This was it... the day you finally confess you're feelings to Elton.

Nervously Y/N walked up and down in her apartment.

She was actually shaking, while she was trying to remember what she wanted to say to him.

"Sooo...you know we have been friends for so long now." Y/N started talking to herself. "No that doesn't sound good."

"Hey Elton my boy...you want to be my man?"

That one should have deserved a face palm...

"Maybe straight forward?" That was more a question than anything else. "I like you more as a friend."

She thought a bit about it and decided to do it like this.

Straight forward... without any kind of misunderstanding.

"Okey Y/N, you got this. If you don't tell him now, you probably die alone and sad. If he doesn't feel the same way than you can just get over it and move on."

That all sounded so simple.

But hell no...in the real world this will be hella hard.

She wanted to check how she locked before Elton would come over, but froze when she heard a knock on the door.

"Why is he already here?" Confused she looked on the clock. "Why is he here on time? He is never here on time."

Now Y/N started to panic.

As Elton knocked a second time she practically ran to the door to open it.

And there he was...beautiful looking as always.

"Hey Elli." Y/N greeted him with a hug.

"Hey little princess." Elton laughed as he walked in.

You blushed a little bit.

"You sounded really serious on the phone, so what is going on?" He asked you right when you both set down on the couch.

Your palms were really sweaty. "I have something to tell you. It's very important and I've been meaning to tell you this for a long time now. But I never found the right words or the courage to tell you this."

He noticed you were nervous so he said. "Don't worry about it Y/N. You can tell me anything. We are best friends."

Those little words cut you like a knife.

Best friends...Best fucking friends.

You didn't wanted that.

You wanted him to be the one person that is going to love you for the rest of your life.

You wanted him to be the nice charming prince on his white horse saving you from whatever the hell there is.

You wanted more than just being friends... is it so selfish to want more than that?

"Hey...you okey?" Elton pulled you out of your deep thoughts.

"What...sorry? I kind of dozed out..." You said truthfully.

Elton repeated what he said before. "I said that I have to tell you something important, too."

"Oh...then go ahead." You said.

"No. I didn't wanted to stop you. Just tell me what you wanted to tell me, and then I say what I wanted."

You took a deep breath. "Elton I like y..."

Confused you stopped talking as you heard another knock on the door.

You didn't invite anyone else, or did you?

Elton just got up to open the door and came back with an unfamiliar looking girl.

"So Y/N... this is Amanda, my girlfriend. Amanda this is Y/N, my best friend."

And in that very moment you heart was smashed into tiny little pieces.

Trying to hold back your tears you played nice. "Oh my god. Nice to meet you. I am so happy for you guys."

"I am so happy to finally meet you, Elton has told me so much about you." She hugged you.

You said. "It is so nice to meet you to." While you thought. "Why the fucking hell is this fucking happening to me right now."

It made you even madder when she sat down and cuddled with Elton.

"So what was it you telling me? What do you like?"

"Oh I wanted to tell you that I like..." You tried to come up with a quick lie. "I like to do another 48 hours no sleep livestream, and I wanted to ask if you wanted to be in it. Not the whole time just like 3 hours or so. I wanted to ask everyone one the vlog squad. So if you don't want to then it's no problem."

You stopped yourself at this point because you knew you would have talked forever if you didn't.

Elton seemed really happy. "Definitely. Count me in. This will be so much fun."

You were relieved that he didn't noticed you were lying.

"Cool...I just send you the deeds when everything is planned." You tried to put on a fake smile.

In that moment you wished that they would just leave so you could start crying and have a complete breakdown.

And as if someone heard your wish Elton and Amanda got up from the couch.

"I'm really sorry Y/N but we wanted to go to the movies, so we have to go now."

"No problem...enjoy the movie and have fun."

You gave both of them a hug for goodbye and as soon as you heard the door close, the first tears started rolling down your cheeks.