*"So who is it Y/n? Me or him?"*

"Don't make me choose, please Brandon." She was afraid everything would be ruined if she had to choose. She had already created enough drama in the group, she didn't want to completely break it up. Although there was no doubt things would be different from now on. "I've had enough of choosing."

"Bullshit!" Brandon yelled, struggling up to his feet. He began to approach Y/n but Eddie immediately stepped towards him, his fists clenched. Another step and he would actually kill Brandon. 

"Watch it." Eddie spat, pointing his fingers at him. After his previous outbursts of anger, he wasn't taking any chances. His words could turn into violence at any second and Eddie couldn't risk Y/n getting hurt anymore. 

"Why you so hesitant to choose Y/n, is it cause you'll choose him?" Brandon snickered, wiping away some blood dripping out his nose. He went quiet, rubbing his forehead in frustration. Who was he kidding, of course she wouldn't choose him. It was never, it never would be. It was always Y/n and Eddie and this is what he got for trying to get in the way of that. "Just say it goddamn, just say you choose him!"

"I, choose him." She whispered, looking down at the ground. All of this could've been prevented if she didn't play Brandon's stupid game. If she trusted Eddie more. He was her boyfriend in the first place, was he not? "I'm sorry."

"You know, fuck you both!" He stormed away towards his car, getting in then driving off. They were both left alone in silence, Y/n contemplating on what to say. She didn't want to make anything worse. 

"Eddie,"

"I don't understand, why go through all this trouble if you picked me." He said quietly before walking off to his own car. Not letting her say another word he left. Now it was just her, standing alone by her door. What had she done? She ruined everything. Eddie and Brandon's friendship and her relationship with them. She cared about them both so much but she was foolish. What if Eddie never forgave her and she had to deal with him hating her for the rest of their lives. 

For a few minutes after he left, she stood still outside, trying to process everything that had happened. That's when her eyes started to tear up again. Heading back inside, she shut the door behind her, sliding against it till she was sitting on the ground. More than anything she wanted to talk to Eddie and sort things out. Not knowing how he felt was eating her from the inside out. 

——

 It was the next day, Y/n had barely gotten any sleep the previous night. She had bags under her eyes and tear stained cheeks. But that wasn't going to stop her from going over to Eddie's trailer. After she got changed into a new set of clothes she grabbed her car keys and left. There was no point in putting on makeup. She was most likely going to cry it off later. Plus she really needed to explain everything to Eddie. Maybe he'd forgive her then.

The drive there wasn't that long so she parked by his trailer, getting out. She dragged her feet up to the front. Hesitantly knocking on his door, she took a step back as she waited for an answer. Not long after she heard the sound of footsteps from the other side. Then the door opened revealing Wayne.

"Good morning Wayne." She said, pretending that she didn't look a mess.

"You look like you haven't got any sleep."

"Probably because I haven't." She fiddled with the hem of her shirt, looking over his shoulder. "Is Eddie here by any chance?"

Wayne nodded his head, turning around before yelling his name. He then waved goodbye since he had to go out for work. Once he left, Eddie came around the corner while rubbing his eyes. He looked just as miserable as her it broke her heart. She deserved to be in pain, but he didn't. He had done nothing wrong. He had been nothing but loving and kind to her and she betrayed him. When he realised it was her he immediately reached for the door, shutting it in her face. She deserved that. 

"Eddie, please." She cried, knowing he could still hear her. She'd do anything for him to open that door and listen to her. "I need to talk, please."

There was no answer from him so she decided to leave. She'd try again tomorrow and hopefully he would let her talk. If not, then quite frankly she didn't know what else she'd do. Heading back home, she once again struggled to fall asleep. All she could think about was Eddie and if things would ever go back to the way they were. But what were the chances?

——

It was pouring down outside the car but that wasn't going to stop her. She was willing to do anything to win Eddie back, even if it meant waiting in the rain for him. If it made her sick, oh well. It was deserved.

Stopping the car, she put on her coat, getting out. She then quickly rushed up the steps to his door, knocking as loudly as she could so he'd definitely hear her. Maybe he didn't hear her so she knocked once more. There was still no answer again. 

Yes, she was getting drenched. No she wasn't going to go back to her car and give up. If she did and he opened the door he would immediately shut it with no chance of her getting there in time. And if he wasn't at home he would probably beat her to the door and lock her out. She couldn't let any of those happen. Because then she wouldn't be able to talk to him.

A while had passed, yet there was still no sign of Eddie. Wayne wasn't at home either so he'd let her in if Eddie was just ignoring the door. At least it gave her some time to think about what she would say. 'I'm sorry for getting with one of your best friends to hurt you, it was really stupid of me, I promise I won't do it again.'  No, that was ridiculous. 

Her train of thoughts was ended when she heard the sound of a car pulling up. She lifted her head, recognising the van. Eddie then got out after he parked, locking eyes with her. Y/n scrambled to her feet, holding onto her arms shivering. 

"Y/n, what are you doing here? Go home it's pouring down!" He sounded harsh, but she knew it was only because he was worried for her. It was a miracle he could still be so caring after everything she had done to him. That was one of the many reasons she chose him. 

"Please, Eddie I really need to talk to you." She begged, stepping aside slightly so he could get to the door. "Don't ignore me, that's all I ask."

He unlocked the door, remaining silent. What was he supposed to say to her? When he entered the house she stayed at the front, but had her foot in the doorway so he couldn't shut the door. She didn't want to intrude but she did want to talk to him.

"Get inside otherwise you'll get sick." He gently grabbed her arm, pulling her inside out of the rain. "How long were you waiting for me?" 

"Like twenty minutes."

"Twent- Jesus, why couldn't you just wait in the car?"

"I couldn't let you beat me to the door, you wouldn't have let me in." She explained, looking down at the floor where she was dripping water onto the front mat. 

"Of course I would've!" He replied, taking his coat off to wrap it around her. "Let me get you a towel." 

Eddie walked off and then returned with a towel, handing it to her. He then walked into the kitchen to make her some tea to warm up while she sat down on the couch. Now was the time to talk to him. He was right there, right in front of her. 

"Eddie." He hummed in response, letting her know he was listening. "I hate myself everyday for what I've done to you. I wanted to hurt you, to see if you cared, I believed you didn't because of Brandon."

"Well you sure as hell did."

"I know, and it isn't an excuse because I should've trusted you, not him. I just wanted to say I'm sorry." She took a deep breath in, swallowing the lump in her throat. She was not ready to say the next part, afraid it would be true. "I understand if you never want anything to do with me, in a relationship or friend way, or at all."

Eddie stopped stirring the tea, dropping the spoon in the sink before he walked over to her with the cup. She took it from his hand, taking a sip so he could sit down next to her. 

"As much as I'm angry with you, I could never feel that way." Y/n smiled at his response, taking another sip of the tea. "I'm still hurt Y/n, but I don't want this to end. It'll take time."

"And I fully understand Eddie, I'll wait however long you need." What did she ever do to deserve him? "Just know I will always choose you."

I'll edit it tomorrow since I'm super tired. And also all the updates will be me adding the songs I used for inspiration for some of the one shots at the top. Since I have exquisite taste in music that you should all listen to and I'm not wrong 🤪