" I love him .. I really do , b-but I think we need time alone ." I wipe my eyes and walk off .

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  Once the camera crew left and I was finished packing for smackdown and I was currently in the guest room . I looked at myself through the mirror and noticed how unhealthy I looked and I just broke down crying . I was leaned over with my elbows on each side of the sink and my hands holding my head .

My breathing had got harder as I stood up and slid down the wall
After five minutes I was still braking down and I heard the door open but I payed no attention until I felt arms slowly come around me and I knew they were seths and I just cried even harder and I felt Seth slide down and hold me .
" whyyy" I cried out and heard him sniff like he was crying. But I needed to be held, and that's what he did .  " shh" he whispered and rubbed his hand up my arm.
" I will always love you ... I-I don't know how I couldn't .." he whispers as his voice cracks , he must think I feel asleep in his arms but I'm still half way up. One more tear fell down my face and I felt myself being picked up and carried to the bed , but it was the guest room bed .
He puts the covers over me and I hear him sigh
" but I think -" he pauses .
" I think it's best if you do go away for a little " hi sniff and I could feel his presence walk away .

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   I woke up at 4 a.m and quietly walked into me and seths room and got my suitcase out of my closet and brought it downstairs and put it by the door .
I walked back upstairs into the guest room and used the bathroom , brushed my teeth , and changed out of my clothes into some black sweats and my salmon pink tank ;

I walk quietly back to my closet in our room and grab a zip up sweater in case I get cold . I walk back downstairs and grab an apple and a water , I kinda struggled with picking up my suitcase but I wasn't gonna wake Seth up and risk getting into another argument or making it awkward.
I made my way into the garage and put the suitcase in the back of the car instead of the trunk and put my water in the front . I walk back in the house and grab my bag and make sure all the lights are turned off and grab my phone and head back to my car and leave , this is gonna be a long drive .

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Hours later , the sun was out and I was finally in philly ! I already had my bags and suitcase in my room and I was just chilling until it was time for me to get ready and leave .
And btw , the finale of the episode that was filmed yesterday was gonna be on tomorrow so I won't have to deal with people telling me they're sorry and what not every minute.
But back to reality, I decided to just take a nap and take advantage of the peice and quiet.

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I wake up around five thirty and hurry up and get in the shower . I'm the type of person to take literally almost 2 hours in the shower and act like it's nothing .
I step out and dry myself off , put on lotion and go to my suitcase and put on my jean flair pants with my black short sleeve bodysuit and some sandals .
I grab my toiletries and go back to the bathroom and brush my teeth . I spray perfume and grab my bag with my gear and everything and make sure I have my keys , phone and keycard and head out to the elevator.
As the door opens , I step in and see Sasha .
" heyy !" We give each other a hug . " how you been ?" She ask me
I put on my best fake smile " I been good ,Me and Seth are good !" I tuck a piece of hair behind my ear .
She smirks " that's goo-" the elevator had cut her off and we both walked out and stopped to say hi to the other wrestlers and all went our separate ways .

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I made it to the stadium and walk in with my bag heading to the locker room and changing into my gear ;

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I make sure everything is on right and make my way out to hair and makeup and hear pyro and loud cheers meaning the show had started .
" I got an open chair !" One of the makeup/hairstylist Tessa has said . She was one of the best and did most of the girls makeup and even some of the guys.

Bailey , Sasha , dolph and Alexa were sitting in chairs chilling and getting their hair done " thank you !" I smile and sit in her chair and she starts straightening my hair .
" hey kJ !" I  hear and look up and see Montez ( Montez Ford. Also him and Bianca are now together )
" there's my favorite person !" I smile and he comes over. " oh I feel special !" We both laugh and one of the wwe camera man that usually post on the wwe page on instagram comes and films us .
" also we are going somewhere! After smackdown live !" Montez says to the camera and my face turns confused
" wha- where are we going !?" I laugh .
" to the zoo ! Yeah !!" He says loud , you know how he his 🤣.
" I guess we're going to the zoo ,wwe universe !  Tune in tomorrow! Now don't you got a match soon ?" I laugh and his eyes go wide .
" I think I better go ! Peace out " he runs away and everyone just laughs at his foolishness and the camera man ask me if he can post that on insta and I told him yes and he leaves .
Tessa walks in front of me and puts my eye contacts in ;

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My hair and makeup was done and I'm currently walking to catering as Roman just joined me .
" we're going to your house ...tomorrow right?"
He asked me as we waved at some wrestlers as we walked pass them .
" um y-yeah " . He stoped walking and stopped me too and I looked confused.
" what's wrong kJ ?" . Roman always knew when something was wrong and so did the twins .
I started fiddling with my fingers " I um- before we all head to my house I need to talk to you and the twins, meet me out in the back ." I tell him and he goes off to find the twins and I walk out to the back and outside thankful that there wasn't no cameras and not too much people .