Earth 4
Y/n's View

I knock on the front door and hear shouting. I climb through the open window and I wander down the hall.

I see Rue kicking the door down and she starts to walk in the room.

Yeah

I wrap my arms around Rue and I pick her up.

"I'll fucking kill you, Y/n!" Rue says as I carry her away.

This is the end, this is the end, this is the end of me

I carry her to the living room and put her on the couch.

"Rue." I say.

Rue stares at me a few seconds and I hold her hand.

"We'll figure all of this out. Just relax." I say.

"Okay?" I ask.

Rue nods and hugs me.

For the past few days I've felt alone. I know I'm dating Rue but it doesn't feel like it.

Playin' pretend that I'm available emotionally

Rue's View

"I love you and I don't want to lose you. Maybe try to stop." Y/n says.

I never really cared about dying before I met Y/n. She changed my life, I have never been happier. I don't want to die, I care about dying now.

I'm off a Benz, goin' 'round bends could be the death of me

"I can't." I say.

I'm not ready, I'm not ready

"Try cutting back then. I got you." Y/n says.

"What do you see in me? Why do you think I'm a good person?" I ask.

"Because you are. All of this is stressful but I know that I love you. That's all that matters." Y/n says.

Maybe I'm the best mistake you ever made

"I love you too." I say.

Y/n smiles and I kiss her.

Time Skip

"Rue." Y/n says.

Y/n has an accent so when she says everything it either sounds funny or beautiful. My name is one of those beautiful words.

It sounds so fucking beautiful when you say my name

"Are you okay?" Y/n asks.

Does she know? God, I hope she doesn't know.

I'm praying to a God, a God I don't believe

"Yeah." I say.

The more I hide my scars,

I sneeze into my elbow and white powder gets in my sleeve.

the easier I bleed

Y/n stares at me and sighs.

But maybe I'm the worst, the worst you ever had

"Did I mention how nice you look today?" I ask.

Tell you you're beautiful

"Rue—" Y/n says.

"You said I didn't have to stop! You said I should just cut back!" I say.

then stab you in the back

Y/n closes her eyes and says something in French.

"Translation?" I ask looking at Lexi.

"She's praying about your relationship." Lexi says.

You're prayin' I'm the one,

"Maybe this is just isn't going to work out. Maybe we don't go together." I say.

but maybe I'm a curse

"You keep trying to "fix me," but you're making it worse." I say.

The more you try to fix me, the more you make it worse

"First of all, never ever interior my prayer again. Gonna be some Doctor Strange and Spider-Man spell type of shit." Y/n says.

"Second of all, I love you. I loved you at your best so I'm loving you at your worst." She says.

Could you love me at my worst?

"I don't sleep at night because I worry about you. I'll love you at your worst. I just need you to help me help you." She says.

Could you love me even though that, that it hurts?
Could you love me, could you love me?
Could you love me at my worst?

"Okay?" She asks.

"Yeah." I say.

Yeah (Yeah)

She smiles and I hug her.

"Aww." Lexi says.

Time Skip

I hear knocking in the window and I see Y/n.

"I don't want to talk." I say.

Don't try to call
Do not disturb, I do not want to speak

"Rue, open this fucking window." Y/n says.

"This is it Y/n. I'm going to die. The demons are taking over." I say.

This is the end, demons are friends, angels are enemies

"What kinda crazy shit are you taking?" Y/n asks.

"Fine, we're done." Y/n says.

"Wait, wait." I say opening the window.

I'm not ready for you to forget me

Y/n smiles and climbs through the window.

"You need to answer my calls. I'm worried about you." Y/n says.

"You're always worrying about me. You should be with someone who doesn't make you worried. I'm a mistake that walked into your life." I say.

"If you're a mistake that walked into my life, you're the best mistake I've ever made." Y/n says.

I know that I'm the best mistake you ever made

"Rue, baby." Y/n says holding my hands.

It sounds so fucking beautiful when you say my name

"We're going to work all of this shit out. This is just a hurdle and we're gonna jump over it together. If you're not with me, I'm not making that jump." She says.

"I swear to God that I'm not going to leave your side." She says.

I'm praying to a God, a God I don't believe

I start to cry and she hugs me.

I showed you all my scars that I let nobody see

"Everything is gonna be okay." Y/n says.

But maybe I'm the worst, the worst you ever had

I hate myself for all the shit I out Y/n through.

Tell you you're beautiful then stab you in the back

She wants to believe that I'm good person and that we can be can be together. I'm bad for Y/n.

You're prayin' I'm the one, but maybe I'm a curse

Y/n loves me and I love her. I know she's trying to help me but I feel like I'm getting worse.

The more you try to fix me, the more you make it worse
Could you love me at my worst?

"Let's not talk about any of this, let's forget it for a couple hours. I'll go get us some food and we can watch a movie or something." She says.

Could you love me even though that, that it hurts?

I smile and kiss her.

Could you love me, could you love me?

"While I'm gone, shower because you look like shit and I surprisingly you don't smell like shit." She says.

Could you love me at my worst?

I laugh and she smiles.

25 minutes later...

I hear mom and Y/n talking and I creep down the hall.

"I got you guys something." Y/n says.

"Best sister in-law ever." Gia says.

They laugh and I smile.

"I just want to thank you for everything you do for Rue. I know she can be a mess but you always seem to know how to handle her." Mom says.

This is the end, this is the end, this is the end of me (Me, me)

"She's my beautiful mess." Y/n says.

This is the end, this is the end, this is the end of me

"I've always been in love with her and I don't think this simple bump in the road can stop me from feeling this way." Y/n says.

But maybe I'm the worst, the worst you ever had
Tell you you're beautiful then stab you in the back

"I just hope you make it because I love free food." Gia says.

You're prayin' I'm the one, but maybe I'm a curse

I really love Y/n's relationship with my mom and Gia. She tries to convince me to spend more time talking to them but I never really do.

The more you try to fix me, the more you make it worse

Y/n laughs and comes down the hall.

"Are you ease dropping?" Y/n asks walking in my room.

"How could I not? You're so loud." I say.

"One, fuck you. Second, eat the is food before I eat you." Y/n says.

"That doesn't sound all that bad." I say.

She smiles and I kiss her.

Could you love me at my worst?

"You need to eat now because you say it doesn't taste the same later." She says.

Could you love me even though that, that it hurts?

"Exactly my point!" I say.

Could you love me, could you love me?

She stares at me and we both start laughing.

Could you love me at my worst?

"Your family's in the other room." She says.

But maybe I'm the worst, the worst you ever had

"And?" I ask.

Tell you you're beautiful then stab you in the back

"Rue..." Y/n says.

"When you were going to get food, I came to a realization of how much I love you. I want to do all that romantic stuff with you. I can't if I OD. I'm gonna try to get clean." I say.

You're prayin' I'm the one, but maybe I'm a curse

Y/n smiles and kisses me.

The more you try to fix me, the more you make it worse

"I love you." Y/n says.

Could you love me at my worst? (Worst)

"I love you too." I say.

This is the end, this is the end, this is the end of me

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I now identify as bi