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"How are you?" Maddy asks hugging me.

"I'm trying to hang in there." I say quietly.

"If you need anything, call me. I can't even imagine what you're going through right now." Maddy says.

"W-Where's Rue?" I ask.

Maddy looks at Cassie and Cassie shakes her head.

"Not sure why I expected her to come." I say.

You don't make time like you used to

"She's been hanging with Jules and some guy lately. She's definitely been taking more pills than usual." Cassie says.

Got a new girl, new friends, brand new

When I first met Rue, she wasn't taking any pills. Then we started dating when she starting having an addiction but it wasn't as bad as it is now. She went to rehab but when she came back and relapsed, everything we had was over. She was completely different.

I swear it's like I don't even know you
Yeah, I miss the old you

"Why do you always assume something is wrong with me?!" Rue shouts.

"Because there is! There always is! You're either about to OD on your bedroom floor or missing!" I say.

I kinda want to fight like we used to

"And I'm trying I be supportive because I know you can't help it but you won't let me! Because you stay stupid shit like, why do you always assume something is wrong with me." I say.

"I'm sorry. I'm just stressed right now." Rue says.

"I-I don't even know what to do." Rue says as tears fill her eyes.

"Baby, you gotta talk to me." I say hugging Rue.

To make it alright like we used to
Anything, 'cause I didn't want to lose you

"I'll just have to cut her off completely." I say.

But this time we've gone too far

"Woo! I'm loosing someone else.." I say.

We've gone too far

They stare at me and Cassie hugs me.

"Why does everyone just leave me?" I ask crying.

This new you, this new dude

"Not everyone. We still got you, we all do." Maddy says.

"Fucking Fez can show up but Rue can't even text me." I say.

Don't know him, don't want to

"Fuck Rue, don't worry about her. Worry about who you still got and who still got you." Maddy says.

I wish that I still knew the old him, the old you

I nod and has hugs me.

Time Skip

R-I-P to the old you
I miss the old you

"Did you eat today?" Maddy asks.

"No." I say.

"Go get something out the vending machine." Maddy says handing me money.

"Thank you." I say.

Maddy smiles and I walk to the vending machine. I put the dollar in and it spits back out. I put it in again and it comes out.

"You gotta put it in upside down." Someone says.

I turn around and see Rue. I flip the dollar and put it back in. It stays in the machine and the screen lights up.

"Thanks." I say pressing a button.

The bag falls and I grab it.

"I'm sorry I didn't go—" Rue says.

"I don't wanna hear it." I say.

"My mom treated you like you were her own and you acted she meant nothing to you. You couldn't put the pills down for an hour and a half. You couldn't even send me a text." I say.

It's like you're dead to me now
R-I-P to the old you

"Y/n—" Rue says.

"And you don't even care. I would've went your mom's funeral. Shit, I decided not to get on my $400 flight to go to your dad's funeral. I miss the old you." I say.

I fucking miss you
I would have never let you down like you did to me

"I don't wanna hear any excuses and I honestly don't think I wanna talk to you ever again." I say.

Now you're dead to me

Rue slowly nods and I walk away.

R-I-P

Time Skip

"I'm gonna go over to Cassie's. You gonna be okay?" Tommy says.

I stare at Tommy and he sighs.

I'm tired of people asking me if I'm okay or if I'm gonna be okay.

"Just call me if you need anything." Tommy says leaving.

I said I never wanted to talk to Rue again but she's just been on my mind. Where did it all go wrong?

"... and that's why you can't do drugs or smoke or shy of that." Dad says.

"So basically... drugs bad." Rue says.

You're acting like the people that we hated

"Yes, drugs bad." Dad says.

"Why didn't you just say that instead of talking for 5 minutes without stopping for air?" I ask.

Rue giggles and I smile.

How'd she give in and how'd it get so bad?

You're hanging with the worst and I hate it
All you do now is get too faded

Where... Where did we go wrong?

"I don't really like Jules." I say.

"Well, I do. I have the time of my life with her." Rue says.

You think you're the shit now

"But not with me..." I mumble.

Now everything is too complicated

"What?" Rue asks.

"Nothing." I say.

There's a knock on the door and I get up.

Tommy problem just forgot his keys.

I open the door and see Rue.

"What are you doing here?" I ask.

"I'm sorry, I know I fucked up. I fucked up a lot." Rue says.

"I miss you." Rue says.

"We're not getting back together." I say.

You can try, but there's no way to save it
Because you're too caught up in that fake shit

"You can't just erase this and pretend it never happened." I say.

I wish that we could just restart, just restart

"I can't even recognize you. I only miss the old you." I say.

This new you, this new dude
Don't know him, don't want to
I wish that I still knew the old him, the old you

"What the fuck happened?" I asked.

R-I-P to the old you
I miss the old you

"I don't know." Rue says.

It's like you're dead to me now
R-I-P to the old you

"See, you don't even know." I say.

I fucking miss you
I would have never let you down like you did to me

"How can you change when you don't know what the problem is?" I ask.

Now you're dead to me
R-I-P

"I think it's best if we stay away from each other and I mean that." I say.

R-I-P to the old you
I fucking miss you

I shut the door and sigh.

It's like you're six feet in the ground

20 minutes later...

I knock on the door and Cassie opens it.

"Hey." Cassie says.

"Is your mom home?" I ask.

"Yeah." Cassie says letting me in.

"Hey Y/n/n!" Suze says.

"Can we talk?" I ask.

"Uh, sure." Suze says.

"Don't be nosy, go upstairs." Suze says as I sit down.

Cassie rolls her eyes and goes upstairs.

"What's on your mind?" Suze asks.

"Normally I'd have these conversations with my mom but she's not here anymore. And you're the closet thing I have to her." I say.

Suze smiles and nods.

"I think Rue wants to get back together." I say.

One day you gon' miss me
You'll come running back and you'll hit me up

"Oh hell no!" Suze says.

But I won't answer that shit, nah, I won't answer that shit, nah

"Uh, I mean—" Suze says.

I laugh and smile.

"I love Rue but she's lost it. You and your mom were nothing but good to her. She shut you out and blamed you. Not to mention she didn't even show up to Alice's funeral." Suze says.

"At the end of the day, it's your choice. I know you're a smart girl and I know you'll make the right decision." She says.

One day I won't miss you
When I'm drunk and sad I won't hit you up

"Yeah... I think it's over for good. I've forgiven her for so many things but I can't forgive her not showing up." I say.

Because I'll be over that shit yeah, I'll be over that shit yeah
R-I-P to the old you (R-I-P to you)

"Anytime you need to vent, I'm here for you." Suze says.

I miss the old you (I miss you)
It's like you're dead to me now (dead to me)

I nod and smile.

R-I-P to the old you (R-I-P)
I fucking miss you (I miss you)

Time Skip

"You really deserve better." Maddy says.

I would have never let you down (never let you down)

"I said the same thing to you about Nate and you told me go fuck myself." I say.

Like you did to me (like you did to me)

"It's different because i can accept the fact I was in a toxic relationship. You like to call your relationship issues a misunderstanding." Maddy says.

Now you're dead to me (dead to me now)

"It was a misunderstanding. I guess I misunderstood Rue when she told me she loved me." I say.

R-I-P

"Please stop being so moody, some things just don't work out. Just like you in the 9th grade when you gained 70 pounds." Maddy says.

R-I-P to the old you (R-I-P)

"Talking about, who want me? Bitch, the WWE." Maddy says.

I fucking miss you (I miss you)

I laugh and Maddy smiles.

It's like you're six feet in the ground

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