What I Need (JV)

Earth 5
Jules' View

"You said you didn't give a shit!" I say.

"That doesn't mean I meant it! Ever heard of sarcasm?" Y/n says.

Me and Y/n's friendship was complicated. Why did we think it would be a great idea to date?

All the back and forth getting complicated

"Maybe you should just tell me what you really want instead of dodging it. This entire thing is pissing me off." I say.

Running me around got me frustrated, no

"We can't agree on anything. The entire school knows what's going on and I can't even go to school because I look stupid." I say.

That's why I been laying low

Y/n and I made it "official" a week ago. That same night, we had an argument and broke up. The next day she showed up to school with hickeys on her neck.

"If you want to be with me than you need to show me. If you don't want to, I'll find someone who does." I say.

If you wanna make it work, baby, gotta say it
Need a little more than participation
Or, I could go be on my own

"I'm just confused." Y/n says laying in her bed.

I lay beside her and kiss her.

Sure I would kiss you, I'll lay with you

"I just feel bad for constantly leading you on when I'm confused." She says.

Y/n never got the chance to explore her sexuality until she met me. She's trying to figure out what her sexuality is and what she's interested in.

"It's okay to question your sexuality. You're not broken or anything. Don't beat yourself up about it." I say.

You're broke, no, I can't fix you
I won't, no, I won't diss you

"Even if us dating doesn't work out, I want to be with you all the time." I say.

But babe, yeah, I might miss you

She smiles and buries her face in my neck.

If you're cold and needed shelter
I'd hold you, but not sweat ya

I don't know what me and Y/n are right know but I do know that I want her to be in my life for the rest of it.

And know we're not together
But babe, I won't forget ya

Time Skip

Y/n holds my hand and I smile.

"You guys are back together?" Maddy asks.

"It's complicated." Y/n says.

What I need, what I need, what I need
Is for you to be sure, no no no

I stare at Y/n and she looks around.

For you to be sure, no no no
For you to be sure, no no no

"I'll plead the 5th in court." Maddy says walking away.

"Hey Jules." Elliot says walking past.

"I don't fucking like him." Y/n says.

"Why?" I ask.

"He's trying to make a move on my girlfriend." Y/n says.

What I need, what I need, what I need
Is to tell me that it's yours, no no no

"You just said that we're complicated." I say.

"So what? He needs to stay in his place before I drop his like s bad habit." She says.

And who you do it for, no no no
Need you to be sure, no no no, no no

"So we're dating but it's complicated and I can't speak to him?" I ask.

Need you to be sure

"Yep." Y/n says.

Need you to be sure

Time Skip

"That was the worst movie I've ever watched." I say.

"You being here just made it a little less awful." Y/n says.

I smile and Y/n kisses me.

When we're all alone, girl, you wanna own it

"Before we watch another one... snack break." Y/n says.

I nod and we go downstairs.

"Hey love birds." Rachel says.

"Mom, don't be weird." Y/n says.

When we're with your fam, you don't wanna show it
Oh, you try to keep us on the low

I stare at Y/n and shake my head.

I only want a girl who ain't afraid to love me
Not a metaphor of what we really could be

"I think I'm going to head home, it's getting late." I say.

"Let me walk you out." Y/n says as I walk toward the door.

I walk outside and Y/n follows me.

"Jules—" Y/n says.

"I can't stand there and act like I'm not in love with you because you're in the closet." I say.

Oh, I ain't putting on a show

"One minute you show a shit-ton of PDA. The next you're acting like you don't know what you like." I say.

Sure I would kiss you, I'll lay with you
You're broke, no, I can't fix you

"It's okay to be confused, but it's not okay to make someone want for you when you aren't ready to be with them." I say.

Sure I would kiss you, I'll lay with you
You're broke, no, I can't fix you
I won't, no, I won't diss you

"I can't do this. Call me when you figure that shit out." I say.

But babe, yeah, I might miss you

"I'm sorry." Y/n says.

Tears fill her eyes and I hug her.

If you're cold and needed shelter
I'd hold you, but not sweat ya

"Think about it. I'll be waiting for you." I say.

And know we're not together
But babe, I won't forget ya

"I know—" She says.

"No, you don't. You need to be 110% sure." I say.

What I need, what I need, what I need
Is for you to be sure, no no no

"Think about it, explore other options." I say.

For you to be sure, no no no
For you to be sure, no no no

Y/n grabs my arm and pulls me back inside.

"Did you forget something?" Y/n's mom asks.

"Mom, I'm gay, or something like that. What I do know is that I'm in love with Jules." Y/n says.

What I need, what I need, what I need
Is to tell me that it's yours, no no no

"I don't know how you feel about this but your opinion won't change anything." Y/n says.

And who you do it for, no no no
Need you to be sure, no no no, no no

"Well, I already knew you liked girls or whatever. I see the way you look at Jules. That's perfectly fine. I support you." Y/n's mom says.

Need you to be sure
Need you to be sure

Y/n smiles and they hug.

"Just treat her right." Y/n's mom says looking at me.

"Yes, ma'am." I say.

Y/n's mom smiles and we go upstairs.

"I'm 110%." Y/n says.

Need you to be sure
Need you to be sure

"Hiding my feelers what the dumbest choice I ever made." Y/n says.

We could be bigger and brighter than space
Ain't no running away

I smile and kiss her.

No, real loving is sure

"I love you." I say.

The way that I love, there's no taking my place

"I love you too." Y/n says.

Staring you right in your face
No, don't look away no more

Time Skip

"Here we go again." Rue says.

"I'll do the honors." Lexi says.

"Are you guys back together?" Lexi asks.

"Yes." I say.

I would kiss you, I'll lay with you

"Ladies, gentleman, and non-binaries." Y/n says.

"Y/n—" I say.

"I am in love with Jules, Jules is in love with me. Keep your eyes and hands to yourself. She is off the market." Y/n says.

"I'm only on the market for Maddy. Baby, please come home the kids miss you." Y/n says.

"Shut up." I say laughing.

"Thank you!" Y/n says.

"What the fuck is wrong with you?" I ask.

You're broke, no, I can't fix you

"Just gotta let these people know that we are actually back together." Y/n says.

"There's nothing wrong with that but you didn't have to do that whole thing." I say.

I won't, no, I won't diss you

"Anyways, I'm gonna go to my next class." She says.

"I'll miss you." I say.

But babe, yeah, I might miss you

"I need that before you go." I say pointing at her jacket.

She takes her jacket off and hands it to me.

If you're cold and needed shelter
I'd hold you, but not sweat ya

"Thank you." I say as she walks away.

But babe, I won't forget ya

Time Skip

"You wanna have a little fun with me?" The guy asks.

"No." I say.

"Oh c'mon. You and man probably aren't even serious." He says.

"I'm actually carrying his two baby girls." I say putting my hands on my stomach.

He walks away and Y/n laughs.

What I need, what I need, what I need
Is for you to be sure, no no no

"You must be practicing your lies." Y/n says.

For you to be sure, no no no
For you to be sure, no no no

"Thank you for being my test subject." I say.

What I need, what I need, what I need
Is to tell me that it's yours, no no no

Y/n flips me off and I laugh.

And who you do it for, no no no
Need you to be sure, no no no, no no

"I'm just kidding." I say.

Need you to be sure

"You know I love you." I say.

Need you to be sure

"I love you too." Y/n says.

Need you to be sure

I smile and she kisses me.

Need you to be sure

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