It's a few days after mine and ashtrays kiss. I still have butterflies thinking about the half an hour make out we had after the first short kiss we exchanged.

But even if I can't stop thinking about it, my week hasn't gone too good since I'm sick. The thing that's turned my week around is my little sister is back home after living with my dad. I haven't seen her in so long but she's kept me company. About me being sick though, I think I got it from doing so much lately tbh. Before in New York I went to school, went grocery shopping, babysat, and slept basically . And now that it's summer I've partied, drank, smoked, and been out basically every night.

"Kay I'm going to Kats for the night so you'll be alone! Well except for Nina, have fun with her love you sorry!" I hear Maddy yell from downstairs, as she can closes the front door before I can respond. I forgot nina was here so I go in her room while she's playing and ask if she's hungry. She is so I go make her mac and cheese. After she ate We spend time talking, even if she's only 2. In the house it's only us since my mom is wherever she went this week, and Maddy at Kats.

Since my dad left my moms been away basically almost summer. Checking in a few times to make sure I clean and to get more stuff to leave again.

To me I don't mind much. She can't yell at me if she's not here and I can basically be out all night without her knowing.

I look and see my phone buzzing in a tone. It's a call from ash ! I haven't talked to him much since the other night except for a few conversations here and there checking in.

"Hey ma wyd?" He says. God how I love when he calls me that! "Sitting here sick. Wyd" I say, In a raspy voice. "Nothing important so I'll come over" he tells me, "did you not hear I'm sick? What if it's like the Spanish flu or some shit and u get it" I say.

Not that I wouldn't love if he came over, I'd just hate to get him sick. "Then we'll be on our death beds together, Im already on my way so you can't stop me" I let out a huff loud enough for him to hear it when he chuckles and tells me "see you in like 5 minutes alright?" "Fineee" I cave in and hang up. Oh no I look a mess.

The house is spotless since Maddy cleaned yesterday, saying I did to my mom. But I look a mess. I took a shower this morning but I need to brush my teeth and put on cute comfy clothes not bummy ones.

I put on a cute matching grey outfit, brush my teeth, fix my hair, fix my lashes so they aren't crazy, and do the last touches before he gets here.

I sit down on my bed for a few minutes before ash walks in my room with chick fil a. (I know it's homophobic it's banned in my family but I thought it would be cute 😭)

"I told u stop buying stuff for me ash" I say, even if it's not true when it comes to food.
"Don't care" he hands me my food and we sit on my bed eating, talking. "So what got u sick" he asks. "Man Idek." He must've known I was gonna say that cus he tries to hide his giggle and plays the tik tok audio "you gotta leave that dope alone" on his phone, making us both bust out laughing.

After we throw away the trash I feel a little bit better after eating and we sit there talking, listening to music on my tv. After a few minutes my little sister nina runs in and says, "kay, ¿quién es este gringo?" I laugh off and look at ash.

Translation: Kay whos this white boy?

"You have a sister?" He asks, looking back at me. "She lives with my dad so I forgot to mention it I guess." I go and pick her up and tell her, "sé amable con él, no habla español y me cae bien, ¿de acuerdo?"

Translation: be nice to him he doesn't speak Spanish and I like him, okay?

"¡Sus dibujos de caras se ven divertidos!" She laughs to me, (his face drawings are funny!"

I laugh back and tell confused ash "she said your tattoos look funny" he laughs and rolls his eyes at me. "You wanna go get slushies?" Ash asks me.

"But nina?" I say confused. "Bring her, can she have one?" I nod and tell Nina to go get her shoes. Once she comes back we start to walk to the gas station with ashtray on one side of me and Nina holding my hand in the other. I still feel sick but eating helped enough to walk to the gas station and back.

Once we get there I get blue raspberry,
and ash gets cherry.

Nina gets a small green apple and I tell her to get some candy while we're there since I won't want to go get her snacks later. We go up to the register and I pull out the card from my phone case when all ash says is "no" he gives the guy money and I sigh looking at him. "I can pay for nina at least she's not your sister" I say, feeling bad that he's always paying for me.

"Im already paying for hers" he gives me a smirk knowing that he got on my nerves, and we start to head back. Nina is skipping a few feet ahead of us, not looking back with her slushy in her hand. I look down and ash hands me a new vape he got when I wasn't looking. "Ash!" I hit his arm lightly, expressing I don't want him buying my 99€ slushy, but he buys my 20$ vape.

"Ash these are like 20$." I say to him. "Yeah I know that's not a lot" he brags. I look down at it and smile opening it. "Lowkey tho mines about to die so thank u" he chuckles and tells me your welcome. I think and realize it matches my slushy.

Once we get back to my house, nina goes to her room and ash and I go back to mine. "What do u wanna do?" I ask ash. Risky cus I know what he wants to do.

We sit on my bed and he kisses me. I get butterflies just like the other night. I kiss him back getting more comfortable and he puts his hand around my waist so I put mine where I'm cupping his face. He releases his lips from mine with a worried look "what about your sister" he asks "she'll be fine she's probably just watching like cocomelon or some shit like that" he laughs and kisses me again.

I part my lips letting more to happen, and he shoot's his tongue in my mouth 😦 I allow it to happen and do the same. After about 20 minutes we stop and giggle from what just happened. We drink our slushies, and sit on our phones but still talking every few minutes.

Then nina walks in and asks to play. "no ahora nina" I say, (not right now nina)

"el gringo puede jugar conmigo?" She asks all cute. (Can the white boy play with me?) "she wants you to play with her" I say to ash. "Okay" he agrees Surprisingly. "no, nina jugaré contigo más tarde" I tell her (no nina I'll play with you later)

"¿Por qué tus lenguas son moradas?" She asks me, (why are your tongues purple?)
I sit there and look at ashtray and look back at nina. "Uhh go to your room" I say in English. She doesn't speak English like Maddy and I since my dad doesn't very well,
But she understood enough to know what I meant. She takes her candy bag we got from the gas station from my nightstand and walks out, trying to slam the door the best she can. "Okay let's get High" I say, pulling a joint and lighter from the opposite nightstand Nina's candy was on. The one closer to the wall so she'd never notice it.

"You feel better ma?" Ash asks. "Yeah now that your here" I chuckle to him, even if it was corny. He blushes slightly and takes the first puff. He hands it to me and I breath in the same.

"Your beds a mess" he jokes to me.

"This is my whole life right here" I say. My room spotless but my bed full of money, vapes, false lashes, and god knows what else.

The sun starts to go down and my rooms dark, with an exception of my led lights on blue. After a few hours of me laying on ash's chest and us on our phones, I fall asleep on him. I just wanna stay like this forever.