Depressed! Shu x Reader (You're Not Okay)

Okay if you didn't read this deals with DEPRESSION, so if you're not comfortable with this then please leave imeadeatly.


SHU'S POV
No one gets it. I have everything I want, I'm a great blader, I have girls chasing me, and good friends. The only thing is, I'm really lonely in real life. It seems like no one cares and besides (y/n) and Valt, everyone just seems to fake. I have no parents to confine in.
This has been going on for two years. Everyday cut, slice, blood, with my knife. I've warn longer red gloves to cover up the scars and to make the blood blend in with the color. No one has ever noticed. I keep my fake face on and pretend that everything is okay but it's not. The only person that has kept me going was (y/n). I love her. The only thing is, I don't even think she likes me back. Either way I still love her, but if nothing good happens soon, I'm going to be going soon. Goodbye to this world soon, cause this just isn't my place.


AT SCHOOL
YOUR POV
All of us were upstairs training when Shu wasn't even there. That worried me a bit. I know he's been acting weird lately and he has changed his short red glove for two long red ones.
He would always ask to go to the bathroom at least once wherever he went. It didn't matter if he went just five minutes ago. This worries me a lot. And with his attitude, forget it. That happy boy was gone, he was just faking it. He had a fake smile.
Today I decided to confront him about this to maybe stop the problem. I walked up to him and talk to Shu. "Hey Why! How are you doing today?"
"Fine (y/n), I'm doing just okay." Shu replied with another fake smile.
I pulled him over to the side to talk to him. "Shu, I know something is up, please tell me what it is. I want to make sure you're okay." I stated in a worried tone.
Shu was taken aback by this. "I'm completely fine. I don't know what you're talking about?" He replied adding a nervous laugh.
"Shu, no you're not. I know you're not okay, you've changed. Your personality is different. You covered up half of both of you're arms." I reached down to grab his arm, then he instantly pulled it back. "What are you hiding from me?! Please Shu, if there is a problem you need to tell me."
"You really want to know what's going on? I'm on an endless spiral going down into the darkness. There are these voices in my head not stopping until I'm dead." After I heard that I embraced Shu in a hug. Then Shu broke down, he cried and cried into my (h/l) (h/c) hair. I rubbed circles on his back and whispered soothing words.
"Can you please help me (y/n). I don't know what to do." Shu kept crying.
"How long has this been going on for." I tried saying as comforting as possible.
"Two years. I've felt lonely. Almost everyone seems fake besides you and Valt." This comment made me blush a bit. I like him so much. It hurts me to see him like this. Everything will work out.
"Shu, let me come over so we can talk about this somewhere more private." He nodded as we walked to his home.


SHU'S HOUSE
"So, what have you exactly been doing?" I asked.
"Cutting myself, a lot more. I've had some suicidal thoughts." Shu replied.
"Look, here's what we can do. Give me what you've been cutting yourself with." I stated.
He went to his room and I heard a noise like opening a closet. He came back with a small razor that had been covered with dried blood. It seemed like Shu had used this razor many times. He then handed it to me. "Hide this from me." Shu said.
I hid it in a place where he couldn't find it, my backpack. "Ok, now let me bandage up those wounds on your arms." With that I got his medical kit and wrapped the white bandages around his arms. After that I feel asleep on his couch.


AT NIGHT
I woke to a rustling. My eyes shot open as I saw a certain white haired male searching through my (color) bag. "Shu!"
He was shocked that I woke up, I saw he had something silver in his hand. "This, this is not what it looks like. I-" I interupted him with a hug. Then I took away the blade in his hand.
"Please don't go. Don't leave this world." Tears steamed out of my eyes. All thoughts went throughout my head. What if he died tomorrow? What if I never got to tell him how I felt?
"I'm sorry (y/n), I tried so hard all night to try to not to return back to my ways. Maybe this world isn't for me (y/n). Almost everyone here is fake. I'm just paranoid. Voices in my head won't go away."
"Please don't go. We all need you here. I-I need you here." With that Shu then used his bandaged hand to lift up my chin to face him.
"Do you really mean that?" Shu stated with disbelief.
"I like you Shu Kurenai. There's no doubt about it." I replied. A smile spread across my face.
"Well, I like you too." Shu then pulled my face closer to his and kissed me. He then deepened the kiss as his hands moved towards my waist as I wrapped my arms around his neck. Shu then pulled back. "I'll try harder to make sure I don't try to do this again (y/n). As long as you accept being my girlfriend."
A clear blush aligned my face. "O-okay." I replied as I was cursing myself for studdering. "J-just promise me, you won't leave this world by choice."
"I will (y/n)." This was the first time I felt like Shu was actually okay.


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1030 words!


Thank you shukurenaixd for requesting! Also, please request people I am running out of ideas which is bad. Anyways, I hope you enjoyed the one-shot!


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