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Me- " Hawaii for what ?" I ask my dad while I get under the cold sheets.
Dad- " Because it's beautiful out there ! And it's where you and Simone were born ."
S- " If I'm going, then you are too !" We all laughed .
Me- " okay okay ! Just let me know when, I'm going to sleep tho I love you guys !"
Simone &dad- "love you too !"


I hung up the phone and put it down . I answers some new emails on my laptop and of course did some online shopping and then fell into deep sleep, and since this bed has silk sheets, you already know it felt good .


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I wake up and grab my phone and use the bathroom across the hall . As I get done peeing, I wash my hands and all of a sudden my phone starts going off with instagram notifications.
I hurry up and dry my hands and check what's going on . Apparently Charlotte flair had some things to say about me on Twitter and let's just say it wasn't pretty
so I decided to send shots right back at her .



@WWEKayleeJohnson - I'm sorry , @charletteFlair did you say something..? I'm pretty sure I beat you before , I have no problem doing it again๐Ÿ˜‰.


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ย ย  After I got done using the bathroom, I used one of the extra toothbrush's and brushed my teeth and washed my face . I grabbed my laptop and walked in me and seths room so I can go put on some pants but I seen Seth zipping up a suitcase.
" where are you going ?"
He looks up at me and then looks away and doesn't say anything.
I furrow my eyebrows and walk in front of him and wave my hand in his face " helloo! "
He still doesn't answer me and to be honest it's too early to be getting mad but he's pushin it .
" your literally so childish oh my god !" I yell while walking into my closet and put on sweats mostly because it's kinda cold in the house and it's raining outside.
I walk downstairs with my laptop and realize Seth was packing for raw tomorrow. Arguing has got so bad that I could only assume he's gonna leave me. A couple tears fall down my face but I hear him come downstairs and I try to wipe them all.
I sit on the bar stool and check if I had any interviews . I heard my phone ring and saw Seth take a glance at who was calling and then turned back around to making coffee .
I pick up my phone and see the group chat of me, my dad , my mom and Simone FaceTiming me .


Me - " hey you guys !" I try to make my smile presentable but I can tell by the look on simones face , she knew something was wrong .
Mom- "hey baby "
Dad- " okay so I was thinking we book our flight on Sunday because kaylee had Friday night smackdown in philly and by the time she'll be back , we can leave " my dad says while eating something .
Mom- " leati (Roman reigns) , jimmy and jey are coming too right ?"
Simone- " yea they should be , right dad ?"
Dad- "yep they are ,so they're probably gonna ride back home with you kaylee"
Me- " okay!"
Me- " aren't you guys all in the same house ?" I laugh .
Mom- " your dads in the kitchen , I'm at the spa "
Simone- "and I'm upstairs in my room "
I laugh at them until they all hang up and I text the boys and let them know the plan until I feel eyes on me .
I slowly look up and see Seth staring at me
" what are you finally gonna talk now ?" I chuckle.
" so what flight are you taking on Sunday and where ..?" . I look back up at him with the most stank face ever . "So when I ask questions you ignore me but, you ask me questions and I have to answer ?"
" I'm just asking where your going !?" He starts getting semi loud .
" can you please STOP YELLING AT ME !" I yell .
" I'll just ask Roman ." He scoffs and starts walking away to his suitcase.
" I don't care ." I say and make sure he can here me cause I honestly didn't care .


" I'm leaving!" I hear him say and walk to the front door where he was . It was an awkward silence and I just stood there as he made his way out . I walked into the living room and sat on the couch with my knees to my chest and just listened to the rain fall .
I took this time and let all the tears fall out , since I was home alone . We never started arguing like this until we got married and even tho I don't show it , I'm breaking apart inside literally and I don't know how to tell anyone, even Seth. I know I told my dad and Simone but I refuse to tell anyone how I feel cause then people are gonna feel bad for me and then the words gonna get out and the whole world is gonna ask questions and make assumptions and I'm not ready for that .


20 minutes later I got up with tear stained cheeks and the rain cleared up so I decided to go to the spa . I changed my clothes and put on my Nike slides and headed out to my car and to the spa .


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ย  From the spa , I headed home and decided to have my makeup artist over and do my hair because I just wanted to feel pretty again .
It's been an hour since he (makeup artist) left and I feel somewhat better until I scrolled through Instagram and saw pregnancy pictures on my explore page and it just made me stop and think about the whole situation.
Am I even ready for a child? To answer your question, I . Dont . Know .
Let's not forget that if I do get pregnant, it could be more than one baby . It could be twins , triplets and more . I'm also scared out of my mind that I could lose the baby again but even if I was to get pregnant again , it doesn't change the fact of how much we are arguing and all the words that were said .
I walked upstairs and into our bathroom and took out all my makeup as hard as I could before the tears just spilled out. I stood in the mirror holding my stomach until I snap out of it and walk into the bedroom, throw off my shoes and pants and put on pajamas and threw my self under the covers and going to sleep hoping I could escape all the pain inside me right now .

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