~3rd person pov~ 

Hawks walked into his apartment after his patrol and noticed Dabi sitting on his couch.

"What are you doing here?"

"I have to babysit you," He said smirking. 

"I'm a grown adult I don't need babysitting," he said, embarrassed. 

"Boss's orders" 

Hawks went to his room took off his shoes and jacket and went to the bathroom to take a shower. 

After hawks showered, he put on sweats and a hoodie and walked out of his room. He didn't see dabi on the couch so he started to look around, thinking he was gone. In a blink of an eye, hawks was laying on the floor with dabi on top of him. 

(Okay soooo I wanted to write some smut here but I think it's too early for that and plus I don't know if I'm going to do any smut considering I don't know if I'll be good at writing it but I'll try and decide when or if I should put any in this story.-C) 

"w-what are you doing?" 

"you know you look pretty hot," Dabi said while tracing his thumb on Hawk's lips. 

Hawks felt his cheeks getting red and tried to turn away. 

Dabi laughed.

Dabi leaned in, getting close to Hawk's lips. "I want to kiss you so bad right now," He said, only an inch away from hawk's lips. "But I can't"

Before hawks could respond, Dabi got up and left hawk's apartment. 

~Hawks pov~

"I want to kiss you so bad right now" 

w-what? Dabi wanted to kiss me? but why...? why do I want to kiss him. I just want him to be mine... but that couldn't happen

I tried to move out but he held my wrists even tighter.

"But I can't"

Those words made me feel disappointed. I wanted him to kiss me. Maybe he is playing me but do I really care?

Before I could say anything, dabi left. I sat there, hoping he would come back but after an hour I figured he wouldn't be. I got up and went to my room. I laid down on the bed trying to get some sleep because I had an early shift, but I couldn't stop thinking about him. 

~Dabi pov~ 

Why did I do that? it's like I had no control over what I was saying. I mean I do want to kiss him so badly but he didn't need to know that. after all, he's a hero and I'm a villain. 

I walked back to the LOV (League of villains) hideout and took a shower and went to sleep or at least tried to. 

Those golden eyes... maybe I should go back to his place and just go for it? but what if he doesn't kiss back? this is so complicated, I've loved him for so long... well at least I loved Keigo. I haven't felt that way for anyone else but if Keigo knew it was really me he wouldn't want to be around me. Maybe I should just tell him. I don't know... 

After thinking for a few hours I eventually was able to go to sleep. 

(I am going to put some emotional stuff that can be triggering towards some people so I will put warnings before so you can skip over that part! Thanks and now back to the story lol-C) 

~Hawks pov~

I woke up feeling sick so I had to skip patrol today and endeavor yelled at me, for what felt like forever, through the phone. I got up wanting to take a shower but instead felt too sick so I leaned over the toilet and threw up. Not wanting to move just in case I threw up again, I sat there for a few minutes, and eventually, I threw up again. 

While I was throwing up, I heard some noise in my apartment but didn't bother to get up and investigate. After a few minutes, dabi walked into the bathroom. 

"Are you okay?" he asked, leaning down beside me. 

"I'm fine"

"you don't look fine," He said while reaching out to rub my back. 

I jumped at the sudden movement and he took that as a sign to move his hand back. I got up and felt weak so I sat down again. He then picked me up and laid me in bed. 

~Dabi pov~

(BEGINNING OF TRIGGER!!!) 

Hawks fell asleep when I laid him down so I gently took off his hoodie he left on from yesterday. 

That's when I saw the cuts all over his arms... 

Why would he do this to himself? Harm himself?

I felt a rush of guilt come over me and I couldn't help but think maybe this was my fault for leaving him. I wrapped his arms with some bandages and sat on the edge of the bed...

I need to tell him. He needs to know I'm Touya but I'll wait until he wakes up. 

(END OF TRIGGER!!) 

Hey, a little note! if your struggling with self-harm, I'm sorry, I understand what your going through,  a lot, and just stay strong! you matter and you're loved. If anyone ever needs to talk I'm here for you. 

I hope you enjoyed this chapter, this was a long one (880 words) -c