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Your POV:

Your sitting on the bed with Rivers dead body, covered in blood. You feel so dizzy... so overwhelmed from the trauma. You fell asleep not caring that a dead body is right next to you. 

When Rivers layed on the bed you went on top him and stabbed him in the arm. He screamed in pain then went to choke you with his other arm. When you felt his hands on your neck you broke. You took the iron rod and just stabbed him until you couldn't hear him breathe anymore, or maybe even longer. You were just got lost in your anger. Rivers was the one who took you away from Spencer, who put my baby's life at risk, who made you tell Spence one of the most happiest news in his life in the most horrible situation. You were so angry you just kept stabbing him until you got tired.

You thought about the whole thing over and over again. You thought about taking the car and driving, but you were just so exhausted and didn't even feel anything. You layed back down on the bed and fell asleep.

You must've been asleep for a couple hours now, when you woke up you saw the dim light coming outside from the sunrise. You woke up to the sound of a bunch of cars pulling up to the house. You got up and walked to the door. When you opened the door you saw 4 black SUV'S. My team. They found me.

I just stood there I was in shocked. I forgot about there arrival until I felt the light touch of someone hugging me. You didn't even realize that you were still just in your in pants and underwear from last night. 

"Y/N! are you okay, are you hurt" Spencer asked crying while pulling me closer to him. 

" I...I killed him" you said as you broke down crying. You almost fell to the ground but Spence caught you. He slowly brought the both of you guys to the ground and just held onto you. You couldn't stop crying. The funny thing is you didn't feel anything, you just couldn't stop crying. You tried to say something to Reid but you couldn't. All you could do was cry. 

Spence lifted you up and held you up straight. He scanned you looking up and down making sure the blood on you wasn't coming from you. Once he realized you were okay he took off his windbreaker and covered me up. 

"omg y/n, reid take her inside of the car", Emily said with her eyes wide.

"he... his body is in the room" you said with no expression at all, you tried so hard to say something to reid a sign that you were okay. But you couldn't. He lifted you up like a princess and carried you to the car. He sat you down in the seat and was about to leave, most likely to make sure Rivers was actually dead. 

"Don't leave me... please" you begged as you grabbed his arm, right before he was about to walk away. Spencer looked at you in a way he has never looked at you before. His eyes that were filled with just pure.. pain. Nothing but pain you saw coming from him. You put your hands around Spencer neck and pulled him closer to you. You pulled as close to you as possible, your foreheads eventually 

"I'm so sorry spence I-" you began but Reid cut you off

"Hey....Hey you have nothing to be sorry for okay, Rivers did this not you... and you did what you had to do to survive.... you are so brave y/n" he whispered while tears running down his face.

"Spence can we go home now please" you asked. You just wanted to be back at Spencer's apartment more specifically in his bed while he just holds you. Spencer nodded and called Hotch over.

"Can I take her home Hotch" Spence whispered to Hotch. Hotch looked at me for a second, then turned back to facing reid. Hotch nodded and stood steal for a moment before reaching over and giving me a hug. This surprised you Hotch never really hugged you. I mean I could barely get a smile half the time. You held onto Hotch, "I love you y/n... and I'm so sorry this happened" Hotch whispered in my ear. "I love you too" you respond before letting go. 

Spencer moved you to the passenger seat so you would be closer to him. You were about to leave when you heard Morgan and JJ yell for you guys to wait. Spence pushed on the brakes and unlocked the door so Morgan and JJ could open my door.

"Hey princess, I...I missed you" Morgan said leaning in for a hug. When morgan hugged you, you felt him start to cry. You started rubbing his back to comfort him. "C'mon big boy.. I am okay... Now stop crying before you make me cry again" you say trying hold back your tears and sound strong so Morgan won't feel so bad. Morgan let out a slight chuckle and let go. He said goodbye and turned around.

When Morgan left you saw JJ come to the door crying. She open her arms gesturing you to give her a hug. I leaned forward and wrapped my arms around her. "I thought I lost you y/n.. I can't let that happen again your my best friend... your like my sister y/n... I need you... I love you" JJ whispered while bawling her eyes out. you  squeezed her so tight and just stayed silent for a minute. She eventually pulled away. "JJ... I love you soo much okay.. and your right you have become like a sister to me and I appreciate everything, but it is going to take a lot more then some freak to take me away from you okay" you say never losing eye contact with JJ. With that JJ shut you door and Spence started to drive away.

( this chapter sucks i am so so sorry. I will try to post tmr but yk world series game. I will most likely give you guys at least one chapter. Also tried a new way with structuring my story so ya.. thank you all for the support!!! if you guys have any suggestions or recommendations just tell me)