Chapter 13- morning guilt

Toby awoke before tim, which came as a surprise cause tim was always the one who awoken first. Now that toby had faced what he didnt want to do he felt guilt. It didnt feel good at all, he felt lost and confused but he had no idea why, he felt himself becoming a bit shy. He'd exposed all of himself to the one whos put him through hell and back but still a part of him felt relief, another part of him was horrified. What if masky just kicked him out in the morning?
"I never had this kind of thing before.." Toby whispered to himself as he sat up. His eyes felt damp, his vision a little blurry with a burning sensation in his whole face turning red as the tears fell from his eyes. Everything toby ever wanted was right there, laying down in the same bed as him sleeping peacefully and he feared to awaken him cause then what he loves infront of him he may see no more of.
He heard knocking at the door, masky sat up toby jumped almost out of his skin hearing the man behind him awake.
"Jumpy today?" Masky laughed a little and rubbed tobys shoulders. "Relax. It was a uh.. Rough confusing night i guess. Forget about it all if you want." Masky whispered.
What did he mean by forget it? He expects me to forget what we did after all he wanted and now hes saying to forget it? Toby thought to himself but then shook his head and stood up.
"I'll g-go out and eat now. Come if you want or you k-know, just forget about breakfast" toby mumbled and left the room, tim groaned in annoyance. As how toby took what he said the wrong way, he just didnt want toby to have shit on his mind all day bothering himself.
"I dont even know if i know who he is anymore." Toby whsipered to himself as he walked to the kitchen.
"Whats wrong, you look lost in thought like in those movies or something" ben punched tobys shoulder softly and gave a smile.
"Uh, i sh-shouldnt be going aro-"
"Was it masky? I know. Hes always cheated and fucked with peoples feelings. I've been here almost as long as him, i know all his little scemes. Just never give him what he wants, let him beg until he stops begging and sees more in you."
"I did-didnt knuh-know you were wise, fuckface, bu-but too late fo-for that advice." Toby rolled his eyes. Masky creeped around the corner he was going to hug toby from behind, but stopped when ben was there and decided he'd wait til ben left.


"So, maybe to take your mind off tim we could hamg out for the day? Play video games or some shit you know. Go out to town and go to some stores"
"Shopping? When'd you get so gay ben."
"Says the one thats actually gay!"
They both laughed at eachother as tim still watched as toby made friends with ben, they'd never properly talked before only glance at eachother every know and then.


"Hah... Yea-yeah i'd u-uh love to spend the day wi-with you"
Ben smiled, "after breakfast want to head out?" Toby nodded. Ben left.


"Didnt take you long to make friends with ben, an asshole." Masky laughed a little and hugged toby from behind, kissing at the hickies spread across his neck from the night before.
"I dont think a cheater should be calling someone an asshole." Toby scoffed, masky was taken back a little but ignored it and kissed tobys lips softly.
"I already apologized for that."
"Apologies dont make everything change, doesnt turn back time and doesnt change what you did. They're worthless." Toby didnt look at tim, trying hard not to give into his kisses, they tasted of tobacco.
"Much like myself." Masky spoke softly with a hurt tone and a tired tone, not looking at toby, then left to the kitchen.
Toby stared blankly as the other male left the room.
"That man is so confusing...." Toby thought to himself.
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Sorry for the long wait for a short chapter, going through some things i'll try better next chapter ❤️

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