Recap...

I grab the first aid kit and use antiseptic to clean my wounds before bandaging my arm. I get dressed and walk out of the bathroom.

Kiera:

I wake up because of a nightmare again. I feel sore. Partly because of what happened at the party and partly because of me scrubbing my skin off. It's 2:40, earlier than usual. After I manage to get up I grab my outfit for today and go to the bathroom. Taking a shower was a pain. The hot water felt like it was burning my skin more than usual. I should've taken a pain killer before I went in. But I have to conserve them. Adonis gave me more than enough to take for the soreness but now I've added more injuries, and what if Allessandro adds even more.

I finish getting ready for school. I feel like shit in more ways than one so I don't really bother to look my best. I choose to wear a loose fitting sweatshirt and wide jeans. I put some effort though with jewelry and simple makeup because I know Allessandro wants me to "keep up the family name" and apparently whatever I do it's a reflection of them. Which is bullshit because my cousins can do and wear anything they want to. And this shouldn't be my priority right now but I don't have any power here. I can't even tell them what happened.

2 date later. It's now Wednesday

Adonis wasn't here on Monday but he was on Tuesday. He's been a little annoying. He kept asking me if I was doing ok and gave me more pain killers. He also watched me at lunch. Like he's my protector or something. I admit it was kind of nice but I don't know him that well. And honestly everytime he asked me if I was ok the memories came back and I had to fight a break down. I just need to suppress the pain until it goes away.

I've been wearing baggier clothing since the party and I've noticed Chantel smirking whenever she sees me. Daniel, Liam and Killian haven't been at school lately along with three other members of the football team. I hope they never come back. After pulling my sweatshirt down a bit I walk into school. I just want to lay low until I'm done with school. And I want to leave as soon as I can. Santo isn't even here anymore because he had to go do the job with the Kings. Which he was able to stall but apparently they need him now. I don't even know how. But all I know is now I have no one in the house that's on my side. And school sucks. It's like my life is slowly falling apart and I can't do anything to stop it.

I walk into my English class and sit down. Not long after Adonis comes in and sits next to me. "Are you ok, have you been taking the pain killers?" He asks. I push down the memories and turn to him. "I'm ok," I say giving a tight lipped smile. I really don't want to be mean to him. Sadly he's become the only person that's here for me ever since Santo had to leave the country. I just hope Adonis doesn't try to do anything to me. Although I don't think he will. In some fucked way I appreciate him even though he is annoying.

The bell rings and we go to lunch. I haven't been eating much because I just feel sick. Don't worry I'm not pregnant none of the guys even came in me, Adonis gave me the doctors report when he was in school yesterday before I even had to take a pregnancy test. I just feel this pit in my stomach like something is going to happen. I feel a tap on my shoulder and turn around. It's Chantel. "What have I told you about staying away from my man," she sneers. I just keep a blank face on. I have no time for her. "You gonna answer or are you to scared to now," she says. Her friend that took me upstairs that night laughs. I glare at both of them and they look startled for a second. "Go away, I have no time for bitches," I say. She looks pissed than smiles. Weirdo. "You won't be saying that tomorrow," she says and walks away. What's happening tomorrow? It's not like she has anything on me anyways.

I start to feel a familiar tightening in my chest and my breathing starts to pick up. Before I collapse I use all my energy to run out of the lunch room and make it to the girls bathroom to hide in a stall. By the time I get in there I fully collapse on the ground. Fighting tears and barely able to breathe I just sit there. I'm completely powerless. Everyone takes advantage of me. I can't even trust girls. My breathing eventually calms and I stop crying. I get off the floor and wash my face in the bathroom sink before leaving. I just need to feel nothing and bottle everything up. Nothing feels right anymore. And there's nothing I can do to stop it.

After school I find Matteo's car and he drives to the house. I'm glad he doesn't ask me anything during it and no one's home so I easily just go upstairs. I watch TV until I have to go downstairs for dinner I sit down and notice all my cousins are here. Besides Santo of course. Lately Allessandro hasn't been home so I'm a little surprised. After dinner is served they start talking. Because it's "family time" they start asking me questions. "How was your day?" Antonio asks. "It was good," I respond before eating a bit of pasta. "What did you do today?" Alfeo asks. "We just had a recap in most of my classes, we're going to have tests soon," I say. They nod. "I always hated tests," Antonio says. I nod in agreement. This is the one thing I will ever agree with him on.

Allessandro speaks up after I finish my food, "I'm glad you had a good day sweetheart, good luck on your tests. The guys and I need to talk now so can you go upstairs, please." He says please but I know it's an order. I nod and say goodnight and walk upstairs. I don't really care about their conversation anyway. They yelled at each other for pretty much the entire night so I didn't get much sleep. And in the little sleep I did get I had nightmares. But that's nothing new really.

I wake up later than usual but with less sleep. I wish I could crawl into my bed and die. But I can't so I force myself up and get ready for the day. I felt okish today so I got dressed up a little more. Still making sure I was fully covered though. By the time I'm done it's time for breakfast. There was a lot of tension in the room and no one spoke. Probably because of whatever happened last night. After breakfast Matteo drives me to school. When we get there we see a huge crowd of people outside. I wonder what's going on?

Her outfit.