lawyer for you. You are divorced, and if you need it, I can introduce you to someone." The

    Chinese New Year is coming soon. Things are almost done, and the small broken company is not particularly busy.

    Ruan Yu stood aggrieved at the door of the office for a few minutes, but Fu Xun did not open the door for him.

    So I had to walk away silently.

    He didn't know why, he was just going to take a walk, but he was fooled into the store while walking.

    I also bought so many things inexplicably...

    and, I also met... him.

    Ruan Yu's first reaction when she saw Du Chen was to hide. As a result, he was hiding and hiding, and found that people were getting closer and closer to him.

    until there is nowhere to hide.

    Du Chen didn't know if the previous conversation had been heard, so he simply took the shopping cart he was pushing and asked him, "Is there anything else you want to buy?"

    "...No." Ruan Yu replied, and then Looking at his shopping basket, "I don't need any of these."

    Can't watch the contract less and read more about popular science? When this happens, it's like walking to the IQ Basin.

    Radiation protection clothing, just like playing with mobile phones and computers at ordinary times, do you still need protection?

    Nutritional supplements, he can't even eat food, but also eats nutritional supplements that taste like industrial saccharin?

    ...

    When it was time to check out, Du Chen folded it back and bought an earmuff. Just the kind that the clerk brought, the one with cat ears on the top of the head.

    He put it on Ruan Yu's head very naturally, and said solemnly, "It's cold outside, bring one."

    Then his Adam's apple moved very unruly.

    Ruan Yu: "..."

    In the end, he couldn't refuse.     The two walked out of the maternity and baby products store. Ruan Yu looked at the people coming and going, and asked softly

    , "Why are you here?"

Come in."

    Who knew you were there.

    Ruan Yu gave a "hmm", then raised her head to look at him, summoned up her courage and said, "Where are we going now? It's still early in the afternoon, we can...walk around."

    Du Chen was a little surprised, and then in the next second, Begin to be delighted.

    The dark clouds in the sky slowly dissipated, and a little bit of sunshine with no temperature poured down.

    "Would you like to go to the milk tea shop? I wanted to buy milk tea for you."

    Du Chen remembered that when his grandmother bought Ruan Yu a cup of milk tea, Ruan Yu seemed to like it. A pair of eyes curled up.

    Ruan Yu lived up to his expectations and nodded slowly.

    Commercial Street is just ahead.

    The two walked side by side, keeping a distance that was neither too far nor too close.

    Du Chen hesitated for a while, then broke the silence, "I went to find Mu Xuan today."

    Ruan Yu paused.

    "...And then what?" he asked.

    "It wasn't me who saved you back then," Du Chen suppressed the tremor in his voice, "but I happened to help another person out of the siege. You called me later, and I thought you were him."

    Ruan Yu's expression on his face A little sluggish, then nodded slowly.

    "I used to... it was indeed my problem," Du Chen walked with him on the road, suddenly a little glad that Ruan Yu couldn't see his expression.

    He didn't know when to say it was appropriate, but now, he couldn't hold back the urge in his heart.

    "It may be because of this accident that you decided to marry me." He suddenly became a little incoherent.

    "I'm doing a bad job... I'm sorry, I wasn't a good husband in the past."

    Du Chen dared not look at the expression on Ruan Yu's face, but he still forced himself to turn his head and stared into Ruan Yu's eyes , asked solemnly: "But now, can you turn over the past and give me a chance, I want to take care of the rest of your life."

    The pedestrian light across the road turned red and green.

    Ruan Yu stood there, but did not answer.

    So Chen Du's blood slowly cooled down.

    His hand holding the bag trembled uncontrollably.

    It's really too cold outside, he thought, even breathing is ice slag, and it hurts him.

    So he looked across the road and said casually, "The light is green, let's cross the road."

    Ruan Yu had read Hai Zi's poetry.

    There is a poem in it that reads: "When you come to the world, you have to look at the sun. Walk down the street with your sweetheart."

    So this poem has become a dream for him for a long time.

    His dream back then was to walk hand in hand on the street with someone he likes.

    He also heard what Du Chen said in the store today.

    He also saw that Du Chen's ring finger was still wearing the ring from when he got married.

    "Director Chen." Ruan Yu stopped and called him.

    Du Chen also stopped and turned his face to look at him.

    "What's wrong?" Suddenly, Ruan Yu stretched out her fingerless gloved hand and slowly grasped the palm of the person beside her.

    He didn't ignore the flash of ecstasy on Du Chen's face.

    Ruan Yu sniffed, lowered her head and explained, "The road is a little slippery."

    Du Chen said, "Okay."

    Then, he held him even harder with his backhand.

    When you come to the world, you have to look at the sun.

    With the person you like, hand in hand, walking down the street.