Earth 40
Rue's View

"You leaving?" Maddy asks.

"Yeah." I say.

"Take a shot with me before you go. Please?" Maddy says.

"Okay." I say.

Oh-woah

"Rue—" Y/n says.

"It's just a shot, it's a one time thing." I say.

It's just a little red wine, I'll be fine
Not like I wanna do this every night

"You've said that before." Y/n says.

"I've been doing well, let me treat myself." I say.

I've been good, don't I deserve it?

"I earned it." I say.

I think I earned it, feels like it's worth it
In my mind, mind

"I'll be in the car when you finish." Y/n says walking away.

I sigh and follow Maddy.

10 minutes later...

Everything hurts.

Twisted reality, hopeless insanity

"You okay?" Y/n asks.

"Yeah." I say.

I told you I was okay,

Y/n stops at a stop sign and I open the door. I throw up and Y/n sighs.

but I was lying

She opens the glove box and hands me a napkin. I wipe my mouth and shut the door.

"Just one shot, huh?" Y/n asks.

"Can we talk about this another time?" I ask.

"You're gonna fucking kill yourself." Y/n says.

I was dancing with the devil, out of control

"You've already ODed once." She says.a

Almost made it to Heaven
It was closer than you know

"It's like you're trying to commit suicide. Do you wanna die?" She says.

Playing with the enemy, gambling with my soul

"There's no going back." I say.

It's so hard to say no
When you're dancing with the devil

She sighs and shakes her head.

Mm-mm-mm, yeah, yeah

Time Skip

Y/n and I got into a fight about my... issues. I know she just wants the best for me but I can't quit. There's no going back once you change sides. That's why Lexi still has her sanity — she never tried it.

"Are you serious?" Lexi asks.

"Please?" I ask.

"I can't keep doing this for you. You should just get clean." Lexi says.

"I've been clean for some time, it's just still in my system." I say lying.

I sneeze into my elbow and I stare at the power on my sleeve.

It's just a little white line, I'll be fine

"It's only a matter of time before you do more than that." Lexi says.

But soon, that little white line is a little glass pipe

"Has Y/n talked to you? Don't listen to her, she's crazy." I say.

"Yeah. I talked to her and she said she's worried about you. Is getting a hit worth making your family and friends go insane?" Lexi says.

Tinfoil remedy, almost got the best of me

"This is the last time." Lexi says taking the bottle out of my hand.

Lexi sighs and goes upstairs.

Nothing has kept me sober since I relapsed. I want to get clean but I just can't. I'm just hoping God will spare me everything I use drugs.

I keep praying I don't reach the end of my lifetime, mm
Twisted reality, hopeless insanity

Time Skip

"I'm fine." I say.

I told you I was okay,

"Don't lie to me." Y/n says.

"I'm not." I say.

"I'm on my way over, about 2 blocks away." Y/n says.

"Okay." I say.

I hang up and sigh.

I feel a sharp pain in my chest and I groan.

I feel like my heart is about to explode.

I put my hand over my chest and fall in the floor.

but I was lying

Y/n's View

"She's in her room." Gia says.

I nod and walk down the hall. I open the room door and see Rue lying on the floor.

I widen my eyes and kneel beside her.

"Call 9-1-1!" I shout lifting Rue's shirt up.

I put my head on Rue's chest and listen for a heart beat.

I was dancing with the devil, out of control

"1, 2, 3." I mumble giving Rue CPR.

I hear Gia sniffle and I check Rue's pulse.

"C'mon." I say pushing harder.

"You're gonna hurt her." Gia says.

"Gia, shut up!" I shout as I hear sirens.

"Go let the paramedics in." I say.

Gia leaves the room and check Rue's pulse.

"1, 2, 3." I mumble.

"Don't fucking die on me." I say as tears fill my eyes.

I hit Rue in the chest with my fist and she gasps for air.

Almost made it to Heaven
It was closer than you know

She rolls on her side and throws up.

"You're okay, you're okay. Take deep breaths." I say.

Playing with the enemy, gambling with my soul

Rue starts to cry and I wipe her tears.

It's so hard to say no
When you're dancing with the devil

"Stand clear." Someone says.

I get off the ground and the paramedics lift Rue onto the stretcher.

"You can ride with us in the ambulance." The man says as they take Rue out of the room.

"I'm sorry for yelling at you. I was just stressed." I say.

"I get it. Thank you for saving her." Gia says.

Gia hugs me tightly and I smile.

"Just stay here and tell your mom to call me when she gets back." I say.

She nods and I walk away.

45 minutes later...

"Thank you, you saved my life." Rue says.

"Repay me by quitting." I say.

"I thought I had control and could stop whenever I wanted to." Rue says.

Thought I knew my limit, yeah
I thought that I could quit it, yeah
I thought that I could walk away easily

"I never realized how bad it truly was before I realized that I was having a heart attack." Rue says.

But here I am, falling down on my knees

"I know now and I don't want to even have to think about being in this situation again." Rue says.

Praying for better days to come and wash this pain away

"I'm sorry, I should've listened to you." Rue says.

Could you please forgive me?
Lord, I'm sorry for dancing with the devil

"I'm still team Rue." I say.

Oh, yeah-yeah

She smiles and I kiss her.

Dancing with the devil, out of control (Yeah, yeah)

Time Skip; Rue's View

"I'm sold out right now." Fezco says.

Almost made it to Heaven

I hand the zip lock bag to Fezco and he looks at it.

It was closer than you know (Closer than you know)

"I'm clean now." I say.

Playing with the enemy (Oh), gambling with my soul (Woah, woah)

Fezco smiles and he nods.

It's so hard to say no

"I'm happy for you kid." Fezco says.

When you're dancing with the devil, mm

I smile and we hug.

Yeah, yeah, mm

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