I won't write a chapter today I just need someone to vent to and I found myself on here

I am going to write out my feelings in this story

For some reason I feel like everything is my fault I wanna cry for no reason and feel like everyone would be better off without me

Can someone please tell me what this feeling is and what it means

I can't take it anymore I get stressed easily sometimes I wanna just not do anything

I want to talk to my parents but I'm to scared to and I want to talk to some one but I'm scared they won't listen

I figured out I have a social anxiety disorder meaning the fear of being judged

I fear my parents and siblings will judge me I feel like I'm faking things everyday

Can some one please tell me what this means