"How was your day?" Jay asks when they are in some Italian restaurant.

Immediately both boys start to blush. On their way to the restaurant none of them said a word. They didn't know what to say to each other and they didn't want to make the other boy angry.

"It was really nice." Louis admits. "We went to the dungeon, did a boat trip, made some pictures in front of the Big Ben and went into the London eye."

"Wow, Harry did you get my son in there? We can' even get him up a ladder, that is impressive. Louis must feel safe near you." Jay smiles.

"Yeah, he must be." Harry tries to fight his smile and the butterflies in his stomach. His lips are still tingling from their kiss. It was just so perfect.

"And what about you, Lots? What did you and mom do?" Louis asks his sister.

"We went to the spa first, had this really nice treatment. Just feel my face, Louis!" Lottie leans over the table and Louis touches her cheek.

"Soft." He admits.

"I know right! Anyway then we went into the jacuzzi there and they gave mom some champagne and me some really nice orange juice. After that we went to do our nails, look!" Lottie wiggles her fingers, showing off her freshly done purple nails.

"They look really nice Lottie." Harry compliments her.

"Thank you! Oh and after that we went shopping. I'll show you my new clothes tomorrow." She proudly says.

"Yeah, do that sis. I'm glad you had a good day."

Everybody looks at Harry when they hear his stomach growl.

"I'm sorry." The boy says ashamed, wanting to hide his face. Louis smiles. That's just cute.

"No worries, love. The waiter will come in a bit. Wait, let me call him." Jay smiles sweetly at Harry.

Less than a minute later a middle man aged man is standing in front of their table, asking for their orders.

"Can I have the lasagne please?" Lottie asks politely.

"I would like to have the chicken pasta, please." Jay smiles warmly at the man.

"Can I please have the vegetarian pasta?" Harry orders.

Just as Louis is about to order the same thing as his mom, he remembers Harry's stomach growling.

"I'd like to have the vegetarian pasta as well please."

Everybody gives Louis a weird look, knowing he is not fond of vegetables, but knowing Harry he won't be full after he finished his plate and for some reason Louis really feels the need to take care of him, making sure his stomach was full. Louis can never finish dishes in restaurant and he would share his left overs with the boy next to him.

It doesn't take long for the food to arrive and as predicted Harry finishes his food first.

"Can I have the pepper, please?" Jay asks.

Louis wants to grab it, feeling another hand on his. He starts to blush when he feels Harry's hand touching him. He looks down, biting his lip from the electric shock in his body. Harry does exactly the same. Jay gives her daughter a look and Lottie only nods, knowing exactly what her mother wants to say.

"I can't finish my plate. Do you want the rest, Hazza?" Louis says after he feels full.

"Finish it, Lou. It isn't that much."

"I'm good. You sounded really hungry. Go ahead, eat." Louis takes his plate and switches it with Harry's, putting the empty one in front of him. The taller boy gives him a thankful smile and it makes Louis happier than ever. He loves seeing Harry happy.

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The rest of the evening the boys didn't interact a lot. They still have the kiss in their minds, and they don't know how to really interact around each other.

They arrived in their rooms about an hour ago and Harry just comes out of the shower. Louis can't help but stare at his bare chest, still some drops on it, and his wet hair. He looks so hot.

"Like what you see, Lou." Harry winks. He doesn't know where he gets the confidence from.

"Actually, yeah I do." Louis flirts back, but then realises that this isn't a good idea. "But we need to talk, Hazza."

And there it comes. Louis is going to tell him that he is disgusted with him for the kiss. He is going to tell Harry to stay the fuck away from him and call him names. They had such a good day and Harry had to mess it up, of course.

"Is it about the kiss?" Harry's voice is soft.

"It is..."

"I am sorry, Lou. I really didn't want to make you uncomfortable and do something against your will. It was a heath of the moment thing. I'm so sorry if you didn't want to. I should have asked." Harry rattles and it makes Louis chuckle lightly.

"I liked it." He admits.

"Did you?" Harry walks closer to Louis, making their chests touch. He really could kiss Louis again now. He looks so sweet and innocent yet so hot. Harry wants to lean in, but Louis carefully pushes him a bit away.

"But that doesn't mean I'm doing it again, at least not now." Harry's face drops. How stupid could he be to think that Louis might actually like him back.

"I'm so sorry! Oh fuck, I read the signals so wrong. I'm such an idiot!" Harry puts his hand in his hair, pulling it lightly.

"Hazza, no! You didn't read anything wrong." Louis touches his cheek, making eye contact with the boy.

"I'm 90% sure I like you." Louis admits. "Because 10% of me is still fighting against these feelings I'm developing for you.

Hazza, I can't do this now. I care so much about you and I want to see you happy. Right now I am not what you need. I'm still not at peace with who I am, I'm still not accepting myself and I'm scared that if we do this, one day I will just turn scared again and hurt you. I really don't want to hurt you. I don't want to make you feel like you are just some experiment to me to check that I like guys. I'm pretty sure that I like guys, that I like you, but I'm still not completely at peace with it. I'm not going to pull you in my mess, baby. I have to figure out myself first. I can't drag you into my mentally unstable mess, I can't give you the stability that you need and deserve right now. I have to accept myself first or I will hurt you so badly with my words and actions on a bad day. I have to love myself first before I can love you, baby." Louis' thumb is caressing Harry's cheek, his watery blue eyes connecting with Harry's green ones.

Harry puts his own hand on Louis' that's on his cheek.

"I like you so much, Louis. I don't want to lie to you, I'm falling for you. But I won't rush you. I will give you the time that you need and I will give you all the support that you want. Just know that, when you are ready, I am."