I was talking on the phone when I felt arms around my waist, I immediately knew it was Nandini so I wrapped an arm around and pulled her in front of me

Her back rested against the railing in the balcony, she was sandwiched in-between the railing and I

she pouted at me making me smile, I lowered my face and kissed her forehead

"Who are you talking to" she asked

"It better get done" I said on the phone

it will sir" the person on the phone said

I cut the call slipping it in my pocket.

"Who was that" she asked

"Hmm just someone that was doing something for me" I said trying not to expose the surprise I have for her

she tilted her head a little in confusion making me smile

"Its something"

"But what?" She asked

"Its a surprise for my butterfly" a grin covered her lips making me smile

"Surprise"

"Yes darling, a surprise"

"What is the surprise" she asked making me chuckle

"Its a surprise love, I can't tell you yet" I spoke caressing her hair

"Nooo tell me now" she whinesss

"Nandini"

"Mani please, at least a hint"

"Shhh no hints, no guesses. I need you to wait okay"

"But"

"Can you please wait for me jaan" I asked

She pouted tilting her head but then nodded

"Good girl" I whispered kissing her forehead

"Manik what is this trip for? I mean I love this but you have to practice and us being here prevents that so what's going on?"

I shook my head at her concern, she is perfect, she really is.

"I can practice in a week and this trip is for us. For you and I"

"Us? How? I mean we could have gone for ice cream or something back at home"

"Nandini jaan I have some things I wanna talk to you about"

"Is it bad? Did I do something?" She asked

A sense of insecurity was reflecting in her tone and her eyes, her beautiful big eyes

"No hun, its nothing bad I just wanted to talk to you"

"About what" she asked tilting her head

"Its just about these 6 months" a frown covered her forehead

"I know you don't want to talk about it"

"No its not that" she said interrupting me moving away from my arms

She turned around so her back was against my chest.

"Its not that I don't wanna talk about it, it just hurts me" she whispered

"I understand that"

"No you don't mani, with all due respect you don't know what it felt like and no it wasn't something small"

"I know" I whispered

She turned around again and held onto the sides of my hoodie that I was wearing

"You don't. I know its messed up to bring this up but I think its time I do"

Knowing this is serious I backed up a little sitting on the hammock in the balcony.

"Come here" I said

She stepped closer to me and I pulled her arm a little causing her to land in my lap. She wiggled a little to get out of my hold but I just tightened my hold on her

"Stop it and talk to me"

"Let go Manik"

"Nandini stop, talk to me" I said again

She huffed and looked me in my eyes, a flood of emotions were expressed through her eyes. Her eyes were a mirror to her emotions and I loved that.

"I have things I have kept in and even thought everyone could see it you couldn't"

Shit, fuck, crappp,

"What"

"No shh let me talk no more interrupting or talking" she orders and gosh she is fucking cute

i nodded to acknowledge her comment

"These 6 months fucked me up and no don't you dare say oh nandini watch your language or tone, shh shut up" she said making me chuckle a bit hearing her mock my voice

"You are adorable" I whispered pulling her cheeks

"Ahh stop it" she smacked my chest making me laugh

"Okay I'm sorry" I said seeing her glaring at me, her cheeks puffed in anger

"Like I was saying before I was rudely interrupted" I chuckled a bit

"Yes continue" I said

"These 6 months were bad and it wasn't because you had a girlfriend, it was becasue you chose her over me instead of balancing it all and communicating with me. You prioritized her over me which by the way was shitty because hello you have been my manik since we were kids. i mean I do understand that she was your girlfriend and I am just a best friend but god you could have handled it way better and differently"

"I agree I could have and you aren't just my best friend Nandini"

"Shh my turn to talk remember" she said so cutely

"Right, I apologize" I said

"I want you to think about me being with a guy who is my boyfriend and I hang out with him 24/7, think about me forgetting you and ignoring you but being right in front of you cuddling with him. Being in his arms and ignoring your presence"

As those words came out of her mouth I could feel my blood boiling, jsut thinking of someone touching her, something holding her, someone kissing her, someone being there when she needs, anyone but me.

Fucking hell, I know exactly what she went through, I mean I was just thinking but she watched it happen with me.

"Think about you coming into my room while I was in the bathroom and he tells you that you are an attention whore and that I was his" she whispered as her eyes teared up

"She what" I asked

"She did call me that and more, she made me feel shitty about myself and she made me feel like I was nothing to you. You know manik if you came up to me once and said hey nandini I jsut want to say I love her and I want you and her to get along becasue you mean a lot to me and so does your opinion. I swear manik if you had said that I would have even let her kick my ass for you but you let her spit shitty things to me and then took her side" she said her side

i agreed with everything she said, she was right as always

"Manik you mean everything to me and no I don't mean jsut as a friend"

My heart was beating a bit faster hearing this

She moved her hand from beside her to my heart as if knowing its beating a lot faster. She caressed my chest over my heart leaning forward until our nose touched

"I feel it manik" she whispered

"Feel what" I asked

"I mhmm I kept this feeling in for a while and you may not even feel this towards me but I just want to come clean and tell you. Mhmm I have never felt anything for any other guy in my life other than you, its not a friendly feeling, its more. I want to be in your presence all the time, I want you around every single second. I like taking care of you, I like when you tease me or when you call me every time you get in the car at night to come home. Manik you are special, extremely special for me and yes you will have many many girlfriends in the future and you will get married but thinking about it hurts me. I don't know why but I cannot come to accept the fact that you will one day leave me and have your own family. Arghhh I don't know what im saying"

She was getting frustrated becasue she couldn't express herself

"Shh shh look at me love" I said kissing her nose

She stared at me with her big doe eyes, gosh I should have acted on my feelings before instead of deflecting

"I hate the sound of another guy with you, I hate hearing you mention another guy in your room so I understand seeing me with that bitch would have hurt you a lot. I know you cannot forget it but I swear nandini it won't happen again"

"Yes it will"

"Shh it will not. I won't have any other girl in my life other than you not because I am force to but because I want to. You are right, I like being with you, I like being around you, I like when you smack me or when you wake me up for practice early in the morning. I like when you wait for me to get home before sleeping or when you tear up becasue I am hurt during a fight or something. Fuck, it broke me when I saw you crying becasue of me nandini, I died a billion times seeing what I had done to you. I umm I don't know how to say this but nandini I feel things for you more than a friend"

It was out finally, I had confessed I had feelings for her

"Remember when I said I would get down on one knee and you would be on both knees" I asked

She nodded as her grip on my hoodie tightened

"I meant that one day I will propose to you to be my wife becasue no other women in this world compares to you"

"Woahhhh as in like married married" she asked

"Yes, you think you would say yes" I asked

"Mhmm I might" I knew she was teasing

"Be for real nandini" I said

"Fuck ya id say yes" she squealed making me chuckle

"Should we go slow or full send" I asked

"Mhmm slow then full send but manik there are so many girls out there"

"Yet no one is you darling" I whispered caressing her cheeks

"You promise to never hurt me like that again?" She asked

"Never" it was a promise

"And if you do" she asked

"I wouldn't and if I did then consider me dead because I would not wanna live at all if I ever hurt you again"

"Shh you stupid man never mention death like that" she said amcking my chest

"Ouch that hurt"

"Oh you big monkey shut up"

"Oye zada ni bol ri tu"

"Han tom tu marega" she asked

"Han pitna hai tunai

"Itni himat ki tu meko marega"

"You are so cute darling" I whispered kissing her head

"Manik sach bata na, do you really feel like I feel about you"

"I do, I have for a while but I pushed myself into flirting with others so I wouldn't feel this strong feeling about you because I also thought that you don't feel anything about me"

"Oh you dumbass" she said shaking her head

"Batameez ladki" I said causing her to laugh making me smile

"Exclusive" she asked

"Yes"

"Tell me something" she said laying her head on my shoulder

"Hmm"

"All these endearments and love you show to me, isn't that all that was showed to soha too"

"When have you ever seen me cuddle with her or heard me call her nicknames butterfly" I asked

She thought about it and cuddled closer to me

"I haven't"

"Exactly"

"She is a bitch" she said making me laugh

"Now sweetheart its not nice to swear" I said in between my laughs

"She is though"

"I know love, but lets refrain from using such words okay"

She bobbed her head and closed her eyes in my neck. Her fingers playing with the drawstrings on my hoodie. I pulled her up and kissed her head.