Chapter 42 - Determination

Ah gosh, the comments from last chapter had me dying. I was doing nothing but smiling and laughing while reading through them. I can assure you, Alayne will get whats coming to her, but I can't say when or how. 


I apologize for not being able to update more often but this lad's got too many things to do week round.  I'd love to focus on writing but there are other things I want to focus on as well, so I have to balance them out.




-Picture of Keegan (Collin Ford)




Keegan's POV






I got off of the school bus, excited for school. I know that's an odd thing for most people but school is like the only place I'm surrounded by people who like me. Its like a temporary escape from my endless nightmare.




I stopped by the stairs to the school, waiting for Theo. I didn't see his car in the parking lot so I'm assuming he still has yet to arrive.




After a couple minutes he pulled in the parking lot and came from around the corner of the school.




"Hey Theo." I greeted excitedly.




"What were you doing here on friday after class?" He asked suddenly, ignoring my greeting.




"What a way to greet someone." I said with satire.




"Answer the question!" He yelled, worrying me. Had something gone wrong, did I do something?




"A-alright." I stuttered, fear clear in my tone. I thought back to friday realizing that was the day phase two of Operation Theo took place. I couldn't tell him about that could I? I mean I'm literally trying to win him over in secret, it wouldn't make any sense if I just said it out right. I quickly ran over every possible cover up.




"I was getting some books and left over schoolwork from my locker." Is that really what I settled for? Now that it was said out loud it doesn't seem as convincing. Theo's gaze sharpened with his eyes becoming void of light. His dark expression made my heartbeat drop as if time itself had frozen. He just turned away not speaking another word.




"Uh Theo... is something wrong?" I asked, nervously following behind him.




"Don't talk to me." He commanded in a deep, heavy voice. His words almost stopped me in place, but I kept pressing. I wanted to know what was wrong. Theo's never acted this way towards me before.




"Theo... wait! What's wrong?" I asked trying to keep up with him. My legs were shaking non-stop, making it a difficult task.




"I need space." He growled, stopping me in my tracks. I couldn't comprehend what was going on. D-did I do something wrong? I was dying for an answer but he wouldn't talk to me, so I left it alone. He walked away, leaving me at the door.




I figured I'd ask Alayne what was going on with Theo. When I got to my locker she was nowhere to be found. It was a little strange since she either meets me at the entrance of the school, the halls or my locker but I hadn't seen her once. She wasn't even near her locker.




I went to class feeling uneasy. I couldn't focus on anything anyone was saying. It wasn't until my next class that I snapped out of it, that was when I saw Alayne walking in. I sat there waiting for her to greet me but nothing... she didn't even look my way. I was beginning to feel petrified, something must be going on.




I called out to Alayne after class ended but she kept walking like she couldn't hear me. My words not reaching her made everything feel more like a nightmare.




During lunch period I headed over to the cafeteria hoping to find everyone there. I'll just stroll in like everything is normal and hopefully its just Theo that is upset with whatever I did. I went up to the line and got an apple, a carton of chocolate milk, two slices of bread and some vegetables. I waited a moment, readying myself for whatever was about to happen. With every step it felt like the weight of my feet doubled, it got to the point where I almost fled, but I realized I couldn't leave things the way they are. I can't go back to living life like this... alone, I had to at least try.




When I finally reached their table all of their eyes locked sight on me, making me super uneasy. They sat there, watching me silently. It was the same for me, I didn't move, I couldn't at this point. I was too scared to do anything. They weren't wearing faces of friends, their expression showed nothing other than disgust and disapproval. It was like I was some stranger who decided to randomly eat lunch with them. A few more seconds of awkward silence passed before Ash broke it.




"Look man... we don't really want you here." He said not meeting my eyes. For a split second it all seemed like a joke but as time passed everything became all too real. Everyone's faces seemed to be a clear sign they agreed with Ash. I dropped my tray on the table and walked out of the cafeteria... then the school. On my way out I overheard Nicki whisper "He really has the nerve to show up in front of us after what he did?". What did she mean by that? What have I done to deserve this?




I sat outside the school grounds waiting for it to end so I could catch a bus back home. I just can't stop going over what happened in my head. Was this their way of ditching me? Was this planned all along? I'm not the greatest person in the world but I figured I could at least have a friend, someone who sticks by me through thick and thin. The final bell eventually rang with kids pouring out of the building moments later. In the midst of those students I spotted Theo. I stood from my seat and hastily made my way in front of him.




"What's going on... why are you all avoiding me?" I ask with my voice unintentionally going shaky.




"Look, get out of my way, I don't have time for this." He said, moving me to the side himself. I didn't push the conversation any further. I let him walk away and hung my head low in defeat.




I got on the bus back to my neighborhood and headed in for work. I didn't let what happened today effect my work, if anything I was more determined. Everything may be bad at the moment but if I keep trying I'm sure... I'm sure I'll be able to fix it. That thought is what got me through the day.




I finished work without any problems. Even though I was distracted I managed to pull through. I returned to the house to find it empty. At least everything isn't all bad today, right? I don't have to endure another beating from my father.




I sat awake in my bed, thinking of a plan, or a way to find out why everyone is avoiding me. None of them will talk if they're together, and that's the problem... they're always together, they always cling to Theo. I have to figure out a way to speak with them individually. The only time periods where that is likely to happen would be early on in the day, maybe as soon as they arrive at school, or when they're heading home... so that means I'll only be able to talk with two of them a day, and that's if I'm lucky.




The first thing I did was head to the bus stop. I skipped breakfast cause I felt like things would go faster this way, but now that I'm sitting here waiting for the bus it seems like a wasted effort. When the bus did finally arrive I hopped on and sat near the front this time, hoping to exit before anyone else. I didn't want to be barricaded behind a wall of students when I needed to be inside early. Thankfully when the bus stopped I was able to squeeze my way out before everyone else. I charged for the school looking for any familiar faces. It wasn't until I got inside that I found one, Nicki's to be precise. I strode over to her while searching the area for anyone that may interrupt our conversation. I waited for her to turn the next corner before speaking to her.




"Hey... Nicki."




"Ew, stay away from me." She said, scrunching her face. It made me feel more like a stranger than I already had.




"Please, I just want to ask you something. Why are you all avoiding me. No one will talk to me or even look at me!" I pleaded.




"I think its time you dropped the innocent act." She scoffed before walking off. I seriously have no idea whats going on. A long sigh escaped my mouth. I guess she wasn't going to be of any help. 




I did my best to focus in class while planning my next move. I still wanted my grades to be high enough so that I can graduate. During class Alayne was ignoring me again. Me and her were the closest out of everyone, besides Theo of course. I can't believe she'd just stop being my friend overnight. Something must have happened, and I'm going to find out what.




Just as class ended I ran over to Alayne and dragged her away from the other students. She looked worried, like I was going to hurt her. What they think I did must be something pretty bad, it would be hard to deny with the way they're acting.




"Alayne! Why are you guys pushing me away?" I asked, sounding more desperate this time. It could have been me but it seemed like a flash of sadness and pain crossed her face.




"I'm sorry Keegan... I can't. I have to go." She said before walking away.




"Alayne! Why can't you tell me?!" I yelled, but she kept on walking. I continued watching her until she disappeared behind a corner.




I wanted to skip lunch so bad but I'd already passed up breakfast so I couldn't skip another meal. I mean, I'm used to it... but that's the thing, I'm already under weight, I shouldn't be skipping meals. I pulled out a tray and got the usual. I chose to sit at the table furthest away from them, that wasn't occupied anyway. Sometime through lunch I felt their eyes burning holes through me. I could help but to sneak a glance, and sure enough they were all staring at me. I lowered my head feeling guilty, like I'd actually done something wrong. I made sure to be the first one out of there. I took large bites of my food and chewed as little as I could. I don't think I could have lasted another second with their eyes on me like that, I might have broken down.




After all my classes ended I searched around the school one final time for the day, looking for either Ash, Stacie or Brandon. To my misfortune I didn't find any of them. I got on the bus and headed to work.




As I entered the door bell went off signaling an excited Sandra to the door.




"Hey Keegan! You ready for work?" She asked, pulling out my apron.




"Yeah." I replied with little enthusiasm. She turned to me and eyed me for a moment. I stood still, curious to her intentions.




"Is something wrong?" She noticed, setting down my apron.




"No, not really." I lied. She continued eying me then handed me the apron, probably knowing something was up.




"I apologize I don't have more time to talk with you, its just I have a lot of work to do and all the paperwork won't file itself." She informed. "Work was barely manageable here before you came, that's why I put up those fliers and ads. It took a lot of weight off both Micheal and I when we did get an application." She explained further.




"Things will only get better now that Shaine's here on dish washing duty." Sandra announced.




"Shaine?" I inquired with a curious look.




"Yeah, remember when I told you we were getting a new dish washer?" She asked. Now that she mentions it I do recall something like that.




"Anyway I gotta get back to work. Don't forget to greet Shaine!" Sandra said with a wave.




I sighed before putting on my apron. Everything in my life is getting so complicated. While my drive and determination are much lower than yesterday I'm still not ready to give up. I manned the front desk for awhile but it didn't seem like anyone was coming in. While waiting for the door bell to go off I heard noises from the back, it sounded like dishes clanking. It reminded me to introduce myself to the new employee. I did a quick scan of the near by area to make sure no one was coming in and headed for the back. I peaked around the corner and saw the back of a figure sporting long black hair. They were washing the piles of dirty dishes that were lying around.




"Um... Hi." I greeted, hesitantly creeping up to them. They turned to me revealing their face. Its a girl. She looked to be around my age, maybe a year or two older. Her appearance resembled Chloe a bit.




"What do you want?" She asked, her voice flat and toneless.




"I uh... just wanted to introduce myself." I said nervously. She stood there arms folded, waiting for me to speak further.




"Oh... right, I'm Keegan, Keegan Canterberry." I introduced.




"Hi." She said with a sour tone before dropping her arms and going back to the dishes.




Okay well she certainly isn't the most friendly person. She didn't even give me her name... Well I mean, I know its Shaine, but that's it, that's all I know about her, that and she's not very friendly.




Just as I returned to the front a couple came stumbling in. They looked like they were about middle aged, and the guy was definitely drunk.




"Can I get two plates of-" The woman paused, scanning the list. "Chicken and rice?" She finished.




"Sure." I replied with a smile. As I was heading to give Sandra their order the girl stopped me for something else.




"Ah, could I also get a glass of water? He needs it after all the beer he drank." She said looking at him with a displeased expression.




"Sure." I answered again. I looked over to the guy and he seemed like he was about to go under any second.




"Is he going to be alright?" I asked, making sure everything was okay before I left.




"Yeah, he just had a little too much to drink is all. I'm sure a nice meal and a glass of water will straighten him up." She assured with a small wave.




"Mind your own damn business, fag." He spat out with fire in his voice.




"Ignore him. He gets like this when he's drunk." She rolled her eyes. I smiled and went to the back. I told Sandra the order and she went to the kitchen and quickly cooked it up. While she was doing that I went to get the guy his water. I tried the water dispenser but found that it was empty. I apologized to the couple, telling them that their order would take a little longer. I ran into the back looking for any replacement jugs but didn't know where they kept them. The only other place with water was... the sink. I sighed to myself before approaching Shaine.




"Can I get a glass of water?" I asked hopeful. "The water dispenser is empty and there is a couple waiting out there an-" I began to explain, but was cut off by her.




"Dude, just get the water." She said moving to the side. I gave her a thankful smile before filling the glass.




"Whats taking so damn long?!" The guy yelled from the front.




"Sorry, I'll be right there!" I answered back, anxiously scrambling my way back while trying not to spill the glass.




"You should have just given the prick dishwater." Shaine snarked on my way out, making me unintentionally giggle.




"Here you are." I said as I placed the glass in front of the man.




"Took you long enough." He groaned. If I didn't know any better I would've taken this guy for a rotting corpse with the way he slouched over the counter. 




Soon enough Sandra was coming out with two plates of chicken and rice. The woman got excited while the man continued groaning.




When they were finally done eating I noticed how much more human the guy looked. He was able to sit up properly. He was still drunk but he looked better than before. On their way out the woman gave me a tip. I thanked her with a grateful smile.




"Y'know, you're not so bad kid." The half drunk man said before following the woman out of the diner. Another small smile crawled onto my face




The rest of the day continued in a similar manner, with a few costumers here and there. Before I knew it it was time to head home. 




------I'll try having the next chapter out around (Saturday).



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