jupiter aria beauliu

*TW: SEXUAL ASSAULT. IT WILL BE BELOW THE BOLDED/UNDERLINED LINE SO YOU CAN STILL READ UP UNTIL THAT PORTION*

i could hear the faint chirping of birds and the sunlight streamed in through the barred windows. i had been placed gently in a soft plush bed, and a soft pair of silk pajamas had been placed on my body. my stomach churns as the thought of colin undressing me. i take a deep breathe before standing out of the bed. i walk over to the windows, searching for a way to get the bars off of the windows. searching for anything that might help me find a way out. i walk over to the door, pulling on the door to the room, it rattled against the frame as i shook the door harder and harder. the frustration building up and tears began running down my face. a panicked feeling begins to crowd my chest when i hear the footsteps coming up the stairs. i turn, looking around the room and settling on a hefty book that was placed on top of the black dresser. as the door opens, i'm met with colin's smiling face. the anger quickly replaces the panic and i throw the heavy book in his direction. he grunts as the binding collides with the side of his head and i push him out of the way, running out the door and down the stairs. as i'm running, i take into the account the white walls and black empty photo frames hung on the walls. as i'm running through the hall, i began to realize that i knew exactly where i was. i was in casey's childhood home. tears stream down my face as i throw open the front door and take off down the lawn and i run. i had no other choice but to run. there were no neighbors for the next 15 miles. however, this doesn't last long. i feel his arms wrap around my waist and he pulls me up from the ground. loud screams leave my mouth as i thrash my legs and my arms around, hoping to just throw him off of his rhythm. suddenly, there's a quick pinch on my neck and everything begins to drip away. my limbs fall dead and my breathing becomes slower and slower.

"you'll forget. and soon we'll be together." he whispers, placing a gentle kiss on my cheek.

i can feel him pick me up and carry me back towards the house, but the only thought going through my mind is how to get back to spencer.

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my eyes flutter open, sticky from the tears that were streaming down my face the last time i was awake. this time, it's nighttime, and there's a new clock on the bed side table. my breath quickens as i realize that my ankle was cuffed to the bed post. i whimper as i pull my leg, trying to get my foot out of the painful metal cuff. colin open the door, sitting by the bed.

"hey babydoll, how're you feeling?"

"don't fucking call me that" i spit, messing with the cuff around my ankle.

he chuckles, running his hand over his jaw as he shakes his head.

"can't you see that i'm dong this for us? for you?"

"oh that's fucking rich. there is no fucking us, colin. we sang one song together in college. you helped me write the melody for a song that i wrote based off of a movie i saw on tv. i was dating a woman when i met you colin. you're fucking pathetic." i scoff, his face turning red.

"you...you don't mean that."

i take a deep breath, nodding my head.

"i'm sorry. i'm just upset. but colin...i'm not in love with you. i never was. i'm happy now. i'm going to get married and i've met the love of my life. i'm so happy now, colin. and if you truly loved me, then you would see that and you'd let me go home." i sob, tears streaming down my cheeks.

he just shakes his head, his hands in tight fists and i could see the syringe peeking out of his hand and my heart begins to race.

"he's not the love of your life." he scoffs.

"he is. he's the best thing to ever happen to me. he treats me so well and he keeps me happy. all he wants is for me to be happy. because that's what real love is, colin. it's putting somebody else's happiness before yours. and if you truly loved me, you'd see that right now, you're not making me happy. colin please, just let me go and i promise we can work something out."

"no! jb, you'll see soon. you'll see that i'm the guy you should be marrying." he nods, with a firm tone.

"colin, please. let me go home. we can see about getting you help." i try and plead, reaching out to him.

"you are home. and you'll see that soon. you'll forget about all the bad things that guy taught you to do. you'll forget it all. and we'll be happy. we could start over and be happy."he sniffles, wiping his nose with the back of his hand and uncapping the needle on the syringe.

i begin to pull away, the cuff clanking against the metal bed post.

"colin just please-"

"shut up! you love me. you just need help to remember." he breathes out, pressing the needle into the side of my arm.

my eyes rolls into the back of my head and i feel my head hit the pillow. colin's hand runs gently over my body and he places his lips gently on mine, making my heart and my stomach wrench.

"we can start over soon. just wait."

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the next time i wake up, i wasn't able to open my eyes, but i could hear colin next to me. it was as if my brain was awake, but my body hadn't caught up just yet. i could feel his hands over my body and all i wanted to do was scream.

"you've always been so beautiful. i couldn't wait for the moment that i could touch you. hold you and call you mine. and here you are." he sighs, leaning over me and placing his lips on my neck.

"you're so beautiful." he mumbles as his dirty hands explored my body.

my body was on fire and i wanted nothing but to bash his head in against the bedside table, but i couldn't move a single muscle. i couldn't even open my damn eyes. but i guess part of me was grateful that i couldn't.

"i bet he couldn't make you feel as good as i could." he breathe out, making my heart pound in my chest.

his fingers trailed up my thighs, but just before he could touch me any further, a timer beeps out. he lifts his hand and another sigh escapes his lips.

"this is the last one, baby. i promise."

and i feel another pinch in my arm, and i begin to lose consciousness. and for the time being, all i could do what pray to a god that i wasn't sure was looking after me anymore.