*"I know, I know and I wish it was easy but it's not."
"Ok, I'll do whatever you want." He replied, looking into her eyes, his guitar slung over his shoulder. "So you gotta let me know."
"Should I stay or should I go?"*
He had a glimpse of hope in his eyes. All he wanted was to hear her tell him to stay. He wanted to stay with her, not Jess. Not anyone else, just her. And he knew she felt the same, it's just like the rest of the world was against them. The rest of the world being Jess and Zack.
"I want you to stay more then anything in the world." She said, but he knew there was more to it. It wasn't that easy. "But you can't, this was risky enough."
"I know, I don't wanna push you to do anything sweetheart." He placed his hand on her cheek, rubbing circles with his thumb. Y/n leaned into his touch, smiling sadly at him. "I'll see you at school tomorrow."
He gave her a hug and kiss on the forehead before she moved aside so he could leave. Was it wrong that she already missed his presence and his touch. It should've been Zack that she missed but it wasn't. She'd completely forgotten about him till things began to escalate with Eddie. God, she was a bad person wasn't she.
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Y/n slumped down on the bench beside Zack, taking a bite into her sandwich. Eddie then joined them along with Jeff and Gareth. It was only yesterday when the thing between her and Eddie had occurred. The guilt was still eating her up from the inside. She felt guilty even more knowing that she liked it. Every second of yesterday with Eddie.
"So how was band practice." Jess asked in annoyance as she sat down next to Eddie. "Better than going on a date?"
Y/n nearly choked on a piece of ham when Jess spoke. Shit the others didn't know about it. She was prepared for the worst, they were going to find out Eddie lied. Then they would probably piece everything together and both of them would be absolutely screwed.
"Uhh." Gareth started but was interrupted by Eddie kicking his shoe, exchanging looks with him. "Uh, yeah band practice was great! You know, we really practiced!"
Y/n finally felt like she could breath again. She quietly sighed in relief trying to make sure no one noticed. Both Jeff and Gareth had an idea of what was going on. And although it wasn't right, they would support their friends no matter what. So they weren't going to snitch about a thing.
"Well that's good, I was thinking you and me can go out and do something special tonight." Zack said, grabbing her one hand, giving it a kiss before interlocking their fingers. "What do you say sweetheart."
His hand slowly slid up her leg, stopping as he rubbed her inner thigh. The pet name and touching didn't have nearly the same effect it had when Eddie was the one doing it. She wished it did, she wished Zack was the one who made her feel that way still. But he wasn't, it was the one person she couldn't have.
Eddie saw them holding hands, he saw Zack glancing down at her lap where his other hand was. And it drove him nuts. He wanted nothing more then to punch him in the face and yell at him to get his hands off Y/n. But he couldn't because Zack was her boyfriend, not him. Instead he just clenched his jaw, looking away from them in hopes he would calm down.
"Uh, yeah sure." Y/n replied, glancing at Eddie who was looking at another table in the distance. Quickly she turned to look back at Zack so he wouldn't suspect anything. Although he was too busy focusing on squeezing her thigh to notice. She wanted to imagine that it was Eddie doing it but it wasn't working so she removed his hand, getting up. "I'm just gonna go to the toilet."
Immediately Eddie turned back around to see Y/n upset. "Is everything ok Y/n?" He asked worriedly when she grabbed her bag.
"Yeah, don't worry about it." She assured him which only made him worry even more. He wanted to chase after her to make sure she was alright but that would only make things worse. So he had to do the thing he dreaded, stay seated and hope she was ok.
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Y/n had already gotten ready to go out with Zack later. She didn't really want to, but if she didn't he would get suspicious. That's what made all of this so difficult. After practicing a bit on her guitar there was a knock on the door. It was probably Zack even though he was much earlier than he said he would to pick her up. Well, better early than late.
Gently placing her guitar down on the ground, she got up heading to the door. When she opened it Zack wasn't the one standing in front of her. Instead it was Eddie. What was he doing here? Zack could show up at any second and all hell would be let loose.
"Wow, you look so bea-"
"What are you doing here Eddie?" He was taken back by her sudden change in mood.
"Can I not just come and see you?"
"No, not when it's just us two." She answered sternly, there was no playing around. Until she figured things out, it was best her and Eddie weren't alone together. "Did you forget what happened yesterday?!"
"Of course I didn't, how could I." He joked, still not taking it seriously which angered her. "Not the time, right, sorry."
"Ok well you should probably leave." She didn't give him time to say anything, trying to close the door. Just before it shut, he wedged his foot in between so it couldn't. As long as nothing happened, it was best that they talked things out. Hopefully Zack wouldn't show up while Eddie was over. That was the main thing she was worried about. "Come inside, but you can't stay for long."
He walked inside so she could lock the door behind him. They then both went into the kitchen, sitting down on the kitchen stools. For a few seconds they were both completely silent, contemplating on what to talk about first. Where would they start, there was so much they had to clear up.
"Eddie I need to figure out what I want."
"I want to be with you Y/n."
They both spoke at the same time, going back to an awkward silence after realising. Well so much for trying to talk about it.
"Well you do that and take your time." He started, his leg bouncing up and down nervously. "But so you know, you say the word and Jess is gone, out of the picture, I'll break up with her. Because I've made up my mind and I choose you."
His rambling came to an end when she leaned in, finally making him shut up. There was no holding back anymore. She couldn't resist him anymore. He was the one she wanted, not Zack.
It took a second for Eddie to take in what was going on, but he melted into the kiss once he did. Getting up from his stool, he picked her up, walking to the couch, not once breaking the kiss. He then carefully laid her down, climbing on top of her. She grabbed the hem of his shirt, pulling it over his head.
"Are you sure Y/n?" She groaned, throwing it onto the ground. His hands held onto her waist as she wrapped hers around his neck.
Suddenly they were interrupted by the telephone next to the couch ringing. At first Y/n ignored it, hoping it would ring out and they wouldn't call again. But every time it did, it would just start ringing again. That's when she realised it was probably Zack and he would get worried if she wasn't answering. Hesitantly, she pulled away, reaching for the telephone behind her.
"Be quiet for a sec, it could be Zack." Eddie hummed in response, smirking at her.
"I should be there in about twenty minutes." Y/n began to panic, what was she going to say to him. He couldn't come over now.
"I'm not sure nows a great time Zack, i might have to take a rain check." She explained, glancing at Eddie who was tensing up.
"What, why?"
Before Y/n could answer Eddie began to trail kisses all down her jawline and neck. At the same time, his knee was slowly travelling up further between her thighs. Was he trying to get them caught?! She gave his arm a nudge, hoping he would stop but he didn't. "Y/n, is everything ok? Did something happen."
"Zack, I don't think I can do this anymore."
"What, what do you mean?" Eddie had found her sweet spot, sucking on it. She tried her hardest not to make a sound but it was harder than she thought. "Y/n please talk to me."
"I'm sorry." And with that she hung up, causing Eddie to look up. "What the hell were you thinking!"
"He interrupted us?" He acted all innocent, his lips lingering on hers. "Well I guess we don't have to worry about them now." Maybe he was right. Technically she ended things with Zack. Which lifted some weight off her shoulders for now. "Now where were we."