Chapter 10 - fuck you

Masky sat on the couch, with some weird televison show playing, something toby seemed really into at the moment in time but tim had no idea what the actual fuck was going on in the show so he struck his focus to what he had just did. Maybe he had pretended Hoodie was toby? Was he frustrated because he could easily have sex with hoodie but when he tries to do it with toby someone or something comes up? I dont know, i feel so horrible. The guilt is burning my whole stomach and heart
Tim wrapped his arm of toby, he seen Toby crack a slight smile and masky felt like his heart was melting and breaking at the same time, it wasnt fair.
"tobbbyyy~" masky purred and stuck his face into tobys neck, toby felt maskys warm tongue on his neck and shivered.
"Remember what happened last time we tried to have get heated on this couch?" Toby laughed a little, i rolled my eyes as toby ruined my mood. I mean, he wasnt wrong though. We'd probably get interupped again by someone if we did it here in the livingroom where anyone at anytime may walk in. Especially Jeff.
"Fine, lets go to the room then."
Toby looked a little nervous as sweat came off his forehead.
"But baby im watch-watching m-muh-my show.." Toby mumbled, fumbling his words.
"Is the stupid show more important than me all of a sudden?" Masky raised his eyebrow, he had his mask off he hasnt worn it in awhile actually, since Toby always prefered seeing tims actual face. Nor did toby ever wear his mask unless he was going out to missions.
"No of cours-course n-not... Ju-just im no-not in the mood"
Masky frowned a little and pulled toby into his lap straddling his hips.
"You sure?" Masky smirked up at him as he slowly slid his hand up tobys shirt causing a gasp from toby as Tim placed a bud between his two fingers and started to twist it around, he earned small quiet noises from toby.
"I-i don-dont wan-want th-this-" toby got cut off by tims lips connecting to his, toby of course kissed back and moaned slightly into the heated passionate kiss, but soon pulled away and tried to get off of masky.
"I re-really mean it tim! I dont want to!"
Masky lookes at him blankly
"We get the one chance to actually have sex and you're blowing it off? Are you actually fucking serious?" Masky felt a little bit of his temper start to go up. He looked toby dead in the eye and stared. Toby looked back at him.
"Ti-tim. Ca-calm d-.."
"Dont tell me to calm down, are you fucking kidding me? We've wanted to do this forever and now you suddenly dont want to lke god dammit stop messing with you're fucking me over."
Tobys eyes went wide and tears started suddenly flowing out of his eyes.
"YOU WANTED TO DO THIS NOT ME DONT PUT WORDS IN MY MOUTH I DIDNT SAY
I NEVER DID WANT SEX I WANTED TO BE WITH YOU AND WAIT FOR THE RIGHT TIME I WAS SCARED YOU WANTED ME FOR SKIN AND RIGHT WHEN YOU GOD DAMN GOT IT YOU WOULD LEAVE AND THATS EXACTLY WHAT YOU'RE FUCKUNG DOING RIGHT NOW" Toby snapped at tim, toby dropped to the floor, burrying his face in his hands and sobbing, he felt like the tears just wouldnt stop coming.
"You know what? Fuck you Toby. Fuck you." Masky mumbled, getting up for the couch.
"Cause of you i've been getting all the tension i have between me and you not being able to have sex on hoodie. And i guess thats exactly who i'll go back to, since you seem to be fucking around with me-" masky realized what he just had let slip. Masky now was the one in tears.
"Toby wait i didnt-"
"Fuck you." Toby slapped tim, leaving the room with loud piercing foot steps.
Masky felt his heart began to break
"GOD DAMMIT TIM YOU'RE FUCKING USELESS" tim yelled at himself punching the wall, leaving a hole and bruises on his knuckles.
"Im such a fucking idoit" masky repeated that sentence thousands of times to himself over and over.
"I should'nt have even fucking fucked around with hoodie and been a better me why did i have to be the old me again i hate myself what the actual fuck is wrong with me" masky was in a panic, maybe a panic attack, he wanted toby and was in shock and frustration of what just happened and what happened between him and hoodie. He just didnt know what he was going to do anymore.
He loved toby
He more than loved toby but theres no word for it he cannot put a simple word on how he feels about toby and he actually let sex frustrate him? Was it because of hoodie that he got mad that toby wouldnt give him sex but hoodie had given it to him? At that time, he felt like toby didnt love him enough to trust him with his body. But then again, now he realized every word he had say. Obviously toby had heard rumours about masky while they've been together that tim "uses people for skin then leaves" basically everyone in the mansion knows about tims relationships and how bad he is at them.
And now he hurt the one he actually wanted.

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