White noise and s/o's past trauma

"Babe, look what I bought" Hawks exclaimed as he entered the bedroom, holding a box.


You were already pretty much asleep when he barged into the room so you just decided to just turn in bed and keep sleeping. You were dead tired and you could see what he had bought later.


Sometime later you woke up to a familiar noise. Why were you hearing that noise again? It shouldn't be possible, you nor Hawks owned a white noise machine. Even if Keigo knew about your past abuse, he wouldn't do this to you. He wouldn't hurt you like that, right?


No matter how much you tried to convince yourself you were just hearing things, the noise persisted. Eventually it just came to be too much, and you started sobbing, and repeating: "Keigo wouldn't hurt me, he wouldn't... he wouldn't"


Hawks woke up in the middle of the night to a sadly familiar noise, your sobbing. He was wide awake pretty quickly since his instincts were yelling at him that something was wrong. He heard you repeating the same sentence over and over again and he could see you shaking under the covers.


"Babe? What is it, what's wrong?" he asked and moved closer to you on the bed.


"I keep hearing it, it won't go away" you cried and gripped the covers tighter.


"What, what won't go away?"


"It-it's like a-a white noise machine sound..."


"Oh, it is an actual white noise machine, I was trying to show it to you earlier and-"


"Turn it off, please, I-I can't stand that sound"


"I will, would you please tell me what's wrong, please?" Hawks sounded worried and you could hear it in his voice that he felt like he had done something wrong.


You turned to him and buried your face to the crook of his neck. He wrapped his wings around you like a cocoon and held you until you were coherent enough to talk again.


"Are you ready to talk? Wanna tell me why that particular noise caused such a bad reaction?" he asked and caressed your back.


"It's just that, my ex... you know the asshole one... he used to keep me awake at night by using white noise machines and, I-I can't stand the sound now" you hiccupped.


Hawks was a bit taken aback, because even though he knew your ex was a real ass, he didn't expect him to actually torture you.


"That sounds really bad, I'm sorry that happened to you" Hawks said and wrapped his arms and wings around you tighter.


"It's not your fault, so no need to apologize..." you sighed.


"I know that, but I just feel like you needed to hear it, even if it wasn't coming from that asshole" he said.


"I appreciate it"


You snuggled closer to Hawks' chest and after a while you fell back to sleep. Hawks didn't though, he stayed up for a few hours, just holding you.

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