s i x t y


I WAS SITTING. I could tell that much. I move my head as my senses slowly come back to me, but with them was a pulsing thud in my brain and a high pitch screech between my ears. Confused, I flicker my eyes open and am bombarded with an abundance of natural light. 


When my focus returns, I watch as scenery whips past me and I'm perpetually propelled forward. I begin panting heavily as anxiety and suffocating confusion takes over. I move my head to the left to see Luke sitting in the seat beside me. He glances out of the corner of her eye, smiles and reaches forward to turn down the radio volume. 


"Oh great, you're awake." He greets me as he places both hands back on to the staring wheel. My head was pounding so I reach up and my fingertips find something wet on the side of my head. I bring my hand back down to my gaze. Blood. So much of it. "You're so cute when you're aslee—" 


I pounce on the door handle and begin pulling it back with as much strength as I could remember. 


"You know,it takes 48 hours before someone can be reported missing?" Luke continues to explain calmly while I continued to violently claw at the passenger door at my side, "I mean, luck for us you've push—wha—no—baby you're going to hurt yourself." 


When my assault on the door handle came up short, I resorted to banging on the glass and screamed for my fucking life, "HELP ME! HEEEEEEELP!" 


"As I was saying, it's quite lucky that you've already pushed your friends away. I mean, they fucking hate you now." Luke laughs like it was so damn hilarious. I grunt in pain as I slam my elbow against the hard glass. What the fuck was this made out of?  "Chase is already over you now so I doubt he's going to care and your friends were never truly your friends, Hayden. I was." 


"Do you also know what you are?" I snap as I turn to him, "Fucking psychotic!" 


He takes a quick, sharp and hard inhale as he takes a few seconds to calm himself, "Baby, we've been over this—" 


"What? The fact that you literally belong straight jacket or the fact that you've just straight up kidnapped me?" I ramble, my rage exploding like an untameable fire within me. 


"Oh come on, don't be like that. I'm doing this for you." Luke explains with a pout that I somehow use to believe was adorable. Now I wanted to rip his damn lips from his face. "Once we get away, we can start anew in a different country. How's your french, I'm told France is beautiful at this time of the year." 


I laugh, "Good luck getting me out of the fucking country." 


"You're not the only one with hacker friends. Don't you worry your pretty little head, Hayden. I've planned everything." Luke replies calmly with a sleezy grin, "I've got us new passports—how do you like the name Isabella? I thought it was super pretty. I will miss those beautiful golden locks of yours Hayden, but I'm sure you'll be able to suit black hair just as much. 


"Oh my fucking god Luke! Do you even hear yourself right now?" I exclaim loudly, hoping I can somehow get through to the boy I meet in the elevator so many months ago. "Take me back." 


He exhales, "I can't do that Hayden." 


"Fucking take me back!" I scream before reaching over and grabbing a hold of the steering wheel. I was too terrified to think straight, I just wanted to get out of this damn car and away from him. 


The vehicle starts to swerve all over the road and luckily we were the only ones on it. Luke tries to pry my hands off and regain control, but I keep my grip steady. 


"Shit, Hayden!" Luke grunts as I struggle to stay steady in the violently swaying car. Luke raises his elbow and hits me hard in the temple. I go flying back into the passenger door and my head slams against the glass window. Then everything goes black, numb and cold. 


Ah shit, here we go again. 


 ♤♤♤♤


The pounding in my head was worse than before. I realised this as I tried to sit up from my lying position, only to fall back down. My skull felt so fucking heavy and my neck was basically crumbling under it's weight. 


I also realised that I was handcuffed. My eyes dart around the dim and dusty motel room, noticing it's emptiness. With a spike in adrenaline levels, I heave myself up with a painful cry and throw my legs over the side of the bed. Luke's jacket was hung over the back of the chair and I quickly scramble over to it. 


Furiously, I check all the pockets for a phone. And then the door opens. 


"Ah, ah, ah." Luke tsks his tongue at me. I glare over my shoulder to see him holding up his phone with a large smile on his face, "I'm sorry Hayden, but I can't have you messing up everything I worked so hard for." 


My shoulders droop in defeat as Luke pockets his phone and places the small bucket of ice onto the table. He grabs a few cubes out, wraps it in a towel and gestures for me to sit on the edge of the bed. I do so. 


"I should apologise for hitting you with that rock." Luke mutters as he stands before me and places the wrapped ice to my head. I hiss and flinch away from the pain but Luke continues to press it gently, "You left me no other choice, baby." 


"No other choice?" I scoff as I glare up at him, "Luke, you had a fucking million other choices!" 


"Well, if you had just admitted your feelings to me than this whole thing could have been avoided." Luke explains as he continues to ice the side of my head that was now dried with blood, "I like girls who play hard to get, but this is just getting old now." 


"Did Sofia play hard to get? Huh? You fucking perv." I seethe through my teeth as Luke sighs and walks back to the ice bucket. 


"I've told you Hayden, Sofia means nothing to me. It's you I love." Luke explains, once again completely ignorant to my hateful words. What the hell is going on up inside his head? He empties the ice back into bucket and folds the hand towel neatly, "You know I would never hurt you right?" 


"Yeah, tell that to the fucking blood running out of my skull!" I scream, hoping those in the other rooms could hear my. My voice cracks and my throat explodes with pain from the dryness. 


"You're not making this easy for me, Hayden." Luke points a finger at me as he steps towards me. 


I push up to my feet and meet him, "Like I'm fucking supposed to?" 


We glared at each other for a while. I was honestly just waiting for him to hit my again, but instead he swoops down and presses his lips to mine. I try to move away but he holds the back of my head firm with one hand. I struggle against his body pushing and pushing but he wouldn't let me go.   I feel his tongue try to pry its way through my lips and quickly, I bite down on the soft flesh. 


"Fuck!" Luke shouts as he pushes me back. I fall onto the bed and watch as he places a hand under his mouth. He flips around, "That's not how you kiss someone, Hayden." 


"I know, I meant to rip your fucking tongue out but you pushed me away so soon. Such a disappointment." I dead pan with a blank expression as Luke rolls his eyes and walks into the adjacent bathroom. He returns a few moments later with a wet towel in his mouth. "Why are you doing this?" 


"Because I love you." Luke explains as he drops to his knees below me. With his free hand he moves a strand of blonde hair behind my ear, "Chase didn't deserve you." 


Chase Everett deserved every last thing this world had to offer. I'm the one who doesn't deserve someone as great and wonderful as him. I'm a fucking coward and this is where cowards end up. 


I spit sharply, my saliva landing right on his face, "You fucking asshole." 


"Not the best pet name, " Luke sighs as he wipes his face, stands and moves away from me, "But we'll work on it." 



today (nz time) is the 21st of september which, in the universe of my book, is chase's birthday!


he's still 18 at the time of the book though and is 45 days older than hayden, which she always fucking despised because he gets to use the 'respect your elders' bullshit.


so in honour of his birthday, it's a double update!


also i'm super sorry i've been a shit uploader and that the uploads are so short i've just been dealing with some heavy stuff 


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