chapter 5 : fill your heart with me


"Kuan jui, what's wrong?"

"since when were you and hanbin that close? It's only been A DAY since he arrived" he says semi worried

"what?" Hao asks in confusion as the latter just deadpan him with a 'are you serious' looks and explained :

"were you lovestruck or something did you not notice that you two were holding hands" Kuan jui states

The older blushes at the thought of holding his hand. 'oh my God, there is something wrong with this man' Kuan jui thought as he brings the other to the park in the campus

"I can see that you are very not over him" Kuan jui was worried at that thought of the two of them, he didn't want the same thing to happen again.

"look, I'm just worried what if you get heartbroken again. And didn't you tell me you're over him? Doesn't seem like it"

"I never said I was over, over him" Hao says as he tries to calm down. "and yes I know you're worried, it's just, I don't know

He keeps crossing my mind and now that he's actually here.."

"it's complicated, isn't it?" Kuan jui added

"mhm" Zhang Hao confirms, they both sat down on the bench, while he was resting his head on the blondes shoulder

"listen, if you think that you can work what ever is going on with the both of you I support it." Kuan jui assures the other Hao just gave a nod in return

"no problem, but you gotta return the favor" the latter jokes"i will, i will, I learned my lesson"

"Oh yeah? Who'd you Learn it from?" the two joked around

'Kuan jui has always been with Hao from the very start, they've been friends since who knows? But basically Kuan jui was there even before hanbin.

He was there when Hao needed him the most, and Hao was there when Kuan jui needed him'

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Ever since that day they got less awkward, whenever they meet in the corridors they bow or smile at e/o Wich was progress, for the two.

Hanbin woke up early, looking like a mess as usual. While he was doing his routine He heard a notification from his phone, It was Instagram. Surprisingly that certain person was awake at 5 in the morning.

'zhngh.ao followed you'

'Zhang Hao, awake at 5? Let's see' he thought as he paused what he was doing to stalk the other.

He scrolled through his pictures giggling at almost everything he saw, little did he know Zhang hao was doing the exact same thing laughing his ass of from the things hanbin posted

Sometimes blushing..and saving all the pictures the other posted, the older also went through the others music recommendations, finding out half of the songs that he recommended were songs that Hao told him to listen to way back. the korean got a notification that Zhang Hao like 2 of his pictures

( if you're wondering what those pics look like it's the cover of this ff!)

He chuckles at the thought that maybe the other found him good looking, or attractive. He always wanted to know what the other thought of him.

He likes a few post from the other to return the favor and continue to get ready, he soon goes to the bus stop, plugging his earphones in while waiting for the bus

Soon the bus arrived and he hopped on scanning his card and continued finding and empty seat Wich was on the left window side. He placed his bag on the seat beside him. He slid the window open and closed his eyes letting the air in

While the bus made another stop he felt a tap on his shoulder, he looked up finding Zhang Hao smiling adorably at the younger, the other couldn't help but smile back, He took of his bag and placed it on his lap inviting the other to seat next to him

The other was looking through his notes leaving the younger puzzled, "hyung?" he uttered as the other looked back "hmm Why?" the other answered

"uhm, are you free later?" he asked nervously "depends when later is" Hao smiled "well later after school" he added "oh, I think so" he tilted his head "give me your number" the younger stated confidently "wae?" the older chuckled and wrote down his number on a piece of paper

"just cause" he shrugged making the other give him a 'yeah sure' look making the younger hit his shoulder.

After that so called conversation they were left with silence, a peaceful one.

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Zhang hao got up since it was their stop"hyung you wanna go to class with me?" the younger tugged his shirt making Hao look back

"sure!" Hao smiled and they got off "wait, give me a second" Hao pulled him next to the gate, he pulled out his phone and sent a text to his friends

'don't wait for me at the gate I'm already in class, instead wait for yujin okay?'

He shoved his phone back in his pocket and turned to hanbin who was staring at the older, instead of being flustered he just chuckled "hanbin let's go" he smiled adorably, the younger just nodded and walked with their body touching

Some of the juniors that hao helped bowed and smiled at him admirely. Hanbin just watched, shocked of the actions and the popularity of the older

Hao felt the others fingers intertwine with his, he looked at the younger confused with the random skinship. The Korean looked back and smiled like usual but with a touch of playfulness

Hao just nudged the other and turned away, they caught some people's attention making Hao blush. Hanbin smiled at the others cute actions

hanbins phone vibrated with notifications causing Zhang Hao to turn around to look at the other, He pulled out his phone getting numerous texts from gyuvin.

Gyubig

YAH HYUNG, HWEN DID YOU
GET A BOYFRIEND?

hanBIN

What?
What are you talking about.

Gyubig

Oh my God
*Gyubig sent a picture*

Zhang hao gasped in sync with hanbin, the two looked behind them spotting at least 5 people taking candids of the two causing them to hide their phones and walk away

Hanbin called the younger

'hyung! What is this? You got a boyfriend and didn't tell me?? The audacity!' the younger acted hurt and offended causing hanbin to roll his eyes

Zhang hao pulled them into the janitors closet so that two could talk. "put him on speaker!" he whispered in the younger ear hanbin gestured an okay and pressed the speaker button

"hanbin hyung who is he?" gyuvin was puzzled and nosy he wanted to know about the two "gyuvin-ah where are you?" he avoided the question

"oh me? I won't tell you unless you tell me" he exclaimed making hanbin scoff

"why are you so curious?" Zhang Hao grabbed the phone from hanbin and replied with a playful tone, "mwo? Is this him right now?"

"ah, hello! I'm Kim gyuvin the visual, the one and only." he said in a dramatic tone "gyubig? Gyuvin? The gyuvin?" Zhang Hao questioned in shock "omo, am I that popular?"

"aren't you yujins friend? I've heard some things about you since I transfered here, you were called gyu ig or something"

"oh. Yeah I know" you could hear the disappointment in his tone he expected something else when he said he heard some things about him.

"anyway how long since you started dating? Wait no, what's your label? Are you fuck buddies?" he asked

Zhang hao choked at the last sentence "no way you are?" hanbin laughed while Zhang Hao was dying, Literally. "no we aren't where'd you get that from?" he denied

"my imagination actually, I have a big brain you know?" Zhang Haos mouth was slightly agape "I can see why your friends"

"now bye and enjoy your day, and no we are not fuck buddies or boyfriends or friends with benefits nothing! Good bye for real."

Hao was about to end the call when hanbin speaked up "why can't we be boyfriends?" he asked in a flirty tone "huh?" Hao stuttered,
Shocked that the younger would ask something like that

"wae? You don't want to?" he asked again this time leaning in "n-no" Hao sturted blushing like a tomato

"you wanna be my boyfriend..?"

"no!"

"no?"

"uhm, yes!"

"so you wanna be my boyfriend?"

"yes!"

"wait no-"

Hanbin cupped his face and started at the other with admiration, the corner of his lips slowly tugged into a curve,

"I'm not even there and I feel like third wheeling" he spoke breaking awkward tension "oh by the way, this call was recorded!" he added and ended the call causing hanbin to burst out laughing

The older was staring at the other puzzled to why he was laughing, what was so funny? he sat down as he felt his legs giving up on him.

'What if he's playing with my feelings..? Was kuan jui right?' those thoughts filled his head wondering if all the flirting was just some sort of act

Hanbin stopped laughing when he noticed the other sitting down on the floor, he squatted down frowning at the sight

"Hao-hyung" he said softly making Hao to look up "I like you" the two locked eyes, not ever, Wanting to break eye contact. Hao didn't know what to reply he was confused with his feelings, 'is he sure? Is he playing with me? CA I trust that?' that's all he could think off

After minutes of silence.

"why now? Why confess now?" he tried to hold back his tears but his voice stopped his from doing that, his voice was shaky.

The trauma the hanbin left him with made him worry for others, he worried about the stuff the would happen if someone special would leave him yet again

" hyung.." the younger was broken to see the older in that state "I'm sorry, I'm really sorry" he apologized and sat down

"are you? why did you leave me then?" he finally busted into tears wondering 'why now? Is this the right time?'

"do you really want to know?" he asked moving his hand to the others cheeks, caressing it slowly and soflty. Hao just nodded, he was finally getting the asnwer

"I left, because." he passed whipping the tears away he continued right after.

"when I started avoiding you, it wasn't because I knew you liked me or because I didn't like you but, because of Chae young,

you remember Chae young? My parents were going bankrupt and her parents decided help, but only if I would marry their daughter.

So, We had to move. move in with them, I tried to make myself like her but, you kept crossing my mind" he chuckled causing Hao to smile

Hanbin stuck their for heads together with his hands still on the others face

"so? What's your answer.."





























"no."

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a/n: I love cliff hangers when I do them but if you do them then no jail time rn. Wha are yall thoughts on this, genuinely?


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